My whole world stops in the best way possible
When I walk out of my room and he actually smiles at me
When it spreads from his mouth to his cheeks to his scrunched little eyes
When she hugs my legs as if she never wants me to leave
When she hangs on for dear life, physically begging me never to desert her
When the light shines through that windshield
When it makes life feel like a movie with nothing but happy endings
When my legs are about to collapse but I fall down in bed
When relief runs through my limbs and comfort arrives
When her face lights up as she makes a dumb joke
When she makes tears come to my eyes with no justification but joy
When the music blares over any background noise
When it drowns out my thoughts and leaves me with only notes
When he wraps his arm around my waist
&
When I feel as though the world would end if he were to let go

I was so satisfied with waking up alone
until I opened my eyes to your arms holding me close
these blank sheets cant provide your warmth
theres no other comfort quite like you

I'm losing grip on the hand that holds me sentient

scars have stained your skin
from battles you have not fought
you've been left to stitch the gashes
that the past has etched in my body
You dont deserve to face this pain
I hate that Im the reason for the sting

This sickness you've given me
while seemingly immune
Has crept through my system
Travelled my bloodstream
Effected my whole being

I'll drown it in medications,
for I suppose it's symptomatic

you are beyond my imagination
far more than a series of words
for you've stolen from the skies
your eyes contain the stars
your soul the cosmos
you've learned from Neptune
and adopted the patterns of the galaxies

spell out your story in your breaths
kiss me tales of your past
and trace your hopes on my skin
hold me like you do your memories
and love me as though I know nothing