Kelly

Kelly Oct 2021

*******.

I'm terrified of the moment I'll first touch your skin
brace to the blows, and let you in
I wonder if we will hold back our first kiss
shyness in tension still burning my hips

breath in my chest, skin over bones
dragging my teeth, hands free to roam
lifting to fingertips, sunk in my bed
drip down my throat
and cement in my head.

Kelly Oct 2021

promotion.

i turned off my phone
closed down the internet
halted external allowance into my diseased brain
on the day
i was supposed to be most lively
and exciting

Kelly Oct 2021

loveless.

surface deep on surface thin
but under vacant stares
my body's screaming for their heart
my pulse cannot match theirs
The faithless actions in my bed reflect my tempest mind
My sheets hold saturated tears
to my anguish, keep them blind.

rhyme but no reason

Kelly Oct 2021

comedown.

I feel like I'm the only person around
who's anticipating the comedown.

Kelly Oct 2021

invaluable.

Bury yourself under leagues of depth and absence of breath
Breaching the surface beneath some fabricated ideal of ****** appeal
Ha.

I wanted you for a moment
Within me and daunting,
Apathetically haunting the halls of my body

How ideal

Till playfulness and zeal gave way to a sadistic rope of detest and resentment
Wrapped around my throat

In drapes of kindness and soulful touch
Eclipsed by the blush of
Nervous lust

Ha

You never were a friend to me
You just want my body

Well kindly get in line
and you will find
The stagnant flaccid undermined
Ability to invalidate my bisexuality
Because god forbid

God forbid

You actually ******* want me for me.

I ******* hate men.

Kelly Oct 2021

crush.

is it a crush
or is it

lust?

Kelly Oct 2021

crustacean.

bite with my words and
                           curl to my tongue
cold and abrasive,
                       so wryly stunned
defenseless defenses
                  with strain in my lungs
antecedently encouraged
          incentives to run.