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I don't understand you
I never did.
You are an incomprehensible, alien creature
Attractive in your unpredictability
Devastating in your detachment
Locked away from me in a strange, unfeeling world.
You don't need friends
You don't need me
And soon, I hope, I won't need you either.
I don't understand you
I never did.
 Jan 2014 Lanayru
Hallee
prison
 Jan 2014 Lanayru
Hallee
being in your own personal prison is so lonely.
I cannot stand the sight of my own body and
it's like there is life trapped inside of a home I am not programmed to love.
chemical imbalances are easy to blame
so instead I focus on that fact that I cannot go longer than 26 hours
without caving into the persistent animal that
lives under my diaphragm.
the loneliest moments of my life
are when I find myself in a dark room
with my clothes off and my demons out to play.
they laugh and they pull at every inch of my collapsing body.
with tears streaming down my face I cup at my stomach and thighs.
it's like I'm screaming
I'm sorry
but actions speak louder than words
so I'm probably whispering.
the structure of temple may be beautiful
but the demons that reside inside
do not agree.
I am not fighting a battle with myself.
I am fighting against myself.
against my flesh and bones.
 Jan 2014 Lanayru
Taylor Rehsif
I’ve never found charm in speaking
words that you don’t mean
or falling over sentences
struggling with broken speech
the same way that I have never found home
in the body I call mine
that internal war I fight
between my heart and between my mind.

The world will never understand
why I tremble in daily conversation
I cause confusion in my thoughts
skipping over words in trepidation
But miscommunication then turns to judgement
without a second glance
and your lack of hesitation destroys me
tracing it’s steps into my one woman war

Well isn’t that just like your fears,
setting you up for failure?
Every time I catch a glimpse of you
My heart just comes unglued
And all I hear is an echoing
“You'll never be enough for me.”

I’ve heard your flirty stories
Of empty kisses and their glories
And it makes me wish I had the same,
That I could love another and feel no shame.

I’m happy that you’ve found felicity
In the hearts of many boys, consistently.
And me? I feel I’ll be alone for quite a while
And I’ll not be causing any blushful smiles.

But... c’est la vie, you see.

As you always play it coy
As you jump from boy to boy
Do you search for glimpses of me
As I look for you in everyone I see?

Love, I hope your dreams are coming true.
And mine as well? Oh, mine are too.
Every nightmare that’s ever crossed my mind
Has reared its ****** head and come to life.
 Jan 2014 Lanayru
Megan Grace
it scares me that
one day I'll have
to open my hands
and set you free.
don't you want
to stay forever
instead?
 Jan 2014 Lanayru
kelsey
You’re wandering in my tomorrow,
I’m sleeping in your yesterday.
I was always far behind you,
Because you would never stay.
 Dec 2013 Lanayru
Maxx G
I love you
And you'll never know
For I never say so

It's you
Residing in my thoughts
The reason behind
The ink being spilled
Into these papers

It's you
These words are
Pleading to stay
In between the lines
That I say

I shouldn't
But I need you
More than I thought
I should
And could

When you said
That you like to read
I immediately
Wanted to make you
A whole library

And maybe for you
I'd write even
The ones
I never thought
I would
 Dec 2013 Lanayru
Jess Goff
You can sleep, they encourage it actually.
You can sleep all day, and then again all night. It's easy when your so exhausted.
They'll give you drug after drug and with each one you fade out even more.
You stay tucked under your giant blanket, and make sure that your hand is propped up so the tube won't hurt under your skin.

When the peppy nurse walks in holding a vile full of clear liquid, you roll your eyes.
Just imagine the slick fluid quickly over taking every part of you.
You fade, and drift, and slide, and fall, and fade.
But you don't dream.
Drugs, hospital, cancer, sleep, dreaming, dreams
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