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1.2k · Jun 2013
Monotony.
Krusty Aranda Jun 2013
Wake up at 7 a.m.
Get in the shower.
Go down 2 flights of stairs, and into the kitchen.
Drink a glass of water.
Open the fridge, and grab a yoghurt.
Off to the dining room,
grab the remote,
turn on the tv.
Same old channel,
same old show.
Have breakfast.
Up the stairs again.
Brush teeth, and grab backpack.
Off to school.
6 hours before I get back.
Eat.
Watch tv.
Grab computer.
Browse same websites as the day before.
Dinner time.
Same old dinner show on tv.
Go back up.
Watch more tv.
Go to bed.
**Repeat.
I know this is long, and boring, and that's precisely why it reflects the monotony of life so well. Wish I could add some more excitement to my life. I need it.
1.2k · Sep 2013
The Princess Of Stars.
Krusty Aranda Sep 2013
Walking down the busy streets in downtown Madrid,
a father gives his hand to his son.
Alone as they are.
No mommy.
No wife.

They walk through the crowd. Faces just come and go.
The father's rutine this kid walks in awe.
The kid suddenly stops as daddy asks why?
He answers "Look, daddy. The princess of stars."

The father, confused, tries to find said woman,
but fails to see what his offspring just saw
for this princess does not wear fancy clothes or a crown.
She doesn't have a royal court or a gown.

The kid's eyes are glowing with joy and excitement.
He finds it hard to believe what his eyes just saw.
The most beautiful woman ever to stride before him.
The princess he's heard of in many stories before.

Dad doesn't understand what's special about this lady.
She wears high heels, bad hair and few clothes.
Cigarette in hand, red lips selling pleasure.
Sad look in her eyes, and in her heart just hope.

The kid lets go of his father's grasp.
Runs towards the lady with a smile on his face.
He says "Hello, my fair princess. I don't wish to bother,
but may I have one kiss? One I can't erase."

The lady, surprised, asks "Me? A princess?
I'm sorry, dear, but I'm quite the opposite.
But I'll give you a kiss for being such a gentleman,
and treating this lady like no man ever has."

She leans towards the kid. His eyes filled with joy.
She imprints the silhouette of her lips in the sweet boy's cheek.
Father catches up with his darling son,
and excuses his kid for any trouble caused.

She says, in the sweetes voice "I'll have to thank you.
Your son just came over and brighten my day."
He looks up to her, and they share a quick glance.
What happened next I'll tell some other time.
1.2k · Jul 2012
The Titan's Awakening.
Krusty Aranda Jul 2012
Thousands of years ago, a vile beast was born.
It promised prosperity and happines. If only they had known
that this beast was only hiding it's true face behind a mask,
we wouldn't live this torment thousands of years past.

But a prophecy was written. An old, wise man once said;
"The time will come when man will overcome their dread.
It will be then when the Titan awakens from its sleep,
and send the evil beast to hell. So, so very deep."


Even to this present day the beast is still alive.
Breeding on, its power threatens all of mankind,
but the day has come when we shall fight the beast.
We shall not fear it anymore. Not even the least.

Raise your banners! Raise your fists!
Demand a world where we can live.
Fight for freedom! Fight for justice!
Awaken the Titan from its slumber.

The time has come to end this suffering.
The Titan in us lies deep within.
Open your eyes, and let it guide you
to a new world where we all live in peace.
The awakening is happening. Lets fight for a new world order!
1.1k · Apr 2016
Death
Krusty Aranda Apr 2016
Death

I've been thinking about it a lot lately.
No. Not thinking about dying, but about the whole concept of it.

Death
The end of life.
The only thing we all share.

There's a million different ways of dying, some better, some worse, but the outcome is always the same.
Some get it sooner. Some get it harder. Some get it painful.
What do I think?
I think death is the ultimate goal.
The cure for this terrible disease called life.
The end of all suffering. A state of eternal bliss.
Peace

It hurts when someone close to you dies.
It hurts me too, even though I know they are far better than we, the living.
Life hurts. Life stings. Life kills.

Many people fear death.
No one fears death. We fear the way we die.
We fear the uncertainty of what comes after it.
So what comes after death?
Decomposition of the body. That's it.
Your conscience is as gone as your body, and neither will come back.
Everyone may believe what they want spiritually, religiously or whatever.
Physically, the fact remains the same.

Death
The end of life.
Eternal bliss.
The thing I fear you catch before me.
It is a cult we all adore.
The god we fear.
The one true god we get to meet.
A grim entity that handles us with the utmost care and love.
A cold embrace that doesn't let go.
Numb.
A symphony of silence.
White paint on a white canvas.
An unsculpted statue.
A figureless sleep.
The most rude awakening.

Death**
My most recent thought.
Krusty Aranda May 2016
How can I learn to love someone, and not how to love myself?
I'm insanely in love with her.
With her eyes.
With her smile.
With her laugh, her voice, her skin, her hair, her soul.
So why can't I love myself?
Love myself enough to not put myself through the pain my love being unrequited.
Love myself enough to accept that she won't love me.
Love myself enough to stop fooling myself into believing I can make her fall for me.
Love myself enough to give myself some time alone. Trully alone.
How can my heart belong to everyone but myself?
Why do I give myself away for the wrong people?
These questions I've asked myself for years, and still I haven't found the answer to any of them.
She's so important to me, and I know she cares, but not as much as I care for her.
I know it, or at least my mind does.
My heart refuses to understand.
My heart won't let reason take over for as much as a second.
I love her so much.
I'd give it all for her.
So why can't I do the same for myself?
Why can I love her, but not myself?
1.1k · Jun 2013
UFO (10W)
Krusty Aranda Jun 2013
It flew
away from me,
just like my broken dreams.
1.1k · Dec 2012
I'm Sorry...
Krusty Aranda Dec 2012
I'm sorry I didn't tell you at first.
I'm sorry I took my time.
I'm sorry I'm not your age.
I'm sorry we're apart.

I'm sorry we barely talk now.
I'm sorry you can't see me smile.
I'm sorry I haven't kissed you yet.
I'm sorry I sometimes make you mad.

I'm sorry I think of you all day.
I'm sorry I dream of you all night.
I'm sorry I whisper your name.
I'm sorry I can't get you off my mind.

I'm sorry I love you so much.
I'm sorry you are my life.
I'm sorry I'll never let you go.
I'm sorry I fell for your charm.
I'm sorry I can't show you how much you really mean to me. I love you.
1.1k · Mar 2015
After School
Krusty Aranda Mar 2015
Hello, Alex. You look so good today. Like you did yesterday. Your smile is still as cute, and your eyes as shiny and hipnotizing. I want a hug now, and many kisses later. It's a demand.

She wrote these words in my notebook, in the middle of class.
I smiled and looked at her.
Sent her a kiss.
She blushed.

Next class we sat next to each other.
She was tired; stayed up late doing homework.
She would rest her head on my shoulder, and hold my hand.
I could feel the *butterflies
in my stomach, and my heart racing.

After school we both went to her house.
She put on her pijamas, and got into bed.
I layed next to her, holding her in my arms.
She looked so calm and pretty.
I started giving her little kisses on her cheek, on her forehead, on her neck, on her lips.

Oh, her sweet lips!
She gives the most sweetest, tender and loving kisses I've ever had.
Her kisses are full of passion and care.

I could hardly breathe.
She has the ability to make me lose my breath.
My heart was racing, and she could feel it.
We kissed and held each other tight, marveled at how our bodies fit perfectly with one another.

My hands found their way under her blouse, drawing her slim silhouette with my fingertips.
Running down her chest to her stomach.
From her hips to her thighs.
Her skin was so soft it felt like velvet under my fingers.
She started doing the same to me.
Her fingers traced a distinct line going from my chest to my belt, and further below.

Her lips were still upon mine.
My breath still missing.

Her top was off.
My shirt also gone.
Her arms around me.
My arms around her.

Hands going under the clothes.
Heavy breathing.
Muffled moaning.
No more clothes.

Her body couldn't be any more perfect than it already is.
I was lost kissing her tasty neck, biting slightly, while I grasped her small, perky *******.
Her skin was so warm and cozy.
I couldn't get enough of her.

Me touching her.
Her touching me.
My breath was nowhere to be found.
I felt ecstatic.
I was in heaven.

After all was done, we both laid there, right next to each other.
She was still in my arms as we both tried to catch our breaths back.
We looked at each other in the eyes.
We smiled at each other and kissed one more time.

*I could've died in that moment.
1.1k · Jun 2013
No Fear.
Krusty Aranda Jun 2013
Most people are afraid of dying.
I must say I am not.
Death doesn't scare me. It's only natural.
Nothing lives forever.

There is one thing I'm afraid of, though.
I'm afraid of not achieving anything before I die.
Afraid of not being able to say goodbye.
Afraid of not having a chance to take care of the ones I love.

We take our lives for granted,
and don't even wave at days passing us by.
I'm not afraid of dying. It's only natural.
When I go, don't cry for me.
Please, just celebrate my life.
Just thought that I can't be sure I'll live to see a new dawn. I love you all :)
1.1k · Apr 2012
Unwritten Epitaph.
Krusty Aranda Apr 2012
Those infamous last words
were said without anyone hearing.
They weakly fly in the wind,
as weak as my heart beating.

The tombstone is set.
My grave has been dug.
No one for a last kiss,
no one for a last hug.

The pain became too much to bare,
but I don't cry. Instead I laugh
for I'll soon be set free from this chain,
and you'll be reading my unwritten epitaph.

I'm still laying in a hospital bed,
plugged to instruments keeping me alive.
It's the only link you left for me in this world,
but I'm ready to cut it with my knife.

My pulse is fading.
The warmth is escaping.
This life is over.
Home-run's the next swing.
Not quite done yet. Opinions, anyone?
1.1k · Nov 2013
Redefining Love
Krusty Aranda Nov 2013
Bed sheets impregnated with her essence.
Towels dripping the sweetness of her skin.
Wild thoughts invading my subtle thinking.
Her scent still lingering in my senses and my soul.

A fleeting heartbeat was skipped the moment our eyes met.
All reality vanished as distance disappeared.
Poetry struck me as I chose my words carefully.
A smile was virtously drawn on her face when I held her hand.

The world conspired for us to meet then.
Not before. Not after.
Just at the right moment.
We pushed fate away as it pulled us back to its path.
We lost ourselves in each other in just the blink of an eye.

A voice so heavenly angels should be jealous.
A mind so priviledged she understands me whole.
Her eyes so pure and lively even diamonds are just stones.
Her sweet embrace so warm she could reignite the sun.

Love has been reinvented, and now it wears her name.
Beautiful turns ugly whenever she's around.
If perfection's bound to gods, then she must be a goddess,
and I'd worship only her for her blessings are all mine.
1.1k · Nov 2013
Hypocrisy (10w)
Krusty Aranda Nov 2013
Values   are not to be preached,
but to be
   **practiced
.
1.1k · Nov 2016
Naufrago en ti
Krusty Aranda Nov 2016
Tu cuerpo dibuja las olas en la arena
Tus caderas van y vienen con un ritmo interrumpido por la espuma del mar
Tus labios tan salados como el agua en la que nado
Tu canto irreal como las sirenas de leyenda
Tus manos me aprehenden como el pulpo a su presa
Tus piernas me envuelven como el alga al coral

Navego lentamente hacia mar abierto
Atrás quedó la seguridad de la bahía
Yo capitán y tú tormenta
Azotas mi navío con violencia
Me lanzas a las frías e imperdonables aguas de tu océano
Atrás quedó la seguridad de la bahía
El agua de tu **** inunda mis sentidos y ahoga mi conciencia
Naufrago

Al despuntar el alba estás tú
Etérea en mi soledad
Efímera en esencia
Eterna en alta mar
1.1k · Mar 2013
Writer's Block.
Krusty Aranda Mar 2013
I wanna write new poetry,
but words won't form new verses.
Random phrases cross my mind,
but none bond together to make sense.

Maybe it's the stress of exam week.
Maybe it's my personal problems.
Lack of inspiration or a muse.
I overthink my verses too much.

Why can't I write about fantasy and love,
or maybe about a struggle for inner peace?
Why can't I find a piece of emotion
to let myself go in a sweet melody?

Could it be because she left me?
Could it be the cold weather?
What's the reason I can't rhyme?
Is it that I need more time?

In the end here I sit
typing these words untrue
for I just wrote a poem
when I didn't think I could.
I desperately wanted to upload something today. After a couple failed attempts, this is what I came up with.
1.1k · Sep 2013
Bloody Puppeteer
Krusty Aranda Sep 2013
A kiss...

A kiss is all it takes for me to want to taste your blood.
To want to see how it's shiny red looks on my bedroom wall.
Splatters of deep crimson drip from the window.

A touch...

A touch is all it takes for me to want to pierce your skin.
To want to draw patterns on my new canvas.
See my brush soaked up in this monotonous color.

A look...

A look is all it takes for me to want to play with you.
To want to hurt and ****** every part of you.
Be my rag doll. Entertain my sadist lust.

A word...**

A word is all it takes for me to want to start the show.
To want to show you what I'm capable of.
To start I have to be the one you love.
1.1k · Mar 2012
My Shooting Star.
Krusty Aranda Mar 2012
I'm lying down, staring at the sky
thinking about my future, present and past.
The days gone by, and the ones to come.
But those by your side have been the best of them all.

I try to find your face in the stars.
I try to hear your voice in the wind.
I try to feel your touch, I try to feel your warmth.
I sometimes wonder if you'll ever come back.

Because I've really been missing you.
You know that I'm needing you.
Please, come down from the sky.

Would you turn into my shooting star?
Take me with you no matter how far.
Make my wish come true. Don't ever leave me again.
Open your wings, and lets fly far away.
To Jorge Alejandro Alfaro Moore and Daniela Rivas Sanchez. R.I.P.
I love you both, and you'll always be in my heart.
1.0k · Dec 2012
SPAM (10w)
Krusty Aranda Dec 2012
SPAM, SPAM, SPAM, SPAM, baked beans, SPAM, SPAM and SPAM.
A small tribute to my favorite comic group, Monty Python.
Nonsense? No. Pythonesque.
1.0k · Sep 2016
Diálogo de Luna Llena
Krusty Aranda Sep 2016
Sucedió una noche en noviembre
Sin decirlo te fuiste a dormir
La noticia la oí de repente
A llorar me senté sin decir

Destapé una cerveza en tu nombre
Tu recuerdo no dejaré ir
El sufrimiento voló con el viento
Embriagué al dolor, mas lo pude sentir

Y lloraba y lloraba tu triste partida
Con la luna me fui a despedir
Luna llena brillaba esa noche
Le pedí que cuidara de ti

Seis botellas vacías quedaron
La vida sin ti no podía concebir
Fue poco el tiempo en el que coincidimos
Más tiempo le quiero a la vida pedir

Quisiera poderte haber dicho un te amo
Por última vez antes de tu partir
Sentarme una noche a tomar un buen trago
Contigo hablando hasta ver el sol salir

Ya débil estabas. Luchaste tu lucha
Con garras y dientes; que necio el vivir
Rendirse, en tu mente, no estaba presente
Las luces se apagan. Ya no más sufrir

Sucedió una noche en noviembre
Borracho y en llanto, en la luna te vi
Hablé con la luna pidiéndole a gritos
Que algún día nos reúna por fin

Y lloraba y lloraba tu triste partida
Con la luna me fui a despedir
Luna llena brillaba esa noche
Le pedí que cuidara de ti
1.0k · Mar 2013
Hello Poetry (Haiku)
Krusty Aranda Mar 2013
The place where we met.
The place where I fell in love.
The place where I cry.
A little tribute to this great website where I found love (although I later lost it), and where I can let all my pain and thoughts out without anyone judging me. Also, thanks to all the readers and followers :)
1.0k · Mar 2014
Standing Near the Edge (10w)
Krusty Aranda Mar 2014
As the train comes
I feel that I'm being pushed.
1.0k · Aug 2013
20 Years Old.
Krusty Aranda Aug 2013
"Why won't you be mature?" she said.
"You are 20 years old!" she said.
Dear mother, don't you know
I don't wanna grow just yet.

I miss not having to worry about things.
I want to still run under the rain.
Can't I change a car for a bike?
With training wheels so I don't get a scar.

I like to go crazy at random moments.
I like to act stupid while watching cartoons.
Play Pokémon and Yu-Gi-Oh all day long.
Watch Dragon Ball Z all the way to GT.

So please mother, let me be a kid inside.
It won't be long 'till that kid dies.
I know you'd like to be a kid again too,
so stop hiding her. Let her come out too.
Who actually wants to grow up?
1.0k · Feb 2013
Throw This Life Away.
Krusty Aranda Feb 2013
Wake up again.
Sleep in my eyes, empty bottles beside me.
Memory fails.
Girl, remind me, what's your name again.
Last night was fun,
but why do I still feel this pain inside me?
I can't go on
living this life outside myself.

Tear up this place
built upon layers of hurt and agony.
Burn it away.
Leave no traces of it ever being there.
Break out from here.
Roam and wander for a better place for me.
Got to be free.
Break me free from this chain.

Press the knife against my skin.
Pull the trigger.
Kick the chair I'm standing in.
Air gets thinner.

Can't keep on living this hell.
Gotta end it before it turns unreal.
**** me now before I go insane.
It's time to throw this life away.

Since you've been gone
I've been getting closer to insanity.
This ****** love
kept me far away from reality.
More ***** and drugs.
I need to find my fantasy again.
***, rock and roll
should be the life for me.

Press the knife against my skin.
Pull the trigger.
Kick the chair I'm standing in.
Air gets thinner.

Can't keep on living this hell.
Gotta end it before it turns unreal.
**** me now before I go insane.
It's time to throw this life away.
This is a very rough draft of a song I'm working on. It will be updated as I keep on working on it, and also, can anyone help me with a better title? I don't like this one.
Krusty Aranda Aug 2012
I don't know how to smile. That is a fact.
But when I'm with you, babe, my lips draw a perfect smile.
It might be the sweet words you say.
It might be how you make me feel inside,
but whatever the reason might be, it is you who makes me smile.
A shot at something different, and don't forget to smile once a day (at least) :)
995 · Jan 2013
The Smile Beneath It All.
Krusty Aranda Jan 2013
Sadness.*
Emotions so empty they hurt me no more.
I look for an exit. The meaning of life,
yet I find nothing more than this lonely room and my thoughts.

Have I ever been happy? Will I ever be?
Is there a new tomorrow? Is today even real?

Nightmares hunt me even while I'm awake.
Demons, witches, death and ghouls.
Staring at me crying in a corner,
with nothing left to hold on to.
No memories, no links to reality. Nothing.

Tears roll down my face
frozen by the cold in my heart
(if you can even call that a heart).
A heart once strong, but now so fragile
threatened to break any second.
It pumps blood no more.
It has no beat.
It's yet another ornament in my hollow body.

Darkness all around.
In my head, in my eyes, in my ears.
Ghastly figures dance around me, feasting on my fears.
Feeding on my insecurities.
Growing stronger as I grow weaker.

This torment I cannot escape.
The doors and windows have been long gone.
Not even death will fulfill my wish to leave
for there is no more death for me.
I've died so many times it just feels like waking up again.

Despair. Anxiety. Emptiness.
The last shine of light has gone...
the smile beneath it all.

*Fade to black!
Not in my best, yet not exactly my view on life. Inspired on all the times we feel down, and it seems as if we can't get back up.
P.S. You CAN get back up ;)
982 · Jun 2013
The Art of Insanity.
Krusty Aranda Jun 2013
I once was a troubled teenager.
I was the black sheep in my family,
the rebel.

During this time I thought about self-harm,
suicide,
running away,
just finding a way to let it all out.
It was then that I started to write,
and I liked it.

I don't know how to compose music,
which is my first passion,
so I thought I might as well write lyrics.

Many times I thought a psycologist would help me,
but in the end I decided I'd rather be the troubled, insane guy I now am.

Trouble. Heartache. My own demons.
These are the reasons of my art,
and what would be of art without a reason?
Without a meaning?

Some may call me crazy.
Some may call me stupid.
Truth is I like being insane.
Normal is the last thing I wanna be,
because, to me, there's nothing interesting in normality.
Embrace yourself the way you are ;) We all are our own, special self, so don't try being someone else. Embrace the crazy in you.
971 · Mar 2012
No More.
Krusty Aranda Mar 2012
This day I have to confess
that I once loved you so much.
I once cared for you,
but that is no more.

I used to have illusions.
I used to have a goal,
but you so cowardly destroyed them.
Now they are no more.

The years we spent together.
The loving that we shared.
What ever happened to it?
Why did it have to change?

You used to be supportive.
You used to be so proud.
Now you judge the steps I take,
the things I say out loud.

The only thing I ask of you
is to come back the way you were,
for I want this pain I feel,
I want it to be no more.
969 · Aug 2012
It's Just You And I.
Krusty Aranda Aug 2012
This is what we wanted all along;
to be with each other. Nothing can go wrong.
Now that I'm here sitting by your side
everyone else is gone. It's just you and I.

My arms wrapped around you. Your head lies on my chest.
My lips make their way to your forehead, and kiss it tenderly.
You look up to me, staring into my eyes. I can see the love swimming in your heart.
My lips draw a smile, and then say "I love you". We cuddle again as you add "I love you too".

You turn around to face me. I can only smile at you.
You come in close and kiss me. I hug you as you do.
Our bodies feel the heat of our ever so passionate souls.
We keep on kissing untill our lips bleed our love.

No walls to separate us. No obstacles for lust.
The only witnesses: the blankets and our song.
Your hands on my body. My wicked grin. A choir of angels, and the symptoms of spring.

Again we lie, side by side.
I stare into your eyes. You stare into mine.
No one can erase the smile imprinted on my face.
It's all because of you, my darling. My heart is in it's place.
Can anyone tell I'm deeply in love? :p
961 · Apr 2016
Sólo me quiero morir.
Krusty Aranda Apr 2016
"Sólo me quiero morir."

Me dijo esto con voz quebrada mientras rompía en llanto.
Era joven. Se le veía desaliñada y su rostro mostraba la dureza de la vida que ha llevado.
Su piel bronceada sudaba bajo el abrasador sol del medio día y su cuerpo temblaba presa del pánico que lentamente se desvanecía.
El señor con quien peleaba, un señor de edad avanzada quien amenazaba con golpearla, se había refugiado en su casa al ver que me acercaba e interrumpía su disputa.
No se qué sucedía.
No se por qué peleaban.
No se quiénes eran.
Se que él quería dañarla y que yo no lo permitiría.

Le pregunté qué sucedía, si estaba bien.
"Solo me quiero morir."
"No te quieres morir." le contesté, sin saber realmente que decir.
Le expliqué que tenía cosas que hacer en ese momento, y me ofrecí a acompañarla hasta donde yo iba.
Ella amablemente declinó la oferta, alegando que no tenía dinero para unos medicamentos que necesitaba.
Me disculpé por no poderle ayudar más, dado que yo tampoco contaba con mucho dinero.
Ella me tomó de la mano, aún con lagrimas en los ojos y la voz quebradiza y me dijo **"Ya me has ayudado más de lo que tú crees."

Tras decir esto se dio la vuelta y se fue en la dirección opuesta a la mía.

Aún no se quién era ni qué fue lo que sucedió, pero se que, quién quiera que fuera, ese día comencé a ver la vida desde una nueva perspectiva.
960 · Mar 2017
Grammar rules... (my life)
Krusty Aranda Mar 2017
You* always comes before *I
You always comes before I
You always comes before I
You always come before *I
951 · Feb 2017
Me gusta...
Krusty Aranda Feb 2017
No me gusta tu sonrisa
ni tus ojos
ni tu pelo
No me gusta tu mirada
ni tu tacto
ni tu cuerpo
No me gustan tus palabras
ni tu risa
ni tu llanto
No me gustan los clichés
que ya tanto
se han contado

Me gusta ver el sueño
que aún pasea por tus ojos
Me gusta la explosión
de carcajadas en tu rostro
Me gusta la pasión
con la que escuchas tus canciones
Me gustan tus eructos
resonando en los salones

Me gusta la poesía
que redactas tan vilmente
Me gusta la tormenta
que desatas en tu mente
Me gusta tu perfume
de cervezas y tabaco
Me gusta el sentimiento
que te invade a cada rato

Me gusta cuando bailas
con la música en el alma
Me gusta cuando conduces
y pierdes la calma
Me gusta cuando te aíslas
y eres tú tu propio mundo
Me gusta cuando hablas
cuando yo me quedo mudo

Me gustas tú, serena
Me gustas tú, exaltada
Me gustas tú en mis brazos
y si no te gusto nada
Me gustas tú en poemas
Me gustas tú en mis rimas
Me gustas tú, imperfecta
Me gustas tú, prístina
948 · Sep 2013
Who Is She?
Krusty Aranda Sep 2013
Who is she?
The girl in the red, white and black dress.
The girl in the shiny, brown eyes.
The girl in the innocent smile.
The girl in the fragile, white skin.

Who is she?
The girl that passes me by.
The girl that caught my eye.
The girl that enchanted my soul.
The girl that I'm too shy to talk to.

Who is she?
The girl with no name.
The girl with no history.
The girl with no age.
The girl with no flaws.

Who is she?
The girl no one knows.
The girl no one talks to.
The girl no one sees.
The girl no one likes.

Who is he?
The boy who fell in love with a total stranger.
The boy who dies to know her name.
The boy who wishes to write on her blank pages.
The boy who dreams of co-starring her history.

*That boy is me.
912 · Apr 2015
Your Name
Krusty Aranda Apr 2015
Your name.
Your sweet name.
Even when I hear it from someone else
it has a particular sonority
that affects my soul, weakens it,
and surrenders to you.

And it haunts me. And it follows me.
Wherever I go someone calls your name.

Oh, your name.
Each letter hurts me, digging in my heart
like seven tiny daggers,
bleeding out.

It hurts to know.
Reaffirm day after day the fact that you are not mine,
and that you never will.

Far away.
I want you far away, but not distant.
The pain of your absence is greater than the pain of your presence.
Violent convulsion that my heart suffers every time I lay my eyes upon you.

You.
Visual representation of a name.
A name that kills me and gives me life.
A name that moves me and paralizes me.
A name.
Your name.
Krusty Aranda Dec 2012
December 21, 2012.
A day feared by many, mocked by some, and ignored by others.
To me? It's the end of this world.
This world where I live in constant paranoia,
in constant fear of not being able to achieve what I've set myself to.
Fearing I'm not good enough. Just expecting everything to fall into place.

Will she still love me in the morning?
Will I make it through today?
Will I survive the sleep?
That kind of things.

To me it's the end of this world.
This world where we see hunger everywhere we look.
Poberty in every corner.
Racism. Intolerance. Unfounded hatred towards others.
Aren't we one same race? Aren't we part of the same planet?

Killings. Bullying. Barbarism. Carnage.
And you call yourself a superior being with the capacity to reason?
Not only do you **** your brother but also your home.
To me it's the end of this world.

December 21, 2012.
The date I will make a change on myself.
The mayans didn't predict the end of the world. They predicted a new beginning.
Embrace it. Live it. *Be
it.

Lets start to make this right.
Don't expect for everything to just change. Be the change.
Krusty Aranda Apr 2013
We've all done some stupid things throughout our lives.
These stupid things have hurt others, and in retrospect we can only feel guilty for having done so.
But I say, don't feel guilty.
**** happens. Move on.

We can't fix what's done.
As far as I know time machines haven't been invented yet
so stop worrying about what you've done.
Instead learn from that mistake.
Let it turn you into a better and improved you.

We live in the now, as much as we'd like to go back.
Enjoy the moment.
Learn from the past.
Envision your future.
After all, the only thing that matters about our past, is where it takes us.
We **** up only to learn. Life goes on. Don't let mistakes from the past hold you from moving on forward.
892 · Aug 2014
When I Hated You
Krusty Aranda Aug 2014
Everything was easier when I hated you.
Everything was simpler without love.
Everything was better without being whole.
Everything was easier. Now it's not.

Everything was easier when I hated you.
I wrote and wrote about how I felt.
Now my pen is dry, and inspiration lacks.
I wish that I could hate you again.

My purpose was to show you I was better...
better person than you'd ever be.
Now we are both equals living our own lives.
Hating you was really good for me.

Everything was easier when I hated you.
Made me want to be the best I could.
Now my life is wasting on this wretched poem
as my mind can't seem to forget you.
Finally back with this piece.
891 · Apr 2016
That Stupid Smile
Krusty Aranda Apr 2016
I hate that stupid smile.
That stupid smile that's drawn on my face everytime I see you,
every time I think of you,
every time I hear your name or read your texts.
That smile I get when you daydream in school, while my attention is drawn away from the class.
That smile I get when you fall asleep, and I only wish you're dreaming of me.
That smile I wake up with after every night I dream of you.
That smile that I can't erase when we're in your car laughing and singing, enjoying the music and the wind in our hair.
That smile that belongs to you and only you.
I hate that stupid smile because I can't stop smiling it.
Krusty Aranda Feb 2013
A broken heart won't
change what your love has done for
me to be myself.
Same poem, but in haiku form. It let me add just a bit more.
882 · Feb 2013
Killed Me.
Krusty Aranda Feb 2013
"Maria, I love you so much,
and you are so adorable,
so marvelous
and so good,
and I feel so happy when I'm with you,
that I just want to die while we love each other."

You **** me every time I hold your hand,
even if it's cold,
yet my heart could not beat more vividly
than when you're around.

The sweet poetry that gently dances from your lips
is like a million tiny arrows going through my heart,
each leaving a lasting mark of what this means to me.

How can I feel so alive when you **** me constantly?
I lose myself in you.
I lose contact from reality.
Time stands still as our bodies dance a perfect, unrehearsed coreography,
inviting the stars above us to join this beautiful harmony.

You killed me again.
That smile you timidly and lovingly show to me,
imperfect, and, yet, so flawless,
it takes me away to a place I didn't know.
A place where all my pain goes away,
my worries vanish,
the world is gone,
and there's only me and you.

Please, don't **** me anymore.
My heart skips a beat everytime I even hear your name.
Oh, your name.
It comes out of my mouth so easily, so playfully,
and everytime it sounds new to me.
My lips just effortlessly spell your name,
feeling every letter of it kiss me tenderly as my mind wanders off,
off to your mesmerizing eyes.
Those eyes which cast a spell on me.
This spell that keeps me from taking my eyes off of yours.

Deep, loving looks, each looking for protection,
fearing a new sad tear to roll off,
yet convinced they are safe in my eyes.

*Would you **** me one last time?
The paragraph in quotations is a rough translation (made by myself) of a dialogue in Ernest Hemingway's "For Whom The Bell Tolls" (yeah, my book's in spanish). It is what inspired me to write this poem.
865 · Jun 2013
I Dream of Lindsey.
Krusty Aranda Jun 2013
It was Christmas. I was spending it with my family, just like every year.
Strangely, something was different, but what?
It wasn't the same place, some people were missing, and some other people I didn't know were there.

Suddenly she walks into the scene.
Dressed in a virginal white dress.
Very little makeup, letting me see her natural beauty.
Her brown hair as beautiful as can be.
Her blue eyes calling for me, mesmerizing me.
I couldn't help but falling for her.

She's talented, gorgeous, smart, funny, and the list goes on.
Me? I'm nothing in comparison,
but there she was, so close to me, yet so far.

Which would be my opening line?
Would she find me interesting enough?
Would she ever love me like I love her?
There was only one way to find out.

As I walk towards her, she's asked to give a little performance.
She played, she danced and she sang.
She shot an arrow right through my heart.
She moved with the grace of a swan,
sang with the voice of the angels,
and played with the talent of a prodigy.

Just as I finally aproach her to introduce myself,
I wake up.
Will I ever be this close to her again?
An actual dream I had where Lindsey Stirling, on whom I have a gigantic crush, starred. Don't know her? Look for her on youtube. Worth taking a look.
860 · Mar 2012
Tale of a Mended Heart.
Krusty Aranda Mar 2012
I spend my days thinking about us.
About how we met, how we fell in love,
and even though you're not here by my side
I'm glad to say you belong in my heart.

When we fist met I had an open wound
from a broken heart, from a love untrue.
I didn't have the strength to even feel alive;
the wound had been there for a very long time.

I cried and cried untill my eyes went dry.
I screamed for help, but no one gave a ****.
The months went by, and still the wound would bleed.
It seemed to me it wasn't going to heal.

Untill one day I finally found the light.
The pain was gone. You drew in my face a smile.
"Is this a dream or is this all real?"
It wasn't a dream. The wound started to heal.

So now as you read this I wanted to say
thank you for bringing me into the light again.
I'll soon be with you, dear. I promise you that,
and know that no distance will tear us appart.
860 · Jun 2012
Pride in Death.
Krusty Aranda Jun 2012
**** me, I beg. Take away my last breath.
Be quick. Shed no tears. Give me a painless death.
I got nothing to do, I got nothing to give.
This is just a lie I don't want to live.

Shoot me. I'm dead. Feel my pulse as it fades out.
Bury me far away so no one knows my whereabouts.
Don't turn the hourglass, as it won't make a difference,
and if you cry for me, please, do it in silence.

Send me to the place I'm longing to reach.
Life is just ******* on me like a leech.
Please, make true my only desire.
I don't want to burn in this pagan fire.

The light I once sought was nowhere to be found.
The darkness, instead, was all around.
My spirit was crushed. My will grew weaker.
I couldn't see the light... not even a flicker.

So **** me, I beg. Take this life from me,
but don't dispose of it. Keep it with thee.
The symphony of the mermaids was meant to be heard,
and so is my story. Tell it to the world.
Not really sure what this is about. I started it months ago, and just finished it so it might not make much sense really.
852 · Dec 2012
Forever and Always.
Krusty Aranda Dec 2012
We met some time ago in a very unusual place.
You were the first one to say hello, and give a small compliment.
When I turned and saw you, I knew you were unlike anybody else.
Those blue eyes of yours had a story to tell.

So we talked and we laughed, and we shared some thoughts.
We liked the same things. Heavy metal and such.
Poetry, literature, all kinds of art.
You were slowly digging your way to my heart.

I was hesitant about what I wanted to do.
I wasn't looking for anything, but along came you.
It was the right time. You were the right person.
You just gave me everything I wasn't looking for.

And I built up the courage to speak out my heart
not knowing what you felt for me at the time.
So I said what I felt. I said "I love you".
You just added a word to make it "I love you too".

That is the way our story began,
and it's still going on. I hope it gets far.
Despite all the bumps we find in our way
I promised I'd love you forever and always.
Yeah, I love her that much and more... waaaay more :)
851 · Jan 2013
The Last Scars of Beauty.
Krusty Aranda Jan 2013
Beauty is all I see in her.
The little spark in her eyes,
the subtle wickedness of her smile,
the frailty of her white skin,
and, yes, even her scars.

"What's beautiful about her scars?"- you ask.
Well, what's beautiful about them is the story they tell.

A story of a little girl stricken by misfortune.
Uncapable of looking out for herself,
growing away from the ones who should protect her.
Hit by the alcoholism of her mother, and the drug abuse of her father.
Forced to live in a home where love was scarcely seen.

She couldn't see an exit. She couldn't find a friend.
All she had was the pain in her heart, and a rusty blade in her hand.
Pressed it against her skin, drawing a line of blood.
Relief.
Freedom.

But time passed by, and she learned about her mistake.
She found a better way. She found a better friend.
This expierence left something behind though.
Something she now lives by everyday.
A humble heart, capable of loving and forgiving,
and the lust for life she had seeked for too long.

So go ahead, point your finger at me, and yell "There's the guy with the girl full of scars!".
I won't mind for I see beyond these scars.
Memories of a battle fought and won.
Forget about the past, but remember where you're from.
Even though I'm against self harm, don't judge a person for how he/she looks like. You never know what's behind his/her appearance.
851 · Jul 2012
December.
Krusty Aranda Jul 2012
This morning I woke up after having dreamt about you.
Knowing everyday I'm closer to being with you.
Kissing,
laughing,
loving,
just feeling the love we share for each other.

I know that day seems so far away,
but to me time goes faster every day.
I want it to speed up, and stop when we're together
so we can share eternity forever.

December the month. Winter the witness.
You and I the only characters of this romance.
A hot cup of coffee next to the fireplace; the perfect scenario.
An only blanket covering the beauty of our love.

Passion.
Lust.
Desire.
Ingredients in this perfect recipe.

Caring.
Trusting.
Loving.
The steps for a perfect romance.

A sweet glimpse to your eyes. The gentle touch of our lips.
The electricity in my body as you say these marvelous three words: "I love you."
The curve of your smile as I reply: "I love you too."
Our voices fuse into one only choir as we both say: "Forever and always.",
and our bodies ignite the fire of our love.

December the month I'm eager to reach.
You, my darling, the prize of this wait.
Love our destiny. Love our story.
This is the first step of the rest of our lives.
I can't wait for December to come.
838 · Oct 2013
My Sweet Despair
Krusty Aranda Oct 2013
Cry, my baby.
Cry for help.
No one will hear you scream.

Say it louder.
Scream my name.
Worship only me.

When everything's lost, and god didn't show up,
tell me, what's left of us?
The simple matter without a substance.
Body without soul.

They repeat to themselves "mind over body",
but there's no mind to control actions.
Only fools without a cause.
A chant without a voice.

Keep on screaming, dearest hostage.
There's no use at all.
Destiny has been set this way.
Your fate is to die alone.

Rain will shower the daisies around your grave,
and wash the maggots away.
The sun will breathe life to newly born robins,
and burn the remainders of you whole.

So cry on, sweetest pleasure.
The tables turn no more.
There's no salvation beyond this point.
It's the end of it all.
Still random...
828 · Mar 2014
Create Rather Than Destroy
Krusty Aranda Mar 2014
Let the pen be your blade,

                                and the ink be your blood

      pouring down on a sentence,

              soaking up a blank piece of paper.
I care. I care so much more than even you do.
825 · Jul 2013
A girl, a boy and a fiddle.
Krusty Aranda Jul 2013
He was a stranger walking the wet streets of London.
She was an artist speaking her soul through a song.
The fiddle, her weapon of choice to let her heart sing beautiful melodies.
Melodies which could make any man's heart fall for her charm.

She had the beauty of a million heavenly angels.
He had no eyes for another woman but her.
He danced, and he let himself go possessed by the rythm.
She played for the world, but she meant it for him.

Days passed by, and they both met each other,
day after day, song after song.
Her heart spoke through her fiddle. His heart spoke through his poetry.
Their hearts composed beautiful music as one.

She stood on her stage, ready to fiddle,
but something was different. He never showed up.
Her fiddle still spoke, but its voice wasn't the same.
His poetry's tone was now a saddened, old voice.
Fantasy based on an impossible love I have :p
804 · Jul 2012
Dear Brother.
Krusty Aranda Jul 2012
Close your eyes, dear brother,
and I will hold your hand.
We are all here with you.
I know you understand.

Close your eyes, dear brother,
and forget about the pain.
It's not about what we lose,
it's about what we gain.

Close your eyes, dear brother.
Don't you worry about us.
We know you are watching from above,
and singing without pause.

Close your eyes, dear brother,
and dream of a better place.
I will never forget the smiles
you put upon my face.

Close your eyes, dear brother.
You still are here with us.
You live now in our hearts and minds.
You are always in our thoughts.

Close your eyes, dear brother,
and rest forever more.
You are now in a better place,
but we still claim for an encore.
Written months ago for a friend who passed away. R.I.P Jorge Alejandro Alfaro Moore \m/\m/
791 · Feb 2013
My Confused, Broken Heart.
Krusty Aranda Feb 2013
I go to bed thinking about you.
Thinking about what you said,
what you did,
what we were.
Why can't things be like they were a week ago?
No tears, no pain, still us.

Now I don't know where I stand.
Should I go back or should I keep walking forward?
Should I risk my heart for something uncertain?

Truth is my heart's still with you.
Question is, will you break it again?

I can't bring myself to say never more,
but I also can't find the strength to ask for one more time.

I'm confused. I'm hurt. I'm in love.
Distance was what killed us.

I don't know if I can trust this way.
789 · Dec 2017
Fear
Krusty Aranda Dec 2017
Today I live in fear

I woke up afraid of the same pillow that comforted me last night
It felt as if my dreams had been soaked up by it
My thoughts dripping out of my ear, one by one, dampening the cloth with which it's covered
My bed wanted me to stay, to lay away forever
Prevent me from going anywhere, pulling me towards it
I was a discarded piece of metal being pulled by the giant magnet that would take me to the dumpster to be crushed next to my scrap brethren
I am afraid of the wind blown from my fan
The cold on my skin burns as my sheets hold me tightly in place
I'm afraid to get out, to step on the floor, one foot at a time
To sit up and gag
To stand up and throw up all the regret, the unspoken words, the tears I so cowardly saved to myself for all these years
The 9 beers and 1 tequila shot
I'm afraid to text you
I'm afraid there will be no reply, the silence, the distance
What is said and what is not
What I know, what you won't fix
I'm afraid of losing this game
I'm afraid of playing my next hand, to look at the cards I've been dealt and find nothing other than hopelessness at the lack of anything good
I'm afraid to write this poem, to let my words gang up on me, and beat me up mercilessly as I can only type on and cry out your name
I'm afarid I won't be here tomorrow
I'm afraid you won't
I'm afraid to be here right now, as I was afraid yesterday
Afraid of the new year
Afraid of our Christmas dinner
Afraid of us, of everyone, of no one
I'm afraid of being alive, dancing in this graveyard of broken dream, of complaints and looking at the floor unable to gaze upon my very own dissapointments
I'm afraid to admit I am worthless, but also afraid to do anything about it
I'm afraid to be everything you were looking for, and missing the mark completely
I'm afraid that I'll hurt you, and that I commited a sin I don't regret
Like Jesus I hang nailed to my own cross by the acts I commited and ommited, while words spurt out of my wonds and into this text screen, as I terrifyingly try to tell myself, it will be ok
I'm afraid it will be ok

Today I live in fear
But I guess I live
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