I lived a life with you
Never looking down
We spun around
Falling in different lands

Your negligence is modern
It's new for our daughter

He's working today
We can try tomorrow
You know I hate to lie

Now I'm a liar
I tell my daughter
Daddy is coming

Why?

Gathered today, are the feelings
we never knew what to do with

The thoughts we left alone

Our fears of being accepted
And the guilt of those untold

A pleasing smile or shoulder hug
Climbing our own ladder

A few dozen waiting by the track
For a train that doesn't matter

The worst and unappealing
Hugging the nearest rail

I haven't told you and please don't think too much
Whenever rain is nearing, there's a trickle of self doubt
It reads as more endearing, than I sometimes announce
Along the way and underneath, a pillow spun a story
It harmonized our memories and it sounded safely alluring

In hindsight, humming made speaking tough
Weeds covered up the windows with disregard of spray
Coded words formed sporadically and less likely to behave

This keeper is guided by a crutch
Casually mentioned; it's pouring
They say anyone can be brave
More truthfully, a single touch
Can walk you to the grave

Siren's chase plates
Down an alleyway
Fear is a taste
A tongue
Working is an errand
Lives are not a
stowaway
Tax return railway
Sport can't clause in sin
Only humanity
Burn their own bridge
And piliage within

A sign reads follow me
Into the trees
We explore
Whipping past branches
Lungs sore
We zigzag

Feel the passing breeze
Mistakes and chances
They walk on all fours
Close to the ledge
Dry cough
We drag

Lost in the weeds
A voice announces
On the floor
Crutched and wheezing
Still alive
We flee

[If you called to pick apart everything I say]

I didn't call to deconstruct
Plagiarize or pretend
The daily tone is easier
A very mild

Bl end

Sometimes I stutter
It's enough to want to speak
Eye contact is another

[Okay]

Of course it's a he
It's developmental play
You say she and they
Pronounce we
Forget the words
Open up
They are grey