in the middle of the night i'm always alone -
so desperately alone.
there's no one here to catch my tears,
or stop the swirling vortex in my head
from draining me of any happy thoughts.
i feel Guilt
Anger
Sadness
Shame
Regret
but mostly i feel Alone.
i can take the shame and the guilt.
i try to handle the sadness and regret.
even anger can be pushed away.
but the loneliness never fades.
if it were a moth, i'd be a flame.
burning me alive
until there's nothing left..

Heart strings knitted together
Like a lost and found sweater
Thrown away, never
To be seen
Again

When
Did we meet
Like a rhythmic beat
That will never
See defeat
A sheet
Of music,
A lyrical masterpiece

I was the fuel and your were the fire
I should have known that love can expire
It's not the way I'm wired
To stay bolted to the same spire
Unable to walk in the mire
That is
This connection

The selection
Of mismatched heartstrings
Sings funeral songs
How have they made it this long
Wasn't it a game all along?

I walk around school and people know me,
they smile and nod and say my name,
as if delighted to see me
but no one actually takes the time
to get to know me.
The fragile and vulnerable me.
I always have this
hard,
******,
and kind of sensitive exterior,
but really,
I'm an emotional mess
and no one knows that
so I'm stuck
being emotionally lonely
in a room of people
who "love and care" for me.
loved and cared for ******* // a.s.

..and as I lay in my bed, some think I may die,
some think I am already dead.
I look to the sky and call on my creator,
'don't bother me now I'll see you much later', and thus as I age
another page turns.

your lips
are the softest
of cotton
I couldn't
wear a sweater
stitched with
anything else