I had wished that he loved me
like he loved violence
He had no problems romanticizing
the trauma of others
But he couldn't romanticize my problems
not at all
Made a mockery of suicide
but would gladly take the lives and loves of others
I'm glad I've learned that there's people
who can love me without making me small
This stupid girl
or parasite, as he would say
She can't do anything about him
There's no controlling what he does
or who he hurts
There's only hoping that the hurt
stays emotional
There's only moving on

Daylight dreams and fairy kisses
Dance with me at dawn
We'll kiss under the bare trees
Leaves crunching as we embrace
I don't think they'll grow back

Thank you, friends
but this
is where I take my leave

You turned this from a nightmare
to a pleasant experience

Provided me enough love
to keep me going

Taught me more about life
Than my mother’s sharp words ever will

Helped me learn that
even though my father may never come back
I still can

Unfortunately
I must wake up now
from this darling dream

I’m not ready
but time waits for no one

I’ll miss you

He's watching you
dancing in the underground
bleeding nose
and happy eyes

Heart racing
knowing he won't spare you today
but if he did
what waits for you outside
would show no mercy

You played your cards wrong
and used your last to make lines

Angels sing in celebration
while I lose my mind

Where are you, my love?

I can barely see through this raging storm
of snow and anxiety
My passion keeps me warm
while I search for you

Why did you do it?

I had everything you needed
Though it seems I overestimated
the dosage of love that you needed
You just weren’t ready

Come home
I’m terrified
I miss you

You couldn’t handle the world
and there’s no way you can now
Not with what I’ve done to you

You need me