Drama follows me
Problems that seem so false
Something out of a fiction novel
Just as the bees follow hunny
I like to fear
Just so things
never look boring and clear
Cant you see?
I create such a ruckous
I am so loud
Yet I  hate it
But in the end
Id never ever change it

I hate the drama
You take it away
Its you  
You change my mind
You help me find
The purpose
The reason
The Understanding of why

Im still here season after season.

When It happens
Its mostly common
I fall.
Usually Very hard
l slip.
and free fall into the deep blue depths of the sea
I make it knees length into the ocean
Because you are there
You save me from sinking.
Everytime.
Its you.

the scale derails
im walking on egg shells
it might as well be nails

I am so distant from you all
Im alone in the halls
I cant be a normal girl.

So carefree-
gossip, makeup and the malls.
Thats not me

alone.
I was.
I am.

But Not Forever.

most
intelligent
loving
fun female

denile
sure its possible

how much can one girl handle
ive questioned

far too much is in my head
afterall

at times its as if
i should crawl underneath my bed

curl up read a book
or just die

thats a simple alternative
so called plan

quite frankly.
i like it unscripted

life is no fun
if you predict it.

Money, Honey
makes the world go  round.
Money makes things happen
good and bad

Money clearly isnt worth dying over
But its what we live for
In the long run

Money makes things happen
it fills lives with glam and passion
Money makes life look easy

Money is the face
Behind Material Happiness
Some are just too blind by the Money shine

what would you say is the truth?
between me and you
my heart only beats for you

No other person on this planet
makes me feel the way
you make me feel.

I love the way we connect
I can spend the rest of my life with you
everyday of every second
we dont need plans
all i need is you.

You are seriously my other half
Lets jump to the future
Fast forward a few years

Lets' Beat all odds
prove them wrong
By being So in love
It's Stronger than strong

I dream only of you
All I need is you
Your my world

As a matter of Fact
And now you know it.

It is hard to explain
Almost impossible
Im destined to find
Something more
I know how
Its a process you see
Everything will be simple
crisp clear clean
salty as the deep blue sea
I will find me.
Just you wait and see.

Sketchy
Liars
Creepy
Unreliable
***** and Tainted
You bIg man
Are no better than the hunk of junk cars sold'
Worse than the stench of a used car in the summer
Your just like them
but the worst part is
I never bought you.
So unfortunitly for me.
There is no return policy

Everything to gain
Nothing to Lose
Im a one man team
Up against a five man pack
In a Cold and Unfair battle

.

Who ever said that family is forever
May god rest his sole

Harsh not hard.
Hounded like Anne Frank
Treated like a victim,
A Prisoner of YOUR war
In your own freak show parade

Somehow
Despite my disgust
And my dispair
I have made it this far
As a personal puppet
To a sick monster master
Of a mother

One short stretch of twentyone years
Feels like the Coldest and Longest
Cold World Fair
I do believe
It is time to retire.

So Thank you ever so kindly
For your extended invite-

But this time by choice
With no regret nor remorse
Ill kindly Say, "No Thanks"

And skip away
To be on my way
Never ever to be
Your puppet prisoner

Or your daughter.

Respect and Regret
Neglect to forget
pain is hurt
strength is grown
never regret
getting hurt
its all part of the plan

Your human
your a being
Your simply just plain MEAN
You have produced me
tried to reduce me
to nothing
But I am

I am much better of a person
Because of how much mean Ive Been exposed too
So thank you
Because of You
I can see the better side of people
I can look at "mean" and say to myself
I have seen worse, Far worse

I am 21.
I am a female.
I am known as Kimmy
I like to shop
I like to smile and talk to strangers

I prefer to pick flowers than to pick fights
I forget things such as names and numbers dates and my car keys
I like to dance
I believe in angels and heaven
I like to live with no regret
I believe life is short and sweet
Living Uptight and Unhappy is not my style

I Prefer to live day to day
as hard as that might be
for iF i had it my way id like to fastforward my life
just to see where ill be

I love few trust not that many
yet have my reasons
I have a terrible relationship with my family
I have learned HOW not to be
thanks to my parents
I lived a life of much tension/pain/frusteration/abandonment/love/hate/negativity/and lonliness
from all of it despite it all
i would not change a thing

i am kimmy
as unsure as I feel
I know ill figure it out

I rise above the negativity
live for the moment
learn from every mistake made
apologize for my wrong doings and than some-
know right from wrong
and am overly free spirited

If I died tomorow.
I hope to rise above my uncertainty
and into the security of knowing exactly who I am and who I WAS
given the will to live and the drive to understand life for how it is intended

I am hoping to make this self discovery sooner than later.

I was against it
Never once would I tolerate it
Convinced Id figure out anything but the truth
I was right.
It ruined you and I
A relationship thrown away
ripped apart
nothing could ever come
from a person I could never trust

time has passed
Here we are again
standing hand in hand
looking at what we had
Observing myself from an outsiders perspective
The roles have reversed
I am the Liar
Your the saint.