I have thoughts
I have thoughts
I might be one of the greatest writers
I might be one of the greatest poets
I might be one of the greatest composers
I might be one of the greatest singers
I might be one of the greatest movie makers
I might be one of the greatest influential speakers
I might be one of the greatest actors
And I might be one of the greatest lovers

But here I am working in marketing not sure how to go about it not sure if I wanna be here
And here I am studying not sure if I wanna graduate not sure if I want to face real life
And here I am craving you not sure if you crave me too not sure if I can ever truly love you if you don't love me too
And here I am thinking
But my thoughts are not coming true

I am not sure how to go about it
I am not sure how to apply it
I am not sure how to define it
I am not sure how to define me
I am not sure how to define you
I can't explain me

And I'm not sure if anyone can
If I can't ?

My powerful thoughts are just thoughts it seems no matter what I do
I have come so far
And I might have went the wrong way ..

Even that I'm not sure if it's true

All we wanna do is be free
Free
Free
Free
Free
Free
Free
But what is freedom ?

The hands on the clock keep moving
And I'm still over thinking you
Might this be an illusion ?

I talk but I scream with confusion
Can you hear the scream or is it covered my my subtle fusion
My emotions are no delusion  
In my emotions there's no confusion


The hands on the clock keep moving
And my heart is growing with crave
I crave you more and more
But my mind my mind is lost in a constant war
coup d'état à self invasion
And I lose both ways cause I am one nation
I need to put myself back together
I need some self evauation

But if I have you I'd lose gladly
I'd lose myself and win myself
What are you doing to my visualization
Im lost in a Coup d'état à self invasion

Walk through the dark streets
Walk through the glittering lights
I walk with you
will you walk with me
Rip up my shell
Rip up my shell
And see the garden inside
Our secret garden
With wild flowers, roses and butterflies
With the flickering lights and the golden fountains
Walk with me and you will experience
A defenition of life that will shift your existance
Be the fire of my *****

Walk with me
Come here and save me
I'll make you laugh, mad, crazy
Make me laugh make me mad make me crazy
Invade my space invade my existance
Inturrupt my conciousness
Be the theif I can't seem to steal you
So steal me love me invade me

Why are you standing there looking so beautiful
Why are you standing still walk with me
Be the fire of my *****
Break my shell
Like I tried to break yours

I thought it would hurt more with time
I thought I would never forget you
They say if I didn't forgive you I will never get over you
But I didn't forgive and I forgot I forgot your face your voice your walk
I forgot
And when I did see you I remembered exactly why I did what I did
Why I left
You don't deserve me
I'm too good for you
And it was either I treat you the why you treat me or I leave
So I did and I forgot and now
That you reminded me
I'm glad it's over
I'm not even glad
The feeling I have is indifferent it's nothing
I'm not sure how to describe it I just know it's not regret.

Hey . . .
How are you
I kind of need you right now
I know we aren't that personal but you're probably the only person who would understand me right now :/
I'm frustrated and confused my self esteem is bruised and I can't seem to fit in my own shoes.
Tell me what to do tell me what should I do ?
Tell me what is right tell me what wrong cause I can't seem to figure it out.
I want you to tell me cause you seem to have it all together.
You're kind you're  so kind and you seem to have figured it out, how to stay kind and go about your life
And I know we aren't that personal but God you deserve to be praised ! you should know how exceptional you are to me.
I just want to be in your presence
I want your presence to overshadow mine
I want your thoughts to color my mind
I want to lose myself in you
Cause I feel like I have already lost
I feel weak I feel vulnerable I feel like an outsider
I feel like I wear my sensativity on my sleeve
And it's shows I know it does in my eyes in my moves am all shades of blue
No matter how hard I try I swear I tried I tried I swear I tried hero man
I tried to grow strong I tried to get along I tried to shut the sound in head I tried to think of you instead
But I know you have a life and I'm just another person who your kind to but I can't help it I'm kind of in love with you

I don't know how it would work but I just want to be in your presence I want you to clear my thoughts.
God I'm so broken and lost and I have trust issues cause I can't seem to get along
I have trust issues cause everyone I let in has hurt me so deep that I can't even breath
And I know everyone is bound to get hurt but it shows on me tell why kind man tell why I can't act like I'm fine tell me why this world and my soul cannot intertwine
Hold me kind man make me feel alright tell me that you understand tell me that everything will turn out fine.

It's kind of sad and it's kind of happy
When you are all by yourself kind of alone
But you're in this zone of self recognition
Self knowledgement and it's  too much self actualization
It's kind of sad and it's kind of happy
Your on a ride a slow ride and it's kind of dark and it's kind of fun
But I'm here and I can't be anywhere else
There's no one to call no one to talk to even if they're near
You talk but its just sounds you say to get by  
And your left here kissing your  nicotine
It's the only thing that gets you that hears you
Your a slave for that nicotine
It's kind of good for you but it's also the death of you
But it's kind of good for you cause it's the only thing keeping you sane
But it's also the death of you
And it's kind of sad and it's kind of happy
But you can't be can't be anywhere else