I’ve lost it
There is no point
Anymore
Help me
Save me
From myself

So here I sit, contemplating
Alone in my thoughts
Wallowing in self pity
Alone in my own head
Wanting for something
Not sure what
Needing for something
Unaware
Of some tangible thing
Something to hold
Such a thing
Does not exist
Such a thing
I cannot have
Just beyond my grasp
I see others enjoy
Laughing in frevolity
While I sit in contemplation
Drowning in my thoughts
Unaware of those
All around me
Laughing with joy
While I sit alone
In silent contemplation
Dreaming of a life
I will not have, dreams
I will not reach, hopes
I will never see
So I sit in quiet thought
Alone in my own head

The damage is done
Blade already ******
Brain already shut down
Now numb and empty
So void of feeling
Hollow to the core
Substance is long gone
What is left?
Empty shell of a girl
Already damaged, done
Vacuous and blank
Like a sheet of paper
Not yet tainted
With lies already written
By my own devilish hand
A blank slate with
Room left for life
To be lived and loved
What is left?
Nothing, emptiness
A blank book with room
For written words
By my own hand
What is left?
Hollow to the core
An empty shell
Already damaged and done