mom
my life started with a spice most don't recognize when its on their pallet
i ate my veggies like big girl
watched adult TV at 5am
kept u company so you wouldn'ty be lonely
grandma tried to keep the house clean when she could
she kept the cloths on our backs
she kept the food in our stomachs since u couldn't seem to make the welfare last past the 1st trip to the health food store
its were you bought the flavors of my child there and fast food
your age had nothing to do it
you were weeks past 35 the day of my birth
u never acted a day over eleven
at the age of 8 i walked to grandpa's house by myself
i looked both ways before i crossed the road
you were at home watching more TV
it was always on
till your tattooed boyfriend thought he wanted to act like family
when he was drunk
i mopped the floor right before his construction boots crossed the kitchen
he came back again
called me a ****
the day i first had ***
how funny that was
heroic tales with swords and saviors were everywhere
the books took up space on the floor along with the half empty cans of cat food
i learned flavors and smell and sounds and story's
other people tend to keep away from there kids and i'm not sure where all this leaves me now
other then addicted to curry

She sits in her room
and dreams of her friends.
She's free and she's happy --
she's wanted and loved.

She smiles, she laughs
the opens her eyes
as her heart fills with dread.
It was only a dream.

She walks through the halls
and she puts on her show.
She smiles and laughs
but they'll never know.

She feels so alone,
she feels so left out,
she feels like she's lost,
unless she's with them.

Did she even belong?
Would she ever really know?
Could she ever be a part?
Or would she be unwanted?

Then came the day
when her dream came true.
Finally, she believes.
Finally, she belongs.

MY EYES
REFUSED TO BLINK
AFRAID OF MISSING
YOU
MY FIRST LOOK
AFTER TWO DECADES
AND MORE
YOUR FACE EMBEDDED
IN MY HEART
CAME ALIVE
SWEETHEART
YOU WERE THERE
LIGHTING THE DOORWAY
I SAW NO ONE
BUT YOU
THE CROWDED AIRPORT
WENT MUTE
AN AUDIENCE
TO THE SWEET MUSIC
IN MY HEART
THAT CAME ALIVE
A DEAFENING
CRESCENDO
MY EYES RESTED
ON YOUR BEAUTY
EVERY BIT AS IT WAS
SO MANY YEARS AGO
I SAW YOU LOOK
A BRIEF GLANCE
SEEING BUT NOT SEEING ME,
I SAW YOU SHAKE HANDS;
HUG SOMEONE,
BID GOODBYE,
YOU HAD PEOPLE WAITING,
I  WAITED FOR THEM
TO GO AWAY,
LEAVE YOU TO ME
YOU WALKED
INTO MY ARMS
UNAWARE
OF PEOPLE
WATCHING
YOUR CHEEK
TOUCHED MINE
IGNITING
THE INFERNO
THAT HAD TURNED
ASHES AGAIN
INTO RAGING FLAMES
MY HUNGRY LIPS
HAD TO MAKE DO
WITH A TOUCH
OF YOUR FACE
I SHIVERED
AS THE WARMTH
IN YOUR SMILE
PACIFIED MY LEAPING
ANXIOUS HEART
MY EYES TURNED
HEAVENWARD
IN GRATITUDE
YOU ARE STILL MINE.

I walk into this dark colored room
room filled with beer and smoke
turn to the left and girls jumping everywhere
******* flying, ***** a floppin'
I focus on the jugs flinging up and down
hypmotized by the grace these things throw
My eyes finally focus up on this gorgous women
blue eyes meet mine and i can see it through those pearly gates
I know she wants me and she can see that I want her
we come close together and start to kiss
I get this filling in my stomach that we are about to ***
my soldier is fleeing
and i dont know why
all this **** alchola is kicking in
I start to get dizzy and about to ****
I hit the floor BOOM
this is why you dont mix beer & ***

I find that
Freckles seem to make the strangest shapes.

I find that I lose myself
With the connect the dots game
On your face.
I count three on your neck
Below your soft forest of hair.
A pointed constellation.
I imagine inside the freckle triangle,
It says: kiss here.
And kiss you I do.

I find that
Your freckles tell me where to travel with my lips.
I am going down down down
And now there's goosebumps.
Ah, the land is not fallow yet.
Further and further.
One dot, two dots, small dots, big dots.

I find that
My mouth is growing warm with
The taste of your pastures
Enveloping it.
I am hungry.

I find that
The land further down is bare.
A desert.
No more freckles to follow.
I look up for the first time,
And there you are,
Gasping for air.

My turn.

I want to
SCREAM
I want to
YELL
I want you to
LEAVE ME ALONE!!!
Stop telling me how to live my life and let me live it!

I don’t like my name but I love the way it sounds next to yours. There are billions of things I’ll never understand, like the time, and space, and why I love you as much as I do. I may not understand much, but the way your lips move when you say my name, darling that solves all of nature’s and man’s mysteries combined.

If I could still shut my eyes tight in a stroller
gliding through an amusement park,
with the belief that death won’t ever lay a cruel finger on me,

If I could only see the way your words twirl in the air,
complement mine over the satellite waves of our hearts
When we speak, our words collide and dance, and billions of atoms split into two.

You are the goal I’m trying to reach,
all I want to sense and suffer through
The world surrounds us with it’s restless prying
I am joyed with you beside me, I feel right, I feel glory


Romulus is the son of Mars,
you’re beautiful

unfinished

I've been missing
authentic selflessness
devoted kindness
and the soft laughter
you let out
when I used to do things
like try to cheer you up

I've been missing
fiery conversations
deep and vibrant
they used to dance across my face
every time I had a stollen space
alone
with your voice

I've been missing
grace within strangers
the signs of simplicity in nature
The way you'd stuff me into your
envelope embrace
and those hearty compliments
that  I used to save up for calloused
malnourished days

I miss
you impressing my brother
with your dutifulness
and natural peace,
showing big bright flecks of acceptance
in your eyes

I miss
the lightness I would feel
the second I pulled into our parking lot
and saw your muddy shoes outside
our place

I miss
noticing the yellow parts of the day
brought by your soothing spontaneity

I miss
laying my wild heart down at night
and being able to close my eyes
without wasp anxiety
stinging the lining of my stomach

I miss sleep and
the way I used to be with you.
Pure     beautiful     lovely                and utterly unique