Kim Denise

Kim Denise Nov 2015

My hands will not stop
shaking and I really think
it wants to hold yours.

#haiku

Kim Denise Nov 2015

I see myself dancing with you
and it's funny that it's all I want.

Growing up,
my mother always
told me that I have
two left feet and nothing
is wrong with that.

My father, he would always
compliment the rigidity,
the structure my bones have.

And my cousin, we'd hold hands
and skip merrily around that tree
and copy shampoo commercials
with towels on our hair.

I don't know what it is with dancing
that I'm so in love with,
that even though I was never good
at it, I crave it and its feeling,

and I don't know what it is with you
that I'm so in love with,
that even though I rarely see you,
I will always be yours.

Kim Denise Nov 2015

As if I'm gonna find you there

It's silly how I
keep looking for you in the
same place I lost you

A part of me still hopes

#haiku

Kim Denise Oct 2015

I study how to heal broken hearts but I guess I can't mend mine

I wanted to
write you a poem,
just like before,
when words
flow freely,
when my feelings
are just overflowing,
when everything
made sense,
and when,
even though
life is tough,
I had the strength
to keep going.

I wanted to
write you a poem
and tell you
how much
you mean to me.

But words,
they stopped
making sense,
and I am drained,
and sad,
and I don't want
to drag you
into this whirlpool
so I keep my mouth shut,
I keep my distance,
I can't even look
at you without tearing up,
without missing the
days I'm your cheerleader.

I want to
write you a poem
and tell you
I miss you
and that
I wish you may
find the person
that will make you
happy,

I know that's
not me.

Kim Denise Oct 2015

I'm used to the idea that it's just an idea

But what if
your feelings
are real
and you
do
love
me?

How do I
handle
it all?

Kim Denise Oct 2015

You make me fall even if I don't want to

I was trying to ignore you,
to make you realize that
I'm still jealous you like someone new,
but you sat next to me
and you talked to me
and I can't help myself but
talk all the stress away
and despite it being night
and me nagging and complaining,
you said this is the first time
you have really seen my face
and you fell deeper.

You have no idea how much
I wanted to hold your hand,
how much I wanted that ride
to go on forever.

This rain is making me miss you

Kim Denise Oct 2015

I only wait for the ones I love.

May 23, 2015
I spent a long time
wondering when
I'll see you again.

    August 11, 2015
    I must review anatomy now.
    I can't help but remember
    how you traced my palms.

        September 6, 2015
        You started visiting me
        in my dreams again.
        Is this a sign?

             *October 10, 2015
             Our friend will celebrate
             her birthday later and told
             me you can't make it.
             I felt sad because it could have
             been an opportunity to see you again.

October 11, 2015
Another of our friend
will be home tomorrow
and you said you'll go.
Finally, I thought.

    October 12, 2015 3:06pm
    I saw you today.
    I thought I saw sparks
    in your eyes.
    I know you're happy.

           4:45 pm
           You told me about this girl
           and you can't help but smile.
           I smiled to you as well so that
           you know I wish you well.

                 5:05 pm
                 I didn't feel anything
                 when you told me about her.
                 And I noticed you can't look at me
                 in the eyes.

                       now
                       I guess I made you wait
                       for far too long.