She's the kind of girl you fall in love with and have no clue why before you know it a day without her seems unbearable and you'll find yourself saying "I think i love you" You'll find yourself in auto pilot driving to her house at 4 a.m feelings you never thought was possible surfaces then suddenly things wont "Aren't working out" your bones will ache even months laters when someone says her name
and i know i should not miss you like that but i can't help but wonder if i were to change my cigarettes, would they bring back your taste in my mouth whenever we kissed?
smoking my last cigarette beneath freezing rain, it's midnight & this feels so deserving. i'm thinking of jokes like, "wow, the price of gas is almost as low as my self esteem!" it's not funny though, i just smile slightly.