you’re the only person i feel safe talking to and somehow even that scares me.
safety. terrifyingly illusory. i wish i could pick and choose my fears, decide for myself what was worth my anxiety, worth hours and hours of tears and self-lies. i don’t know how good i have to be to have made it, how far i have to go to feel at home in myself.
sometimes i think you might be
a crutch
but without you it's a bit
too much.