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little Feb 2022
Monday you are a drunk

(Not trying to steamroll)

Tuesday you are lazy

(Let me have a moment)

Wednesday you are asleep

(I guess I shouldn't finish)

Thursday it can be crazy

(Nothing is wrong)

Friday keep a diary

(Loneliness for me)

Saturday you are blazing

(I won't say a peep)

Sunday is for family

(Invite me)
little Dec 2018
I play the victim.
I'm told.

Play the card;
Fold.

Perjury is a friend.
They hustle on a Sunday.

Oh my dear.
A dead end.

The jack of diamonds.
little Jul 2019
Humanity on the table

I spoke my truth
Ignorant yet abled
Interested in our youth

Mouth trapped with anger

I waited for a word
Leaning on my cover

Let's go inside

Held by the sword
Marking a new path

It crumbled
My fable
little Sep 2018
If you hurt again and again
Forgiveness becomes a sin

Lean on me
I'll be descreet
Winking down the hall

Have you seen a hamster ball
The kind that spin around

Tell me more
And anything else
I'll dance until I fall
little Dec 2018
Liquid walls distort your voice
They guide me to the undertow
Groomed to be a sacrifice
I close my eyes and let go

Haunted by tomorrow
Glued to the clock
I am not ready to swallow
A life outlined in chalk

I am underwater
People pace above my head
Ready for the slaughter
I am pronounced dead
little Oct 2018
Hero in our textbook
Hide me from the next fix

It's too late
Look away

Subliminal crook
You get the jist

Chapter nine or rehab

Family and a daughter
I cry
It doesn't bother

What am I?  
A monster?

Maybe

I wait
A **** star?
little Sep 2020
I miss you

You can't see this

Inside jokes
Restaurants
Laughing
High fives

It's hard to walk away
I love some memories

Questions
Distrust
Anger
Bruises

You can't see this

And that's ok
little Oct 2018
Have you ever seen a ghost
But it was someone that you knew
Alive or at least more than most
Someone looking for a clue

Have you ever told a lie
Promised it was for the best
Grieving yet forbidden to cry
Wake up, shower and get dressed

Have you ever forgiven yourself
Looked clearly in the mirror
Accept the cards you were dealt
And appreciate who appears
little Mar 2020
Gathered today, are the feelings
we never knew what to do with

The thoughts we left alone

Our fears of being accepted
And the guilt of those untold

A pleasing smile or shoulder hug
Climbing our own ladder

A few dozen waiting by the track
For a train that doesn't matter

The worst and unappealing
Hugging the nearest rail
little Oct 2018
I'll see you around
In the center of town
You hold closest to your heart

You'll hear a sound
Tilt the crown
Tuck the tail between your legs

Our common ground
The feelings we drown
Words we should have left unsaid
little Jun 2018
I crave eye contact
Because at least I know if you lie
You lie to my face

Look at me
Answer me
Let me know I'm alive

I want to know which of us is dead
Is it both?
When do we depart?
Your world and mine

Neither of us knows how to be free
little Mar 2019
Hear me try
Before a ghost
Of she, them or they
Believe it or not
Crumbs make toast
Of thee, we or whey
little Nov 2018
You're gone.

Indefinitely?

Her and him;
And me.

Him and her;
There's three.

Them and thee.
They'll see!

I ask again,
Please.
little Nov 2018
I am alone
Eat Tylenol
See vinyl
Skin crawls
Call a friend
Busy call
Take my meds
Night falls

I am alone
Drink alcohol
Promises
No will at all
Stuck at work
Growth is stalled
Home again
Floor I crawl

I am alone
Let's pretend
Press repeat
Question when
Push through
Only pain
Phone call
Revoke
A wall
little Apr 2022
It's so loud
The silence
In my ears
And it hurts

They died.

I can't hear
It's so loud
I'm leaning
Just to listen

A laugh
Or a whistle
Three blinks

I'm trying.
little May 2019
I try
You're kin
Tried

Why try

Asleep
Away
Above
Between

Pry
little Sep 2018
Secondary thoughts from the present
My life isn't all that pleasant
Pills, doctors and self-analysis
Honestly, can seem like paralysis

Thinking about my growth
My need to continuously provoke
A freedom from the oath
That ego that I stroke
A need to be better than both

The illiness and the routine
I was only a teen
I've fled from the scene
Can I wipe my slate clean?
An internal dialogue about understanding my mental illness after a decade of monitored stability.
little Mar 2020
I lived a life with you
Never looking down
We spun around
Falling in different lands

Your negligence is modern
It's new for our daughter

He's working today
We can try tomorrow
You know I hate to lie

Now I'm a liar
I tell my daughter
Daddy is coming

Why?
*******.
little Nov 2019
A sign reads follow me
Into the trees
We explore
Whipping past branches
Lungs sore
We zigzag

Feel the passing breeze
Mistakes and chances
They walk on all fours
Close to the ledge
Dry cough
We drag

Lost in the weeds
A voice announces
On the floor
Crutched and wheezing
Still alive
We flee
little Feb 2020
I haven't told you and please don't think too much
Whenever rain is nearing, there's a trickle of self doubt
It reads as more endearing, than I sometimes announce
Along the way and underneath, a pillow spun a story
It harmonized our memories and it sounded safely alluring

In hindsight, humming made speaking tough
Weeds covered up the windows with disregard of spray
Coded words formed sporadically and less likely to behave

This keeper is guided by a crutch
Casually mentioned; it's pouring
They say anyone can be brave
More truthfully, a single touch
Can walk you to the grave
little 12h
Who was I?
When you didn't care.
What happened?
We
Was it me?
Tell me.
Please!

I want to release
The people
You know them
Who never dared
To walk away

Was it me?
Speak up!
I need to know.
Did I escape?
little Jul 2021
It's probably somewhere
Under couches and stairs

Hiding issues

Splitting hairs


That kinda thing
Look at me
I'm hurting


It's not there.
little Sep 2018
The symptom of an income
Harboring distrust

Bank accounts and whereabouts
Shoulder nod
Another facade
A deadly game we play

Forever young and steady
Regardless of the say

Can we talk tomorrow
It's better just that way
little Apr 2019
As much as I love being unloved
there is always a limit for me

Quiet nights are a better plight
to hear the words before us
Dreamscape.
Her
little Nov 2018
Her
A letter to my daughter:


Be strong in where you stand.

Your Mother and your Father,
Made you with a plan.

We sought a life much different,
From what we learned so far.
A diligent and honest interest,
In hope of lesser scars.

Your Mother and your Father,
We were never meant to be.
Not an end all be all,
Because together we were free.

Tomorrow we brace the future,
All of us stand strong.
Singing a familiar song,
Remembrance is the key.

You don't only bring us love,
You allow us to renew.

And if you ever doubt yourself,
Let me see you through.
She is so much smarter than me.
little Apr 2023
Say something out loud
You will have to acknowledge it
Many spend their whole lives
Repeating the most crucial sentences
They will ever create
Solely within their head
little Aug 30
It would also feel less hurtful when she gushes over TV for something the family she made deals with.

She can't relate past the family that made her deal with it.

It always is about her and Bob.

Like every connection still has to be from her family. And her family is not us.

Which is crazy because she made us.
little Mar 2022
I used to write about the fog
A place I couldn't handle
Everyday I grasped at straws
For my hand just to land on

Grass near a home
A **** that felt gold
Something for me
To hear and to hold

I wish I could feel the fog
I feel like I could find you
I think I know the path

Believe me
I wouldn't
Lie to you
little Mar 2019
Baby born
Knees and toes
Where is Daddy?

He has fees
Haven't
You
Been told?

Knights are nice
Simple is better
I hate twice

Needed
It's heated
little Nov 2018
I stir the ***
Stop that thought

Don't hurt me
Don't get caught

What do I do?
You left a bruise?

Who are you?

Sorry more
Hearts are sore

Goodnight;
I walk away
little Apr 9
I get bored a lot
More so I am lonely

As a child I wanted
People to hold me

Stages overlapped
Growing up too fast

Slipping through gaps
Running to collapse

I heard a theory
It was a nice thought

That I hated my skin
It wasn't mine I was in

Mine was still waiting
Snoring and cranky

For me to find again.
little Nov 15
I think vanity is a poison
Trying to keep a day frozen
The mirror you can't run from
Probably afraid and then some

Grocery trips made me remember
The last day I stumbled

Eyes and ears at every turn
I really wanted to be returned
Running and running
And running when sore

I hit the floor
Blood did pour

I want to know
Who read the news

That my face was gone
little Nov 2021
I see it
I smell it
It always stays
The way you walk away

It's finite
It's strong
I know it well

If you stay
You have to say
The words

Either way
I will play
A role
little Jan 2019
Sadness doesn't own me
We are merly friends
Sadness tests me more
Now that I've put an end

I said goodbye
And goodnight

What more?

Freedom to dream
It's something I look for

But,

Sadness is my friend
And she stays around

Hugging.

Everytime I ask when?
little Aug 2022
Peter Peter had a wife and probably beat her.
He bought her with her father's farewell
No one asked. Nor should you either!
When is the last time you've seen her?
little Sep 2018
Dreaming of Oblivion
Blood and druge through
Clouds still in anger

Aware
And
Prepared

Speaking of forever
Gasps and laughs grew
Grass never finer

Brief
Maybe
True
little Jan 2020
Blues and snooze
Used or abused
Lost in admiration
Sound asleep
All possible sheep
Kept for presentation

Slick and slimy
Pushing behind me
Fall to be free
Breaking on the way
Without delay
It's all very timely

Repeat and found
Nose to the ground
Listen for the tune
You'll lust for noon
Until you walk away

Draw the blinds
Trapped and angled
Hidden all the time
Quietly mangled
Pretend to be fine
little Sep 2019
Of course it's a he
It's developmental play
You say she and they
Pronounce we
Forget the words
Open up
They are grey
little Nov 2019
Siren's chase plates
Down an alleyway
Fear is a taste
A tongue
Working is an errand
Lives are not a
stowaway
Tax return railway
Sport can't clause in sin
Only humanity
Burn their own bridge
And piliage within
little May 2019
I am loved
To an unbelievable degree
Fear of losing you
Brings me to my knees

Please don't go
I scream my plea
Everyone left
Can't you see?

It's just me.

I ruin things
My story will prove it
Don't lie to excuse it

It's me and I'm sorry
I am hard to harbor
I come with a daughter


I'm jarring.
little Nov 2019
[If you called to pick apart everything I say]

I didn't call to deconstruct
Plagiarize or pretend
The daily tone is easier
A very mild

Bl end

Sometimes I stutter
It's enough to want to speak
Eye contact is another

[Okay]
little Jan 2022
When it's said and done
All closed doors creak
Darker than you believe

They're always here
Beneath the floor
Detached and fatigued

How are you today?
Tell me about yourself?
Why do you scream?

Because I plead
For an answer
A little comfort

To be seen
little Nov 23
Squares do cartwheels
On four sides
Rectangle does handstands
little Feb 2019
I wish I was faulty
My dad didn't want me
Sorrow blurs and alter

Murmurs

Nashville Cats

I'll paint and help you
Back to model planes

It was a boy's club
And that was fine

Mental issues

I graduated without you
little May 2019
Tears
Careers
Worth

Mimic
Cryptic
Search

Predator
Prey
Perch
little Apr 2019
Hush!

Stop all.

Breathing,
Returning,
Repeating.

Variance.

Crowded exploration,
Yellow expectation.

Collision.

They didn't stall.

Ambulance;
Deadly trance.

Crawl.
Love for all. Poetry.
little Aug 2021
My name is Anne
It happens too much
I get sad and confused
I don't want to make a fuss
I've been hit and bruised
I've been touched
I have been used
For another's rut
It's ok to be sad
It can feel like too much
People have hurt me
I am enough
And you at enough too. Thank you for being you.
little Sep 2018
I heard a whisper at thirteen,
It told me to die.
I heard a thunder at fifteen,
It told me to hurt myself.
I heard lightning at seventeen,
It told me it was over.
little Sep 2018
He fell asleep on my floor
The air is different for me

He opened a door
And then a drawer
I grovel on your knees

Ladies and men
We like to pretend
The roles of who we please
little Sep 2020
Stop praying for someone
Who can't be here today
Pray for the person
You see everyday

It's easy to look
At your own grave
Stop praying for help
Ignoring the signs
We are all tired
Of your design
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