It's a cloud
A big bad scary cloud
I see it all the time
I feel it too
It's in my heart
In my stomach
In my head
It's deafening
I feel like i can't move
Cant speak
Can't think
I try to be productive
It's what i'm good at
But i just can't
I sit in my room
My laptop open
Watching something but not really watching
I tell myself i'll study
I'll do it tonight
Tomorrow
I don't
What if i fail
What if i don't get in
What will happen
I don't know
Can't know
But i think
My mind runs and runs
Until it stops under the cloud
I’m back in the calm lull of the cloud
Telling me to be quiet
telling me to sit there
Telling me not to care
But i do
I have to
I want to
I need to
The cloud shuts it out
The big bad scary cloud
And still nothing gets done
I look up at that cloud
That big bad scary cloud
Something happens
It starts to rain
And it rains
And it pours
And it rains again
Until.
It's gone
My big bad scary cloud is gone
And my fear along with it
It told me i’m not good enough
I am
It told me i’m not smart enough
I am
It told me i’m not strong enough
I am
I can do whatever it is that the world throws at me
I can do it because
I AM ENOUGH