i tried to abandon thoughts of you
the sudden break from the lines we had fused
spurred my slip into darkness
cold
hot
Abyss.
I never envisioned my knees to my eyes
tepid in your contemporary implies
I never wanted to be here
Holding myself together
The Hundreds could not save me from your tempest weather.
Pounding and pounding
relentless rain
Turned hardened to hail
as you sullied my brain

Stop.

Indulged in the concept i'd been offered thus late
Attempting to turn panic into hate
I hate you
I hate you
When you said "i'll break you"
i didn't believe that I'd drop my walls for you

Stop.

You care more for yourself and this need to be wanted
I didn't like feeling like something you'd hunted
I wanted to love you
pure, absent of lust
I gave you small pieces of forgotten trust
You didn't fit in that faction
set in safety of heart
your colors bled swiftly into abstract art
Painted within me
you saw my unjustly
please tell me this was something more than my body

Stop.

I want to
to hate you
I want to ******* hate you
For playing these games in my ready-****** head
before you i'd witnessed more lenient dread
But now that you're in me
you're left of my skin
I've washed you away
tried to forget my sin

I should've been your friend first.

I should've been your friend first.

But honey, you too, you should've been my friend first
and now i am strewn out in pieces, debris
from your choking grip you will not set me free
Your need to be wanted
your lust for my soul
Let go, I'm not breathing
i've lost all control.