You people are just amazing
I could never do what you do
You all have your reasons I'm sure
But those who do it just to do it
Are amazing
I try to like you
I try to do how you do
It doesn't work I know
But I just want to accepted
My hearts to weak right now
I wish I could put more into it
But it's been
Step on
Broken into pieces
Torn apart
There isn't much to put in
But it is slowly getting fixed
I'm afraid I wont see the day
Where my children
Will be among-est
You people

Most think nothing of it
They say it's just
Your subconscious
Making you see things
I'll admit I once
Thought that was true
But now?
I believe my mind is sent
To a different version
Of myself at random
Only for the time being
I feel, think, and understand
Just as they do
I'm sent back usually
When they die
Or some random
Time
Dying over and over
Just to wake up
To live my  life
That I have control over
Seems fine for now

I can't make art
I can see it
In reality and
In mind but
I can never make it
I start to think
I see in my mind
I can't show anyone

She saw me
She sees me
All the time but
Not like this
She saw me
In a weaken state
My shell
Was no more

Look at them
They were so weak
But they found
Their own strength
They started climbing
They've made it
Pretty far
The furthest
But they still have
A long way to go
I guess we'll wait
Until they reach the top

They say such hollow words
There's nothing backing them
They seem happy at times
It never last though
They say they love me
I know they really
Hate me

They used to be
Magnificent
At one point
I'd dream to
Be with them
After that I
Eventually did
But over the years
My love dwindle
And now I wonder
Why I stay
Could it be
The people
The game
Who knows
People ask
Who is this person
But the truth is
They're not a person

Something just feels
Off
Everyday since
I appeared I
Did one or two
A day it just feels
Wrong not to do one
I wish I had more
Of a talent for this

Some people had at least
One person for them
Growing up
But I
Never had that
I was always on
My own
I've learned
That I
Give some pretty good
Advice
I started thinking to myself
Telling myself things
That weren't always true
I soon lost touch with people
Most had no idea
I was suffering
They all had no clue
Of how long
I don't know
What to do
Or how to fix myself

When you become
A ghost
You lose something
Your appearance
Is said be a faction
Of what it used to
I guess some don't
Have that problem
Or she's just
That beautiful

They ask me if I'm
Overwhelmed
I tell them
No
Then they ask
Don't you ever get tired or anything
I respond with
Not really
They ask questions
About me but I know
The question
They want to ask

I may be a Demon
But I'm not a ghost
So why don't they
See me?
I do all these things
And nothing
I show them my
Talent
Yet still nothing

I started out knowing
Next to nothing
I had nothing to
Offer them
But they kept
Me
I messed up a lot
All my friends were
Way better than me
Yet they chose me
To be a team
Not everyone can
Be on
They said
I was one of the
Only ones that kept
Trying to do better
That was my first year
But now I'm
Wrong Way

There's nothing really to say
I was just always mad
Barely happy
I was looking for something
But I had no clue what
My parents always
Got me stuff trying
To buy my happiness
Soon they just stopped
I slowly became
Alone
I started thinking
Of all the things
I wanted to do
And ask
Do I really want
To do those?
The answer was usually
No
I began to think
There was nothing
So I thought I was nothing
At the time
I didn't have a reason
To live
They thought I need help
They were wrong
I needed a reason
But at last I have one
And I know what
I want to do
But that's a different
Page for a different
Time

I could walk into
A random town and
They would stay clear
For no matter
They hate me
They leave me in
Isolation
They all whisper amongst
Themselves
Looking over their shoulder
To see ic I was still there
Why am I
The Hated

She started feeling sick
Started throwing up
I told her to get some rest
She wouldn't unless
I watched over her
I agreed of course
She woke up several times
And I was there
To help with anything
But we both knew
I couldn't stay forever
When she awoke
I was gone but
she was safe

They say
Whats yous is
Mine and
What mine is
Yours
Hers could never
Be mine
But mine are hers
I guess
Whats mine is
Yours and whats
Yours is yours

there they are in my lawn
to them it's a fun house
they always come
not knowing the truth
whats really behind the door
they'd be surprised
to see only a monster
chained down
covered in it's own blood

It matters not
How hard one
Works
Only if
Someone
Notice

I was told by my father
"A man should never cry
But for only a death"
When you hate yourself
As long as you can remember
You tend to cry for things
You do
But I always had to force
Myself to stop or I'd
Disappiont my father
So I hid my feelings
Still visible but out off
Sight

It's so warm
Yet wet
And the smell
slightly potent
I could move
But
I was free
I knew
But
Then I didn't
I never knew
How beautiful
It was

We dressed in all black
We all did
We didn't have a choice
They all had someone
To be with after
I jusy went home
But once I returned
My home was all white
As I stepped in something
Was wrong
I had the feel that
I wasn't welcomed
Because I failed
Or something

The feeling just isn't
The same
I liked it better before
One of my creations
Came about
I'm proud it made it
As far as it did
But it just seems lost
I create more just
To know that one
Will notice but
By saying they
Get the wrong idea

They tell me it'll get better
As long as I keep trying
But when I try
I have to stop
I get too into it
I can hear
See
Them laughing
At me
When I'm all
Alone

I feel I don't belong here
In a sea of talent
And I'm just a rock
Sitting there
I'm told anyone
Can come here
Regardless
Who you are
I just don't see
It right now but
one day I'll see
That place

They tried to
Separate us
They were fine with
Us in the beginning
Until we created
Life together
But they can only
Keep us away
For only a little
While longer
We'll soon have
Our own family

They said it could happen to anyone
Never did I think it would happen
To someone close to me
Even to my own sister
Tears did fall
But not from me
I feel anger
Not sorrow

I feel like I slip
In and out of reality
Sometimes I can't remember
Anything that happened
A few minutes ago
There are times
I can't feel anything
Sometimes I think
If I'm really here
Or somewhere else

I'm always told what
To do
They always ask of me
And I usually do it
But the very few times
I don't they are surprised
It seems they forgot
I'm human too