There is no single reason why
I shouldn’t be allowed to cry
To weep or mourn or simply grieve
It’s only human, I believe
I know on the outside it might seem
I have it all; I’m living the dream
But there are some holes and cracks in me
Filling up with sadness so rapidly

And you might roll your eyes and say,
“You’ll learn what struggle is one day!
“You’re still so young; you have no right
“To call such ease a strenuous plight.”
Others will sneer and shout at me,
“You’ve lived your life ungratefully!
“You’re given all you want and need
“Why do you still live in evil greed?”

But neither you nor they will know
How much I’m stifled by my own woes
There are some things I cannot buy
Or get no matter how hard I try
For joy and peace, they matter not
Anymore in a world that wrongly taught
Its people that money is worth far more
Than choosing the life that’s rightfully yours

They took my life away from me
I know I can’t escape or flee
So I just nod and accept my fate
To do anything is far too late
Now you know that when I weep
It’s for the life I failed to keep  
And death I know is the only way to touch
The freedom and peace I crave so much

I do my hair at night
Play dress up in the dark
Why do I show the best
The prettiest parts of me
In shadows and closed rooms
Where no one else can see?

In the morning, I don’t brush
My dark unruly hair
I don’t powder up my face
To hide my imperfections
Is it the real or ugly side
I’m showing by these actions?

But can’t they all be
One and the same thing?
To be ugly and beautiful
And at once so completely real
It was the way we were made
We changed it to fit our ideals

And I smile behind closed doors
The only real smile I can muster
I laugh at nothing at all
When there’s nobody else around
If I do this out there, I’m crazy
So out there, I make no sound

Why is beauty only found
Behind all these closed doors?
In shadows and hidden corners?
They’re the only real places we are allowed
To be free of ruthless players

I think I know why now.

Osculate.
To kiss.
An innocent brush
Of two lovers’ lips

A glance into
The other’s wide eyes
A sharp intake of breath
Soft fingers on cheeks

The first taste is always
The purest of all
A gasp against mouth
The tugging of hair

There will never be enough
Not even after you’re out
Of precious breaths
For the best kinds of love and passion,
Steals the air out of your lungs

Yet it will be easy,
As simple as breathing
Just with a new kind of oxygen
The best one we know

Obliterate.
Destroying all
That is innocent
Two sinful souls
Uniting into one

Heavy breaths and
Pleasured gasps
Fingers sliding
Against smooth skin

And the time comes
It’s a giant explosion
The strongest of all
Known human emotions

Osculate.
A simple kiss.
A promising brush
Of two lovers’ lips.