some
    people
          throw
             around
                 words,
                      that
                          others
                               consider
                        ­             precious...

Didn't you know?
Its all because of me,
It's all my fault,
I hurt you,
I hurt them,
I hurt me,
Didn't you know?
It's all because of me,
It's all my fault..

Mind telling me,
You're fat,
You're simply  ugly,
You're not enough,
Give up,
Stomach telling me,
Feed me,
It's been days,
Throat telling me,
I'm in pain,
Stop bringing everything back up,
Iron telling me,
I'm very low,
Take care of me,
You're slipping away,
Heart telling me,
She is the one,
Stay for her,
But I've been hurt so much,
Blade telling me,
End it all now,
Doesn't it feel good,
Starving,
Pain,
Broken,
In love,
Confused,
Stay Or go?

She is long gone,
Didn't you see,
See the way she looked at the ground,
The way she always frowned,
She is long gone,
Didn't you see,
Where her wrist look like bars,
Where her thighs look like a picture,
Where her sides look like a war,
She is long gone,
Didn't you see,
The way she cried herself to sleep,
The way she did a fake smile,
Then glance at the ground,
Didn't you see,
She is long gone,
Didn't you see the way she begs for help,
Didn't you care?
Well you didn't see soon enough,
Because She is long gone,
And as in she I mean *me

Sitting here,
Here alone,
Alone crying,
Crying my eyes out,
My eyes out because i'm loosing,
Loosing Myself,
Myself because i'm lost,
Lost because you are gone,
You are gone because you had to go,
You had to go, but now,
Now I want to go too,
To go with you,
With you, So tell me,
Tell me my sides,
My side, my thighs,
My thighs, my wrist,
My wrist will that,
Will that end it,
End it to where I can,
I can go with you,
With you up there,
So tell me?

Blood boiled in every vain,
Like a flicker in every flame.
Tears streaming from my eyes,
'Cause my life is built on lies.
Overpowered by my fears,
So I kept quiet for many years.
The secrets tore me up inside.
With a twisted mind and arms atied
They took their turns,
So I buried the burns.
I grew up thinking it was my fault.
My fault for every ****, and every assault.
Those dark memories still haunt my brain,
And still I feel I'm the one to blame.
Every night I lie awake,
Wondering how much I can take.
If only someone would have listened,
To the screams and to the pleads.
Maybe I could have ended it all,
And still be able to stand tall.
But I can't take it ant longer,
They say you can't hurt me anymore,
But I'm not so sure,
But tonight enough, is enough,
You can no longer hurt me..