Sometimes you can't
Burn bridges

Sometimes you choose
To dismantle them

Piece by piece
Word by word
Thought by thought

Sometimes you want
It to be pain-free

Oftentimes you try
Your best

Oftentimes that's
All you can do.

l.v.s

Such a mess
That's been
Left behind

An endless expanse
Of exposed emotions
And discarded devotion

As usual,
I pick up
The pieces
And put things
Back together

But unlike before
You're not welcome
Back here
Anymore.

l.v.s

Choosing to overwhelm yourself
With neglect and negativity
Has left a mark on your soul

I reach out my hand
I offer my arms

But nothing gets through to you anymore
You stare through me
Like stained glass
I'm simply more emotions
That blur your view.

l.v.s

Through your
Dancing in delight
You bring light
To my days

Diverting my attention
From dark thoughts
To those
Of affection.

l.v.s

You could hold me for the rest of your life
But if you don't tell me why you want to
It won't touch me as much as it probably should.

l.v.s

Why would I want to learn you,
When you don't even want to know yourself?

Why would I want you in my mind,
When you don't give yourself a second thought?

Why would I listen to your speeches,
When all you have to say is nothing of interest?

l.v.s and IM

Expressive eyes
Full of wonder
And curiosity

Remind me of
Something pure
Of childhood
Of kindness

It's not something
I see too often

Genuine and unfaltering
Fascination with life

l.v.s

How dare you
Treat me as if
I'm nothing

It's rather simple
And straight forward
To have something casual
With equal effort
And respectful
Communication

If you think
You can
Treat me
Like
A cloth
To clean
The dust
From your
Boot
You're
Wrong

I'm not
Just here
For you to
Wipe yourself
With then
Be rid of

I am
A human

I am
A woman

And I deserve
To be treated
As such

If you
Can't
Have
Human
Decency
Then stay
Away
From
Me.

l.v.s

I don't know you yet
But I hope I will soon

I haven't told you yet
But I hope you will listen

I haven't opened up to you yet
But I hope you let me in

I haven't shown you my care yet
But I hope you'll have yours to share

I haven't taken a chance in a while
But I hope we will make you smile

l.v.s

You play me the same notes
And repeat your words

You'd think I'd learn by now but
I always fall for the verse

Again and again on loop
Leave me outside feeling hurt

Help me im stuck in this
I tell my mind just stop

We're not a broken record
Get out of my head...

l.v.s and friends

I can't trust
A single word
You spit out
When it's
Someone
Else's
Fingers
Drawing
The words
Out from
Your
Mouth

l.v.s

Sometimes I wonder
If you chose
To break me

Did it make you
Feel free?
Did it distract you
From your own mind?

Because mine?
It skips moments
Replays the same scenes
And repeats fear and doubt
Over and over

When I'm reminded
Of my minds mayhem
It's because
Something
Or someone
Reminded me
Of you.

l.v.s

We've all
Got
Bright bits

It's just hard
To see
With blurry
Eyes.

l.v.s

If you want to
Come closer
If you want
Me to
Let you in
I need you to
Understand

Time must be taken
Care must be given

I can not
Rush
There's no
Short cuts
This is
A process
This is a
Delicate
Thing

Please,
Try to
Understand.

l.v.s

Even in the moments
Where life is settled
I can't help but
Be prepared to
Run for the door

It tends to be when
I'm most comfortable
And content
That things begin
To crack
And crumble
At the seams.

l.v.s

You make me feel young
I witness a shining self
As our story together is spun
For the first time
In a long time
I've become
Undone.

l.v.s

Settle down
Take a moment
And look at me
Consider this
Consider us
Do you want more?

If so,
Please
Choose
Your words
Wisely.

l.v.s

Please let me go
We both know
This isn't enough
And I will not
Be reduced
To a crutch
For you
To lean on.

l.v.s

We've been down
Many roads together
We've lived
Many years together

Once we were
Alongside
Each other
Connected
Happy
Just enjoying
The ride

But we hit
A crossroads
And grew apart
There are parts
Of myself
That I hide
It breaks
My heart

I'm so sorry
That we
Lost our bond
With each other

I don't know
How to fix things
I don't know
How to be close again

But you mean
The world to me

You're wonderful
I miss you
And I love you

Sincerely,
Your sister.

l.v.s

It's taken time
To realize
That connection
Isn't what
I truely fear

In fact,
It's the thought
Of someone
Being unable
To see
Everything
I have
To offer
As something
That is worthy
Of affection
Of a gentle hand
Of a kind word
Of a second thought

I fear opening myself
Up to someone else
But being treated
As just another option
Or worse
Having my trust
And offerings
Shredded
By the last person
I would've
Expected
To hurt me

If I'm going to
Connect with you
On such a level
You better
Not be
Just another
Devil.

l.v.s

Something that has long been gone,
No longer remaining,
Lost all care for it.

Don't compare me
And the connection
we have
To that of strangers

We've known
Each other
A while
Let me see
Who you are.

l.v.s and IM

There's not one
Human being
That can meet
All the interactions,
Energies,
Moments
Or expressions
You'd want in life
So it's okay
To have
A massive
Jigsaw puzzle
And appreciate
Each person
For the space
They fill

It's impossible to imagine
That a single person
Could meet all of your needs


Free yourself of that delusion
Appreciate each indivdual
Jigsaw piece
For the space they fill.

l.v.s

At this point
I should stop

I should stop
Sharing my thoughts
With you

I should stop
Spending my time
On you

I should stop
Craving and wanting
Your company

I should stop
Feeling and caring
For you

I should stop
I should
I
I wish
I could
Stop.

l.v.s

Won't you please
Just look at me?
I'm right here
I'm with you
But you'd prefer
To act as if
I'm not

I want you
To see me
But I guess
My company
Doesn't matter
To you
Anymore.

l.v.s

Such fickle things
These feelings of mine
Forever changing
Never left
With a moment
Of clarity

You come
To mind
Once again
Now I can't
Stop
Please, make it
Stop

I need you
Out of my skull
I can't bear it anymore
You're no longer here
You won't be back
I can't stand it.

l.v.s

I'm falling
Over and over
Catching myself
Again and again
I finally lose
Momentum
And rest
Alongside
My discarded
Determination.

l.v.s

Each breath
I take
Pulls you
Further
From me

Just
A few
Beats
Of my
Heart
And
It's
All
Lost
To
Ash.

l.v.s

Don't just
Throw your
Belongings
Everywhere

Don't turn me
Into somewhere
That holds
The things
You're
Not sure
If you'll
Keep

Don't make
Yourself
At home
If you
Don't
Intend
To
Stay.

l.v.s

Damaged goods
Are still good
Regardless of
The broken parts

l.v.s

You want
To become
Close to me?
How close
Could you
Possibly be?

I may let you
Hold me
And share
Some thoughts

Don't be fooled
Into believing
That you have
Touched me

I couldn't
Let you
Do that

In closeness
There is
Vulnerability
There is
Fear
There is
The chance
Of being
Discarded

So, no
I am afraid
I can't allow
You that close
I no longer
Have the strength
To handle
Such a risk

I'm sorry,
But I can't.

l.v.s

There's a chance
For you still
Soft sweetheart
Delicate darling
Girl with the
Downcast eyes

Look up
Smile
And
Believe
In yourself

We're not
Finished
Here
Yet.

l.v.s

I gave you the clothes off of my back,
And with nothing left-
Stitched you a sweater made out of my own veins.
Blood sweat and tears remain inside the fabric.
Effort that I put in,
Love was what I'd call it,

I watched
As you tossed
Aside my sweater
Swapped it out
For a store-bought coat

Leaving behind
Parts of me
As if they were
Worthless
Just something
From another fool
To fall to his knees
At your feet

You once held my heart
And the majority
Of my mind

And now my sweater sits in the closet,
Strung up on a plastic hook.
Showing just how artificial your love was for me.
And when I'm cold I stare at it in temptation,
But it doesn't keep me warm anymore.

l.v.s and IM

I recall
Our youth

As notches on our belt,
Bait attached to hooks.
Casting out our fates.
Seeing what we'd reel in,

A bountiful feast,
Sometimes nothing at all,
Memories made,
Stored in jars upon our shelves.

But we're
Not children
Anymore.

l.v.s and IM

It's one of
The hardest things
To let go of those
Who were
Nothing
But good
To you

The type
Of people
Who
Fill a room
With warmth
And bring
A smile
To your face
Such delicate
Beings
So needed
In the world
And
Deeply
Appreciated

But sometimes
You have
No other
Choice

Sometimes
They
Want to be
Left behind

But as
I turn
My back
I feel
My heart
Aching
It's
Breaking

I want
To hold him
I want him
To know
How
Completely
And utterly
Beautiful
He is
But I can't

So I simply
Hold
A pillow
Instead
And
Hope

I hope that
He knows
I hope that
He's safe
I hope
He has
Happiness

I miss him
I wish him
The best.

l.v.s

I'm not sure
Why your walls
Are molded
Out of ice

I hope
you're warm
On the inside

Please
Please,
Don't be
Numb.

l.v.s

I've met many people
Grown close
And intimate
With only
A few

Each individual
Holds a
Special part
Of me

Some are hidden
Amongst the fog
Some others
Are held close
To my heart

Recently,
I've been
Thinking
About
You
But that's
Nothing
New...

l.v.s

Your presence
Is feather-soft
And weightless

I lose myself
To learning
The constellations
Of your mind

With each
Passing second
I can feel
My mood lifting.

l.v.s

You need
To stop
Holding
Onto things
When they're
Dead

You fill
The empty
Space with
What ifs
And
Maybes

But you knew
It was dead
A long
Time ago
You just
Don't
Want to
Admit it

Now you've
Gone and dug
Yourself
A deeper hole
To cry in...

l.v.s

Your tolerance
For me
Has become
Paper-thin

You promised me
Forests and bird song
But now
All I'm left with
Is shredded
Love letters
How did things
Become so wrong?

l.v.s

You've been shaking
Your whole life

Your voice trembling with uncertainty
Your hands trembling from overuse
Your whole body shivering
From cold and emotion

Come here
Come rest
I'll watch
Over you
There's
No need
For fear
Here

l.v.s

Why must we
Be so well behaved?

I've seen
Many sides
Of you,
My darling

I know
You're trying
To have
Self-control
You're trying
But I can tell
You're lying

A quick glance
Tells me all
Your hands
Behind your back
Are now fists
You want more
Than this

Instead, you decide
To be a complete bore

Even having
The nerve
To comment
On the weather

If you want
To remain
All prim and proper
I suggest
You leave
Before I give you
The pleasure
Of pain.

l.v.s

It's been a while now
I don't know
If I remember
The sound
Of your voice
But I know
I'll never forget
How you made
Me feel

I hope you're
Flying high
Nowadays
My sad swallow
With the breeze
In your feathers
And a soft song
Filling the sky

l.v.s

Each and every time
I'm the one to blame

I don't listen
I don't try
I don't care
I never keep promises
With each passing day
I keep pushing you away

This is something
You might
Struggle to understand

But it wasn't
Only me
That lead to
Our demise

l.v.s

You've brought
Me to
Many heights

Soaring
Through
The air
Without
A care

I didn't
Expect
To
Hit
The
Ground

l.v.s

With each
Passing year
We're expected
To have
Our lives
Figured out

But at
The same
Time
We're given
Mixed messages
"Live
          every
                     day
                             as
                                  if
                                      it's
                                            your
                                                     last"
                     Along with
"Save
          and
                 plan
                          for
                                the
                                      future"

I don't know
About you
But my life
Is a shambles

I've reached
The ripe young
Age of twenty
Which is only
A quarter
Of my life
If I am
Safe and healthy

So why?
Why must I
Feel guilty?
I've only just
Lost my
Training wheels

How could
I be
Expected
To have
A structured
Life?

l.v.s

Darling, please
Don't let him
Drag you down

Down into
This dull pit
Full of
Oversleeping
Unmotiviation
Boredom
Negative thoughts
And loneliness

Please
Don't let him
Do this to you

Each day
Bleeds into another
With no highlights
Only time filled

Look to yourself
Take a deep breath
Find your determination
And your strength
Tell him no

You've sat back
And dealt with
His nonsense
Long enough

Show him
The door.

l.v.s

Take my hand
Will you?
Take a chance
Can you?

Too often
Words are
Left unsaid
Opportunities are
Left untaken
Life is
Left unlived

I come to you
And ask
What are we
Waiting for?

Join me
Lets share
A moment
Now.

l.v.s

An empty promise
Is naught
But whistling wind

Your lies
Drift down
And rest
Crumpled
On the
Pavement.

l.v.s and z.k

Trace your thoughts
Along my thighs

Engrave your secrets
Into my spine

You don't have to
Say a word
Just make me
Feel something

After all
We're told to
Show
Not
Tell...

l.v.s

You've got your
Basic food needs
Shelter and warmth
Friends and family
Music, films, and games

You tell me
There's only
Enough for
The essentials

That there's
Not time
For me

I understand now
I'm not a
Priority.

l.v.s