It wasn't easy for me
to be strong,
to fight against fate
to build myself back up from the bottom

Just so you know,
just so we're clear

It wasn't selfish being brave
or killing the innocent
so I could have a chance at life
and being the woman I dreamed of being

Just so you know,
just so we're clear

I wouldn't call myself a sinner
because I thought ahead
and chose to lose
your God is no better than mine
just because he agrees with you

Just so you know,
just so we're clear

It wasn't easy to love you
and it never came naturally
I worked at it
strived for it
made my heart sick over it

So just so you know,
and just so we're clear
you were the one who chose death
when you killed the only woman
who ever really loved you.

My head aches
and my eyes burn
My stomach is twisted
with pangs of guilt
with shame
and with loss

This is the letting go of you
this is how it feels to release three long years
of love
and hate
of regret and hope

It doesn't feel good
I feel heavier now
than I once did
weighed down with the agony
of loss and betrayal

When you reached into my heart
you moved further than anyone had before you
your cold calloused hands grabbed deeper
than I even knew existed
and took whatever they could

The world stopped making sense
when you released your grip
up is down and right is wrong
now that you're in love
and I'm left alone again
a woman scorned
out of love
and deep in loss.

Little man lays on my lap
and chews the water from my wetted hair, he watches
his tail and runs happily away

He never calls me baby,
but that's alright, I always leave his cradle
before darkness becomes daylight.

here is where I wait,
like a snake in the grass
for the wicked *****
to come whirling out of my mouth
and take over

You better run when she comes,
I heard that she doesn't like you
She's the woman in the moon
and the monster in my belly
A warrior of God,
and a friend of the devil

My words will come slithering
from my lips,
like itchy, *****, fingers
escaping and running away on their own

These words will gain momentum
and stab at you like hell fire
so you better watch your tongue, boy
before I cut it off
only to laugh at your pain like a banshee
because now you're the one without a voice
How humbling it will be when you're the one
who cannot speak or fight or choose

You can take me now
but my time will come
and then she'll be there
lay destruction down
and walk through the ashes

If looks could ****,
then baby I'd **** you first
I'd shoot you down
and make you bleed
because I hate you,
with everything I am
with every shaking little piece of my body

You seem to think,
that you are made from something great
that your opinion,
is the only opinion
and that your story,
is the only one to be told

But I can see through clouds
I have the gift
and I can lift the veil
I'm not blinded by my ignorance
Instead I learn from it

You've got power now, baby
but it will quickly fade
believe me true
I control the tide
and the waves
and the rain
I'll put out your fire

I'm sorry baby,
to break the news
that one day the sun will burn out
the sky will turn angry
and the lions will roar
that's when I'll take over
that's when my soul will soar.