I just don't understand,
Just as I was starting to be 'Okay',
Happiness is pulled from me,
I'm not meant to feel this way.

I've started to move on,
I've met someone new,
She hasn't replaced,
Just stops me thinking of you.

I'm not saying we're together,
But she makes me forget the pain,
Hopefully, things keep going well,
And my heart beats again.

But as of now,
I wait with a needle and thread,
To sow my heart back together,
And lock up the pain it once bled.

...******* for the pain you've inflicted,
I don't think you know what you've done,
But no matter what has been,
I still truley believe you're the one.

I hate you,
I love you more,
Even though you stabbed,
And threw my heart on the floor.

You're so beautiful,
With your long constant colour changing hair,
You take your time with people,
To show you really care.
You speak with your soft voice,
You embrace with your loving arms,
You make everyone smile,
With your beauty and charms.

You're a rose,
Which my hand is clenched to,
It hurts me so much,
The blood pours true,
I won't let go though,
My soul wont let me,
My body is incomplete with out you,
My life is empty, can't you see?

I need your love,
Your kiss, your touch,
I need you,
I miss you so much,
I can't go a day,
Without you running through my mind,
I may be fighting a dead cause,
But they say Love is blind.

No wonder you fell out of love with me,
This pathetic mess that I've become.
I wish I was anyone else in the world right now,
Anyone.
All I gave you was love,
I gave you my everything,
And you gave me back the same,
For you I would do anything.
Yet, you throw me away,
Reduced me to nothing but this,
A man with no motivation,
No inspiration, falling in to the abyss.
I still think of you,
Every single moment,
My life is in pieces,
And you're my missing component.
I can't explain this feeling,
Emptiness, for lack of words,
I no longer see the sun,
Or hear the chirps of the birds.
I just exist, in this loneliness of mine,
Like I said before, emptiness, is all I feel,
I'm still waiting to wake up,
Surely this can't be real...

I hate this place,
For I can't seem to leave,
Wherever I roam,
I'm in this place of grief.
Its paths seem to go on forever,
An infinate corridor of hell,
This place is a curse, a wicked spell,
And into it I fell.

I hate this place,
Even the doctors are confused,
They cant help me,
Or at least they refused.

This place isn't physical,
Yet it follows wherever I roam,
Its a mental state,
And it's my new home.

I no longer sleep,
I no longer feel,
I just exist,
In my loneliness...

How can you be there for someone,
If they won't let you?
How can you love someone,
If they wont let you?
I will always love her,
Despite that she doesn't feel the same,
I may show you the sun,
Yet all I see is rain.
I live a lie,
I show a facade,
My hearts wounds are open,
You just see its scarred.
My life is empty,
My life is destroyed,
My heart has been replaced,
In its place, an empty void.

Today I thought of you,
Everytime I close my eyes,
This happens everyday,
And everytime, my strength dies.

I can't look at myself in the mirror,
Without seeing you,
And when I see you, I break down,
In the past, I flew.

I've lost my princess,
I've lost my inspiration,
My life has lost reason,
My life has no direction.

I can't put my thoughts into this...
My mind is racing with its eyes closed,
My chest is left wide open,
Leaving my scared, dead heart exposed...

I feel dead...

I don't hate you for not loving me anymore,
but I hate myself for still loving you.
I assure that every word in this,
Every single one, is true.
I love you so ******* much,
And I'm clinging on to hope,
But I'm starting to loose the will to live,
I've already tied my rope.
I probably won't do it,
I'll stop myself in the final seconds,
But death is constantly tempting,
"Come to me" he beckons,
I don't hate you for not loving me anymore,
But I hate myself, for everything I'm not,
Karma gave me all the bad luck,
I'm due some back, I guess she forgot.
I'm not the man I used to be,
I was improved by our passion,
I was smelted from our love,
Our happiness, and our compassion.
I will always be here,
Waiting for you to come back,
I'll be living my life, just not fully,
Because a reason is what I lack.
I used to have a reason, you,
But you're no longer there,
Just a scar on my heart,
Of which I'm proud to wear,
I don't hate you for not loving me anymore,
But I hate myself, for hating you,
I've somehow turned this pain into hate,
But this hate isn't real, just an attempt to pull through.
I will never hate you, I have nothing but love for you,
But this love is killing me, its tearing me apart,
Let me show you how to fall in love again,
Let me take you back to the start?