And then I asked,
“What is love really?
Why does everyone keep talking about it?
And is it really worth it?”

No one answered,
There was no one to answer,
The question dissolved in thin air,
I was left alone to ponder,

It was a long lonely walk,
But it always worked that way,
You can achieve the best at your worst,
But it’s always good to have someone by your side

And then it dawned on me,
Like a cool breeze in summer,
And warmth on your darkest winter night,
It came as a relief to my train of thoughts

It’s not love that I yearn,
It’s the passionate company that I seek,
Undemanding, faithful, ever beautiful, and unending,
It silently grew on me and crumbled my beliefs

“Why is it so difficult to find such a love then?
Is it not there or I don’t know where to find?
The quest is unsettling and I am on the edge, just about to fall,
Am I doing it all wrong?”

And something in me echoed, it does not come to people who hurry,
It is a game of give and take,
Wait for it to happen, when it does, its brightness shall outshine the sky,
And trust my dear child; it will stay with you forever.

-Natasha

You feel so lonely,
the shadows overtake you,
things never feel the same,
if only.

You don't feel accepted,
you've held on fairly well,
to your credit,
but endurance can only go so far.
You're at wit's end,
the end of your rope,
frayed and broken,
but don't let go.

Letting go seems easy,
no more suffering,
no more sighs,
echoing through your soul.
Your body is wracked with sobs,
shaken,
but you can't give in,
don't pull the pin.

Do NOT give in,
don't let it **** you in,
the tidal wave,
the thunderstorm in your head.
If you pull that trigger,
you might as well do me too,
the pain you'll cause is greater by far,
than the hand you've been dealt.

Don't give in to what is easy,
do not give into the pain,
but don't drown it out either,
life isn't a game.
No matter the hardship,
no matter the trial,
day by day,
morning by morning,
how great will be your reward,
be it a culmination of humanistic ideals,
or a loving father's arms.