If, for some reason, I don't make it any longer, just know I am not in pain. I spent my last few months questioning and discovering myself. I was born a female. 'A beautiful baby girl.' Onalee was her name. Isn't it adorable?
   I spent 15 years thinking, believing I was a girl. That I would grow into a perfect woman.
   No. I'm not a girl, my name is not Onalee. Not anymore at least.

There is a shadow
under this red rock
(Come in under the shadow
of this red rock)
And I will show you
something different from either
Your shadow at morning
striding behind you
Or your shadow at evening
rising to meet you
I will show you fear
in a handful of dust

the
only thing I'm incapable of is
                                                          fall­ing for you
                             the
only thing I want to do is
                                                            ch­erish you
                                                             ­                                     the
                               one thing you taught me was to
never act on my feelings


                                     I get hurt if I do

I write in rhymes
That fool you to believe
I've live for a long time
But really I'm naive

I don't know anything
I haven't been through
Anything that warrants
Such sad behavior

I'm depressed without a reason
I'm hurt by old memories I can't change
I'm heartbroken by someone who never loved me
I'm sensitive, without a clue as to why

The road is humble
it doesn't partake
in rights from wrong
Yield !!!
take a moment to think
be courteous
safe and thankful.