I can't believe all this time, I thought I brought joy to you.
It is at our darkest hour we spill out how we truly feel, and how you truly feel pains my heart.

I love you, and I love you so much...why do you think I think the worst of you. How can you say all I do is belittle you.

I can't believe this is how you truly feel.

If i bring you so much agony, so much pain then why do you force yourself to stay? Why do you laugh with me? Make love to me?

If this is how you truly feel.

Your words tore through my skin like a depressed child slitting knives through sheets, I yell I scream just by the things you thought of me.

I'm trapped in my thoughts, drowning in disbelief. How can you say those things about me.

I don't believe we deserve an us of this is how you truly feels.

I'm grown, so very grown, way too grown, for all of this.
I'd love to believe I'm smart, maybe a bit too smart for my own good, how pathetic.

Why am I still burdening myself, why am I so stubborn. I wish I could send for a space ship and share my thoughts with aliens, because I get so tired of humans.

He said I'm too emotional, maybe way too emotional indeed, because right now I'm way too numb to feel. But here it comes again.

I don't know what am I. Born to let them fall in love and then shurgs... I chase them away.

I am so very tired, tired of the same old LIES, same old CRYS, same old ROUTINE, same old LOVE, same old BETRAYAL and the same old PAIN.

Nobody knows it but me and that's what scares me, I might die in my sleep tonight of anxiety or heart attack.
Alone with the mysteries of why and what went wrong.

...but if I should never wake up, it's ok. I wont have to worry about feeling again, crying again, hurting again...well, maybe. Maybe I'll be lurking in the shadows of you, sleeplessly with no peace.

When it's all said and done...I'm just too numb to feel

...And here I am in disbelief, how can something so damaged meant to be?
Your dark eyes intrigues me, I'd wait by my phone just to see your name reflects on the screen, the sound of that beautiful song you sent to me.
I get this carried away every time...every time, only with you.

My nights becomes lighter and future with great promises, I'd hold on to you tighter with lips that yearned to kiss. I just don't know when, when I will ever stop missing you. Watching you sleep, so beautiful my soul was delighted.

I get this carried away every time...every time, only with you.

S.B

Just an ordinary little girl in the puddle of mess
a heart so big and a soul so deep, I was never afraid to give.
I will listen to stories of love, but yet I saw drafts of pain

What do you know about love, huh?
What do you know about happy endings?

I grew bitter and dark in a home that drove me mad, a place where there are no lights at the end of the tunnel, a place where I bled myself dry, a place where I'd rather be dead.

Each day after traumas my life was seen as perfect, after hell had broken loose, the world saw me smiling. She had it all...they thought. Maybe I am a good actress, after all, they didn't see the desperation, they couldn't see within me, I had nothing left.

See, this is the scary thought of not knowing, there I was lying on the floor bleeding, through a thin glass I saw myself dying but the world saw me smiling.

Now here I am, not afraid to leap, not afraid to love deep, scared of not knowing but always walking with my heart on my sleeve.
So, if you are going to talk about love, is it really just me or does it strike a nerve of not knowing.
Not knowing if you will be loved in return, not knowing if it will bloom or will it all crash and you watch yourself burn?

does it even scare you a bit? the last words are yours

S.B

The day I found out my purpose, was the day I found out about you.
The day life gave a total new meaning was the day I felt you, my love, my life, my all.

Nothing nor no one could ever take away this feeling, the feeling of joy, the feeling of love. Imagine a love so untouchable, is all that you will receive, because you are now the love that is within me.

Your love is now my love and I can promise you this, I will love you relentlessly, passionately, endlessly...you are me. The world will know about it, the world will feel it and this universe will help to embrace it, my love for you is timelessly.

One day I know I will be able to tell you how much you've saved my life, to give you a life that I always dream about, Its not such a bad one but I'd love for you to have a great one...you just don't understand.

You are the love within me, I felt you from the day you have conceived.

He's the one, my heart told me.
Here I am, once broken..why? no one could ever tell me.
This being has entered my life I once thought was a living lie, but sweet possession he had shown me.

Am I fooling myself, I don't think I am...the way he kissed my lips, his warm touches against my skin.
Here I am, ready to become a slave for him, dazed as he clutches my hand.

You drifted in and out of dreams, the rush that took over me, the timing of his love could not of come a better time.

These are the things love can do?
Is this me being really happy?
...because I felt it, in his kisses...I have missed him so much.

This feeling is so seldom, and I am scared, not of love but how much I am able to give, yet for the first time it is shared equally.

He, in his own right, is a gem that will for ever dazzle in my eyes, the way he looks at me and tells me he loves me...how much I truly do. This is what love can do**

Shantel Broderick