a box of memories
some good
some bad
a shoe box full
some sad
some joyful
a box of what i can't remember
some painful
some lovely
a shoe box spilling over
some heart breaking
some heart mending

my heart beats fast
the concrete is cold
my legs feel like lead
the air is bitter
my head burns
the blood is hot
my feet are throbbing
the footsteps get closer
my shoulders are heavy
the roots stick out of the ground
my foot catches
the mud fills my mouth
my chest heaves
the footsteps stop next to me
my eyes squeeze shut
the breeze is calm
my hands push up
the sun sets slowly
my legs won't lift
the footsteps were a man
my shirt pulls around my neck
the man drags me to my feet
my feet slips from under
the man picks me up
my legs swing quick
the man grunts but he still hangs on
my head feels light
the man smiles sinisterly
my mind goes black

you hurt me
but im still here
you scared me
but i will survived
you stole my innocence
but i will rise
before i was afraid
but know i fear no more

you broke my heart
but im not dead
you killed my dreams
but i can make more
you haunt my mind
but i can forget
before i was afraid
but know i fear no more

at the start
it never crossed my mind
that i could fall for you
or anyone for that matter
but i am truly
                                                           ­      in love
the way you move dancing with me
moving to an unheard beat
makes me fall so much deeper
that i saver every moment
                                                          ­        with
you, every second
floating on air
floating in the raindrops
and the snowflakes
that sparkle on your soft skin
                                                            ­   the way
a dew drop makes a leaf
that much more beautiful
in the buttery sunlight
while your working on a project
because i love everything
                                                      ­        you make
and i know
you see the way you
                                                         Make me feel

most people see me as
a happy person because
i laugh easily,
i smile a lot,
i joke a lot.

but deep down
in my heart,
i am fragile,
i can get hurt easily,
but i choose to not
show it to the world.

instead of being sad,
i choose to laugh to cover it.
maybe you can call me
"the queen of the mask"

by this,
you can tell
that most of the time
when I'm laughing,
I'm not really laughing,
i was trying so hard to hide
my sad

you don't know
and i dont always say it
i know i don't make it clear
you don't understand
and i don't say it
but you are my roots
you are my soul
you don't know
how much i need you
maybe i should say it more
because i love you
and you need to know
what you mean to me

fragile yet strong
clear yet dark as night
perfect yet flawed
beautiful yet unbreakable

i cant trust him
now ive got someone
But its cold in my heart
so cover me
Because home was a dream
till you came along
But you gave me false hopes
And now your gone