Wife beatings
Child beatings
No peek receivers
***** weighing

BYE!

We danced toward
each other's wounds

with gentle step
and touched inside

and now the bleeding
has resumed

and all this blood
is hard to hide.

i
eat
sleep
breathe
feel
and
see.          
                      but,
                      i
                      find
                      it
                      hard
                                        to
                                        be
                                                             me.

This weekend,
weekend of hell,
Overdose was the reward,
I couldn't take the pain,
But I end up still being here,
Last night,
I ****** up,
Like always,
And now i'm zero days clean,
What a surprise?
No,
Because I'm known as a mess up,
I couldn't take the pain..

Don't you,
You hear,
Hear the,
The stuttering,
Stuttering between,
Between the,
The words,
Words when,
When I,
I say,
I am,
Am Fine,
Because I,
I feel,
Feel the,
The pain,
Pain of,
Of the,
The Lie,
As I,
I say,
Say it,
You Didn't know,
Did you,
Because my whole life is a lie,
I'm NOT fine..

Tomorrow..
I'm braking all over again,
Crying my eyes out,
Crying to sleep,
Tomorrow,
Not feeling alive,
Because I realize,
Where are you?
Not here living,
With me,
Devin,
Why did you leave,
I can't take this pain,
I'm braking,
Ugh..

You all thought I was kidding.
Kidding when I said I mess up.
Mess up with ever chance I get.
No matter what.
I find a way.
And this one out of all the times.
This one hurts the most.
So without her.
My story ends here.
I'm saying goodbye.
I can't take it anymore.