I'm fumbling
Don't know what
Key to pick
This chain
Is too heavy

I barred the door
To protect myself
What am I doing?
Why do such a thing?

Now these
Walls are crumbling
I can't believe

I've
Let
You
In.

l.v.s

I've met many people
Grown close
And intimate
With only
A few

Each individual
Holds a
Special part
Of me

Some are hidden
Amongst the fog
Some others
Are held close
To my heart

Recently,
I've been
Thinking
About
You
But that's
Nothing
New...

l.v.s

You leave a bad taste
In my mouth

There's no more to say.

l.v.s

I'm usually overlooked
Sitting beneath this willow
With a tin can at my feet

Many just carry on
But sometimes
Only sometimes
People share
The wealth
Of their smile
And kind eyes.

l.v.s

Flowers held out,
Wilted and rotted.
A momento from past lovers,
Arranged poorly.

Boy you must stop
With this
Childish hope
No one wants
A bruised bouquet
Please, just go away.

l.v.s and I.M

You could hold me for the rest of your life
But if you don't tell me why you want to
It won't touch me as much as it probably should.

l.v.s

I feel like
Every second
Is a
Time
Waster.

l.v.s

It's one of
The hardest things
To let go of those
Who were
Nothing
But good
To you

The type
Of people
Who
Fill a room
With warmth
And bring
A smile
To your face
Such delicate
Beings
So needed
In the world
And
Deeply
Appreciated

But sometimes
You have
No other
Choice

Sometimes
They
Want to be
Left behind

But as
I turn
My back
I feel
My heart
Aching
It's
Breaking

I want
To hold him
I want him
To know
How
Completely
And utterly
Beautiful
He is
But I can't

So I simply
Hold
A pillow
Instead
And
Hope

I hope that
He knows
I hope that
He's safe
I hope
He has
Happiness

I miss him
I wish him
The best.

l.v.s

Trace your thoughts
Along my thighs

Engrave your secrets
Into my spine

You don't have to
Say a word
Just make me
Feel something

After all
We're told to
Show
Not
Tell...

l.v.s

I gave you the clothes off of my back,
And with nothing left-
Stitched you a sweater made out of my own veins.
Blood sweat and tears remain inside the fabric.
Effort that I put in,
Love was what I'd call it,

I watched
As you tossed
Aside my sweater
Swapped it out
For a store-bought coat

Leaving behind
Parts of me
As if they were
Worthless
Just something
From another fool
To fall to his knees
At your feet

You once held my heart
And the majority
Of my mind

And now my sweater sits in the closet,
Strung up on a plastic hook.
Showing just how artificial your love was for me.
And when I'm cold I stare at it in temptation,
But it doesn't keep me warm anymore.

l.v.s and IM

You've been shaking
Your whole life

Your voice trembling with uncertainty
Your hands trembling from overuse
Your whole body shivering
From cold and emotion

Come here
Come rest
I'll watch
Over you
There's
No need
For fear
Here

l.v.s

Each and every time
I'm the one to blame

I don't listen
I don't try
I don't care
I never keep promises
With each passing day
I keep pushing you away

This is something
You might
Struggle to understand

But it wasn't
Only me
That lead to
Our demise

l.v.s

You want
To become
Close to me?
How close
Could you
Possibly be?

I may let you
Hold me
And share
Some thoughts

Don't be fooled
Into believing
That you have
Touched me

I couldn't
Let you
Do that

In closeness
There is
Vulnerability
There is
Fear
There is
The chance
Of being
Discarded

So, no
I am afraid
I can't allow
You that close
I no longer
Have the strength
To handle
Such a risk

I'm sorry,
But I can't.

l.v.s

When you take my hand
If it trembles
From your touch
Please don't let go
Just hold me in your gaze
Pull me into your arms
Show me safety
Show me that
You're trustworthy

Because I want to
Because I want you
But it won't be easy...

l.v.s

Eyes like clear skies omit the light of a million blues
If only I could experience a day in your shoes
I'd be able to know whether you were spinning lies
or if you told the truth
I wish it wouldn't force me to leave
For your smile holds eternal youth
Without it, I would grieve.

l.v.s and j.r.b

It's been a while now
I don't know
If I remember
The sound
Of your voice
But I know
I'll never forget
How you made
Me feel

I hope you're
Flying high
Nowadays
My sad swallow
With the breeze
In your feathers
And a soft song
Filling the sky

l.v.s

This isn't my first
Time where I've
Had to clear
The slate
And begin
Again

I've been thrown
Into the fog
Lost in my mind
Lost in life
Looking to my
Compass
To guide
Me through

I have grown
From each
And every
Set back

It might seem
Like a lost cause
Like an unbeatable beast
But I know
This will be fine
I've been here before

I'll find calm
Within the chaos

l.v.s

He left without
A trace
Though he had been gone
A while

I have only
Just now
Been told
The truth

The absence
Of him
His smile
His warmth
His hands
His support
His care
His intimacy
His company

It screams

I never thought
Deafening silence
Could fill
A room...
If only
It could
Fill my mind
Too.

l.v.s

With his warm eyes
With his warm hands
With his worn days
When he looks at me
He sees who I truly am
And I let him

I didn't ask him to wipe his feet
When I welcomed him in
I trust him not to leave
A mess

I've invited him
Into my home
Invited him
Into myself

I hope he feels comfortable here.

l.v.s

Together we walk
This same path
Not making contact
We stare at our toes

I can't help but hope
To find a crossroad

Though I fear
The aftermath.

l.v.s

If you're going to
Step up to my table
I hope you realize
This time you're
The toy

I'm tired of being used
Covered in bite marks
Making Squeaks
And entertaining
Someone else

Now it's my turn
I'm going to have my fun

So, what do you say?
Did you come here to play?

l.v.s

His eyes can be
Rather chilling
When they see right through
My intentions lay bare

Taking his hand
I lead him away
He growls in my ear
'How have you been, my dear?"

"I've been craving to have you near."

l.v.s and j.r.b

I would scream for you if you would hear me.
I would burn this place to the ground if it meant you
would see the smoke.
I would ask for you to set me free.
I would because to you, I'm no more than a joke.

l.v.s and j.r.b

A long lost
Box of treasures
The thought of you
Gives me shivers.

l.v.s

You may never see this
I hope you never see this,
My love

But if comes a day
Where you see me
Both found and lost
Both bound and tossed
I hope you don't turn away
                     I hope you stay

If you see this
I can only hope
It's something you love

l.v.s

I can be
Cute,
Funny,
Silly
And
Exciting
I'll bring a smile
To your face
It'll feel as if
You're next to
A soothing fire
Warm and comforting

But look around, please
Notice the bare trees
And snow falling
I hope you have a coat
Because things can be cold
Your teeth may chatter
You might be shivering

I hope you
Make snowmen
And have snowball fights
With me

We can lay before the light
But we can also find
An adventure in the elements

If you come here
For the cheerful soul
You were told about
I must prepare you
For me being a woman
With many seasons

If that's something
That you can bear
Then you can come near
I'll welcome you
With open arms

l.v.s

Sometimes we have to
Be our own filter

Denying ourselves
In order
To experience
Clarity.

l.v.s

I must
Stop dreading
Letters that
Have not
Even
Crossed
Minds

l.v.s