It's taken time
To realize
That connection
Isn't what
I truely fear

In fact,
It's the thought
Of someone
Being unable
To see
Everything
I have
To offer
As something
That is worthy
Of affection
Of a gentle hand
Of a kind word
Of a second thought

I fear opening myself
Up to someone else
But being treated
As just another option
Or worse
Having my trust
And offerings
Shredded
By the last person
I would've
Expected
To hurt me

If I'm going to
Connect with you
On such a level
You better
Not be
Just another
Devil.

l.v.s

Something that has long been gone,
No longer remaining,
Lost all care for it.

Don't compare me
And the connection
we have
To that of strangers

We've known
Each other
A while
Let me see
Who you are.

l.v.s and IM

There's not one
Human being
That can meet
All the interactions,
Energies,
Moments
Or expressions
You'd want in life
So it's okay
To have
A massive
Jigsaw puzzle
And appreciate
Each person
For the space
They fill

It's impossible to imagine
That a single person
Could meet all of your needs


Free yourself of that delusion
Appreciate each indivdual
Jigsaw piece
For the space they fill.

l.v.s

At this point
I should stop

I should stop
Sharing my thoughts
With you

I should stop
Spending my time
On you

I should stop
Craving and wanting
Your company

I should stop
Feeling and caring
For you

I should stop
I should
I
I wish
I could
Stop.

l.v.s

Won't you please
Just look at me?
I'm right here
I'm with you
But you'd prefer
To act as if
I'm not

I want you
To see me
But I guess
My company
Doesn't matter
To you
Anymore.

l.v.s

Such fickle things
These feelings of mine
Forever changing
Never left
With a moment
Of clarity

You come
To mind
Once again
Now I can't
Stop
Please, make it
Stop

I need you
Out of my skull
I can't bear it anymore
You're no longer here
You won't be back
I can't stand it.

l.v.s

I'm falling
Over and over
Catching myself
Again and again
I finally lose
Momentum
And rest
Alongside
My discarded
Determination.

l.v.s