I lived life and enjoyed it the same
but always
there will be pain
just when it looked up
the thunderstorm came
but there's nothing like the gleam of the street
just after it's rained

As I replicate my thoughts
recollect my intentions
and
re-seize my emotions.



I find that
Time has a funny way of distorting things.



It
revives the life that
reveals the truth that
reviles a saint..



look at now
not then..
not when..

The only way that
time makes sense.



Man, men
mice, moose
it doesn't matter really

lose that thought.

I approached this tree
something was strange about it
Almost as if it pulled me to its location
It was a fruit bearing tree
apples it seemed
But the color of the apples
was like nothing once seen
Against better judgement
I plucked one and ate it
It was the most delicious
tasty treat
When I bit into the apple
It made the world around me
bright
and vivid
It made me happy
I was unaware that such a thing
could bring such great feelings
I ran back home
Got a basket
Came back and plucked enough apples
for a year!
It was the best year..
Then
I ran out of apples
So naturally
I ran back to where I had found them
but when I got there
the
tree was gone?
I didn't understand how a tree
just left
it confused me
Afterward
I cut my losses
and assumed life would
return to mediocrity  
I was wrong
The year following
the best year
was the worst year
I longed for another apple
Any other food
made my stomach
HURT
It made me sick
soon enough
no other food was appetizing
enough.
but I survived
Two years after the best year
one year after the worst
life began to return to normal.
I went grocery shopping
for the first time in two years
I had a good time
I tried some things with different
recipes
Life was good.
When I returned from the store
I was putting my goods away
but then
when I opened my cupboard
my basket fell out
and onto the floor rolled
one of the apples
Apparently
I missed one
I picked it up off the floor
thought about it for the while
went to my window
and tossed it
it landed in my neighbor's
yard
His daughter
who was getting out of her car
walked over and grabbed it
but before I could yell at her not to bite
she did just that
and ate the whole thing
There was something about those apples
normally people wouldn't eat
a purple apple would they?
I felt bad for what I thought would happen to her
after she ate that apple
but it seems
she won the lotto
and moved to France
I must have accidentally
saved the best
for last.

"I know that doesn’t seem to make sense…
but somehow in my mind…
well, never mind, I don’t know."

Another day I wake up
Realizing how absolutely astronomical
It was that we met.
The series of events that had to occur
For us to cross paths-
The eventuality of our friendship.
It's mind boggling.  
You slowed down time.
Your smile dimmed the sun.
Your heart was unmatched in it's ferocity for love.
He destroyed you.
Now you're gone and I've no idea where.
Love you.
I hope you're ok.