This isn't my first
Time where I've
Had to clear
The slate
And begin
Again

I've been thrown
Into the fog
Lost in my mind
Lost in life
Looking to my
Compass
To guide
Me through

I have grown
From each
And every
Set back

It might seem
Like a lost cause
Like an unbeatable beast
But I know
This will be fine
I've been here before

I'll find calm
Within the chaos

l.v.s

He left without
A trace
Though he had been gone
A while

I have only
Just now
Been told
The truth

The absence
Of him
His smile
His warmth
His hands
His support
His care
His intimacy
His company

It screams

I never thought
Deafening silence
Could fill
A room...
If only
It could
Fill my mind
Too.

l.v.s

With his warm eyes
With his warm hands
With his worn days
When he looks at me
He sees who I truly am
And I let him

I didn't ask him to wipe his feet
When I welcomed him in
I trust him not to leave
A mess

I've invited him
Into my home
Invited him
Into myself

I hope he feels comfortable here.

l.v.s

When you take my hand
If it trembles
From your touch
Please don't let go
Just hold me in your gaze
Pull me into your arms
Show me safety
Show me that
You're trustworthy

Because I want to
Because I want you
But it won't be easy...

l.v.s

If you're going to
Step up to my table
I hope you realize
This time you're
The toy

I'm tired of being used
Covered in bite marks
Making Squeaks
And entertaining
Someone else

Now it's my turn
I'm going to have my fun

So, what do you say?
Did you come here to play?

l.v.s

I'm fumbling
Don't know what
Key to pick
This chain
Is too heavy

I barred the door
To protect myself
What am I doing?
Why do such a thing?

Now these
Walls are crumbling
I can't believe

I've
Let
You
In.

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You're following my footsteps
Smiling at my missteps

I'm not sure
Where we're going
Do we have
A destination
Or are we
Treading water?

The two of us are out of place
The two of us might lose this race

But darling,
Please tell me...

Are we Fools?
What if we ruin it all?
And all we have we lose?

We're fine as we are
But we want more
Isn't that dangerous?


l.v.s