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is a thing of the past in this current state-

im not perfect
ill never be

I need something
a purpose
a reason for living
and a reason for leaving this part of the golden coast

im doing it again
another late night
hidden behind tears and polyvore

another month has passed
7 more days and ill be 22
its no surprise
i am still in love with you

but here i am
still wondering why i am here

through the clouds
over my head
beneath my toes
a feeling
opposite of good
but worse than bad

more terrible than the last ex
i lost everything

even the one person
who loved me

for me

ive done it this time further than ever before
who  cares -
i am completly alone
in my head and in my soul

so fried and flicked
******* and ticked

trapped in my own head
insanity has captivated my mind

its me
im the one with the problems

or is this just another life lesson
taught down on my journey  of life.

i had it all but hated it overall
it took this one time where i thought having no mall
was the worst thing of them all
b ut boy oh how i was wrongly  mistaken.

The sky is so lit with silver diamonds shimmering in the night sky
so pretty so prestine
why oh why cant this just be one big bad dream
alone in isolation
forced to learn
how to grow up
and not to be the ***** from so cal
who loves me
but doesnt respect me
yet is so protective of me from other guys
but no from his choice violent choice of words
from the little boy with one big ego

delusional
fuzzy in the brain
i think im going insane

tap water is toxic
nothing to drink
i cant float so i might as well sink

right or left
am or pm
i hate being given ultamatums

this is the truth
no wait its a lie
actually as a matter a fact its a big fat lie

im so happy
life is so grand
i hope this illness and insanity **** me 6 feet under the ground