"we know that you have suicidal thoughts..."
then why havent you done anything to help me?
why wont you let me get medicine for it?
**"you dont know anything."

what i wrote:
L----,
to old memories.
happy valentines day.
A------.

what i wanted to write:
L----,
to old memories,
the ones that i miss and cry about,
our first kiss, all the precious words and gifts..
i miss you and i still love you, i dont know what to do.
i dont know if you feel this way.
im broken, was broken and you accepted, or at least dealt with me,
for that i will always love you.
if you still have those letters from exactly a year ago, read them,
if you dont, just remember with all your heart the words that i wrote.
its still all so true.
i really do still love you.
A------.

i wish i had any other addiction than this;







breathing.

I am so*                          Worthless

                           *Hopeless              Invisible

                                           Helpless
                                                                 Damaged
                             Lost
                                             flawed
                                                                 Fragile
                                  Hurt
                                                    Confused
                                                                            Hurt
                                 Unlovable
                                                            Sad
                                                                          Ruined
                                   *Scared