It's not what I asked for Sometimes life just slips in through a back door And carves out a person And makes you believe it's all true And now I've got you And you're not what I asked for If I'm honest I know I would give it all back For a chance to start over And rewrite an ending or two For the girl that I knew
Who'll be reckless just enough Who'll get hurt but Who learns how to toughen up when she's bruised **And gets used by a man who can't love
The numbness has begun to fade And now I descend into panic As every single ******* thing I've been through and never told Every single thing I never Had the chance to cry about Every single ******* thing I've held in since I was six Is bursting at my seams, And no amount of stitches Can keep it from leaking out
I am beaten down, worn out, utterly emotionally and mentally exhausted And a giant weight sits on my shoulders that I carry around all the time A choice I have to make. Do I break what's already broken, or leave it to break others