Deep craters
Hollow barks
Dark nights
In my soul
Under my skin
The distance and the silence
Of this room and its four walls
My empty thoughts and its dry tears
Cannot express
Visions of flying with no wings
Creatures crawling toward me
Fear
Penetrating
Cold
Shivering
Wishing a return to the womb
Instead of this
Instead of now
Loneliness does not describe
The deep truth
Not a mystery
Nor a riddle
Just the truth
Of being all alone

You left
Not a word, not a sign
Yes, it was brief
Of course, it did not cover
Life's changing events
But we said that word
The word of connection
Of a future of sharing
Not the surface
Like so many others
But of visions of hope
A mistake is so costly
All it takes is a phrase
To end in a breeze
What started just as quick
Can we be friends again?
I guess no more

I am not the kind to hold a grudge
Especially if I know on some level
It is a bullet I am supposed to dodge

You were probably joking
So it is weird for me to insist
That your words were upsetting

Maybe I am reading too much into this
But were you not just pointing out
That bits and pieces of me are a tease

I would understand if others bantered
But coming from you, my friend
On this subject, your attitude tortured

Not very fond of sarcasm
And making me an object of ridicule
Specially from you, is so seldom

Pardon me if I snapped
For the damage that it caused me
Is something I cannot drop

It stings because it is you
For behind every joke
There's a tad bit truth

Now I muse on what is worse
That I think you meant it
Or you do not realize it hurts