i am much
like the moon
over a quiet city with a light
very dim but still
ever so slightly radiant
yet nothing compared to what
oversees the busy city that bathes
underneath the brightest light
they have known -
other lights shine brighter than the moon
not much outshines the sun, but
you can still see the moon against the blue

someone once told me that love
was all sparks and fireworks -
that electric look in his eyes
when he catches yours with his

but when he held my hand
it was not engulfed with flames
and when he put his arms around me
there were no butterflies
then he'd smile at me
and my heart rate stayed the same

though-
he'd have me blushing
with his sweet words
smiling at his childish ways
and looking away with every question
who's answer i felt could change everything

when they told me about love
they talked about how he'd hold me
never about how the things he would say
and the way he'd do the things he do
would make me fall in love
with his very being

here's to being honest
on how a broken heart works

it's two in the morning
and all my thoughts turn to
the only boy i ever
fell in love with

and even though I
have somone waiting
on me

my thoughts turn to my
first love
who never loved me
like i wanted him to

gave me so much
to remember him by

and taught me so much
like how to love
even when love won't work

and here's to all the things
we managed in half a year-

to that late night call  that left me
drifting off to the lull of
soft snores and rustlinG blankets
and the muRmurs whispered in the morning
as if fEll in an out of sleep-

each daY greeTed witH good morning texts
And finding somethiNg to fill the days with
like intrusive attacKs during pasSing periods
and casual hoodie stealing

to late after noons filled with nothing
but questions and learning
FavORite colours and nicknames
inside jokes and late night drinks

every day ending with The struggle
to keep up witH a night owl
and a good night tExt …

moments weren't made to last
but MEMORIES were
and here's to the ones
i'll always remember

It's five am
And I still remember
That night we stayed up
Asking each other questions
About shoe sizes
And those spaces in our hearts
And whether or not they were
Filled, empty or hurting

I can still remember all
Those times I hugged you
And I swear that even now
I've hugged you more than
Anyone else this year

It's five twenty
And I remember
Those hour long Skype calls
We would have even though
Both of us are silent
And never have much to say

I remember all those times
We'd argue about our opinions
And even though they were
So very different
Yours made me happy

And I can remember
All those times I felt sad
Yet you were able to make me
Feel so happy
Like all those hearts
You left in my mailbox

I remember that time
You tricked me into going home
With this panda bear
That will forever keep
Since you talked me into
Keeping him.

It's five twenty five
And I remember all those times
I looked forward to walking home
Cause you walked home with me
Even though it was cold

I remember
How I'd make you worry
And I'm very sorry for that
And I'm sorry that there were
Things I could never bring
Myself to tell you no matter
How hard I tried.
But I'm only so courageous
So I've always talked in
Questions and puzzles.

It's five thirty
And I remembered this
And so much more
And I will for a long time
Because you gave me so
So much to remember
You by.

I'll remember how you were
The first boy I ever let so
Close to my heart.
You were the first boy
I actually ever
Really let myself fall for
And no girl can ever
Forget that.

Especially a hopeless
Romantic
Like me.

Thank you for everything
You gave me to remember
You by.
I hope I at least gave you something
To remember me by