I hope we are like your favorite song

Not the one that you like right away
That is so catchy you become bored with it

But the slow one; the one that grows on you over time.

That you find new intricacies every time you listen

The one you won't tire of hearing.

it was a lonely 7 days
since i left you in that way
and remember i met you in the dark
and you could feel my beating heart

but it didn't matter to you anyway
i'm just another game for you to play
and remember i met you in the dark
and you could feel my beating heart

and i knew it all this time
you're not the kinda boy i should find
like a snake i was your prey
but it didn't matter anyway


but it didn't matter to you anyway
i'm just a girl without a say
i still met you in the dark
and you could feel my beating heart

and i hope one day you can see
just how much one beating heart can mean
it flows the oxygen up to my brain
where i stored all the words i wasn't saying

And when two wrongs are together
how right it can feel
my brain was floating somewhere
and now my heart is trying to heal.

The slower we go
The longer this will last.

Kiss me baby
Baby kiss me

Tell me baby
That you miss me

Kiss me now
And kiss me soon
Kiss me underneath
The moon

Kiss me baby
Soft and slow

Don't let anyone else know

Kiss me baby
Kiss me soon
Before we decide that
This will ruin

Tell me you love me
Even though you don't

Kiss me baby
I will if you don't.

A man once told me

In all of his travels

He has seen in me

Things not found in any other

He has known

That I paint a picture of beauty

and aestheticism that someone

Should desperately yearn for



*but unfortunately
he does not

"You go your way, I'll go your way too"

I read somewhere

And it plunged
into the cavity
where my heart once held you

Because every part of me wishes I could have
followed you

Followed you
to the place you didn't want me to go
because you said my path is different than yours

"We have different plans", you said
but I think I just wanted my plans to include you

I could be happy wherever
as long as I'm with someone I love.

I'm sad because I'm stuck here
because I ate too much today
because my coffee got cold too fast
because its been cloudy for so long
because the rain won't fall so the sun can shine again

I'm sad because you don't love me anymore
I'm sad because when you did, I didn't care
I'm sad that he gives me affection
but it's not going to mean anything in the end

I'm sad because I'm stagnant
because my life is moving at a snails pace
I'm creeping a long and everyone, everyone
is passing me by
with their  fancy jobs, houses, husbands
I don't have any of these things

I'm sad because I'm lost
and I don't know which direction to go
I'm sad that all the good things in my life
don't seem good enough anymore

I'm sad I feel like I always have to beg for the things I want
and even then I don't get them

I'm sad that no one can make me happy
like you can
I'm sad I depended on you to be there
even after I decided I didn't want you to be.

I'm sad.

I hate that I can't stop thinking about you
I hate that you're on my brain
I give myself reasons to let you go
But you give yourself reasons to stay.

Back burner baby
Always said maybe
Well, maybe you were right

Back burner darling
All that i'm wanting
You don't have to fight;
anymore

I'm yours

Back burner lover
Love undercover
All of this time

Hidden in the closet
Lost in the shadows of
My creviced mind

You were right

I'm yours

I always had you
In the back corner of my mind
In an attic full of "maybes"
And in a closet of "almosts"

So why am I hoping
That your maybe means yes
And your almost is a definitely?

It's 12:17 am
And now I remember:

You used to say goodnight first
And hello second
I was always
Last on your list

But I still put you first.

i like it when my face
is pressed up against yours
in the most unusual way
like you never kissed me before

i like when your legs cross
i like it when they don’t
i like it when you say you will
and even if you don't

i like it when you whistle
i like it when you hum
i like you when you act smart
or pretend to be dumb.

i like it when you whisper
i like it when you’re loud
i just want to be the one
you want to be around

so smile at me. smile. make my dreams come true.
i’d wish upon 1000 stars and always wish for you.

i like it when you smile
i like it when you laugh
i like when you forget the time
because you make me laugh.

i hate it when you’re quiet
i can’t handle that
you fill the empty spaces
that i never thought i had.

i like it when you touch me
i still like you if you won’t
i’d like it if you’d say you like me
even if you won’t.

flying is easy,
easy
i
think
minus crash landings that leave you to sink
but i was always able to fly
flying is easier than waving goodbye

they sang in choruses witty and bright
like airplanes across the ocean they flew
darling did you tell them?
darling don’t you see?
i’m a ship stranded at sea.
there’s no body to come rescue me

you were always too scared to fly

too well practiced at goodbyes.

so i’ll drown in this ocean
while you sit on the shore

always wishing we were something more.

dear don’t you see?
the more things you unpack
the harder it is to leave.

you’ve left behind so many things
i can’t possibly begin to clean

you flow through my viens
you’re the oxygen i breathe.
how will these dry bones carry me
if  you decide to leave?

We don’t need words when our hearts beat together
We could listen to them softly pump our blood forever
They beat back and forth to each other in many varied pulses
And sing each other songs that come from our impulses
Our love lies with us together were we are
It could never shine brighter than it did underneath the stars
In beds under blankets or in motorcars .

I'm a still frame
a photograph

I am filed away
in a folder of nevers

Stagnant
on a list of forgotten forevers

I am not moving or breathing

And you are a film
You are changing and moving
But I just sit still

its gonna be a long hard day i said
but don't you worry your handsome head ­
your life has only just begun

and i know your heart is bruised
but you have to choose
your thoughts and what you think upon

just stay a little longer you'll see
ill be the breaths you cannot breathe
and don't worry your handsome head
when i'd be the one you love instead
and things will only get better with time

your heart will feel better in time
your hand would feel better in mine
you will be better in time.

if this were a contest
i know i would lose
and i gave up months ago
but i still have your bruise
a life without you, i'd like to know
so love just let me go

you have bruised my heart and i still feel the pain
from what part of you did i have to gain?
because i gave my all to you
and you pushed me away
so love just let me go

you didn't give me chances so there were none to take
and keep me long enough to feel my heart break
and all you've done is leave me out here in the cold
so love, just let me go

and i'm still waiting for a time when it all works out
when i find someone that doesn't make me
doubt myself
but all i know of love to date is pain
so love, please let me go

i remember once, i saw galaxies in your eyes.
i dreamed winding rivers in your sides
and they fed the seeds that were growing in my heart

and they grew so tall that i couldn't speak anymore
they flew out of my mouth like weeds
and the planets stopped spinning for half a second
because you weren't by my side

the wind blew all the leaves off of your branches
and so i saw you as you really were

i would have watered your frail branches
but you wanted someone else to do it.
the longer you wait, the more you die (dry)
your roots are so deep into the dry ground.
the longer you stay stagnant, the more brittle you become.
i'm so scared that when you crack, i won't be there anymore.
you are breaking me with every word you say
(and with every word you leave out)
and all the while i am screaming in silent whispers: please do not forget about me.
please don't.
i could not forget about you even if i tried.

the spinning circles in my eyes had no effect on your transparent heart
as much as i wished they would have.

I think a lot about whether my veins
are blue
or whether
they are green

(I just want them to compliment yours)

I think a lot about the weather
And what we would be like
in a rainstorm
or on a cloudless day

I often wonder if you think
about me

but most often doubt you do

I'm the girl who has green veins
and you are the boy who has blue.