I am calling back my soul
the part assigned to you
     who's well beyond imagined need
     which all along was mine

I did not trust you to your path
disguised as mother care
craving sanctified connection
fill my need for veneration

I now call back my soul
cut free these knotted cords
languishing and out of place
**reclaim my essence for myself

In darkest hours unsatisfied
in vacant breathless space
wandering paths of Escher's lizards
I  
         long
                for
                             you

Known touch won't do No nothing now
no sweets    no smoke     no wine
I'm magnet drawn to what I've not
I think
        I lack
                  I need

*Shall I be the end I seek ?

Heart rending...
brittle trees creak and moan
strong wind cleaves wayward branches.
Time to let go here
with less desire
content or not,
surrendered  being.

You know what I am
One side and the other
Dawdling dreamer to the left
****, do it now by right

Separation by design
How clever safely kept
Yet merge and melt the magic path
when hands are clasped voice rings from center
Surprise result
Human roulette.

There is evidence, so it appears
our Universe is collapsing
surrendering into dark matter.

There is evidence, so it appears
I am expanding awareness
surrendering unto myself .

There is evidence*, creation is not complete.

I respond to me
as never before
Body shows truth
I no longer ignore
This is one union
for which I did strive
Beliefs and emotions
that keep me alive
in suffering or happiness
This I decide

Our Goddess and Our Beast
come together for a feast
Delight in fur and fangs
that neither ask to change

He gentles in her gaze
Enlarging her embrace
Inhale his scent so true
Earth Essence through and through

Together now complete
a plan divinely sweet