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468 · Feb 2017
The Youth In America
Kevin Eli Feb 2017
No value,
Direction, motivation, trust,
Guidance, inspiration, role models, voice, belonging,
Career, money, health, hope, encouragement,
Patience, acceptance, love, sympathy, safety, or salvation

Driven insane

Lonely mountains of sadness, anger, courage and pain
468 · Dec 2014
Imagination
Kevin Eli Dec 2014
Split between worlds, please keep spreading our nature.
It's a challenge to be heard, much less understood.
Please believe in invention.
It's our only creation.

There is always a righteous cause:
Love defined through innovation
464 · Oct 2013
Hope Never Shatters
Kevin Eli Oct 2013
I just have to remember what I told myself~
Relationships are like glass. They break into a million pieces, seemingly unrecoverable. But if you collect them all together, with just the right amount of heat and love, you can watch it all melt back together, into a new piece of glass.

New to the eye, yet the feeling will never fade.
456 · Jan 2015
No Returns
Kevin Eli Jan 2015
The return policy for my heart has expired.
Sold at a cheap price, a sale bin bargain.
I got tricked at my own back door.
Pushed off a truck again.

Bartered over the table, no receipt.
Complacent defeat, or constant torture
It's not even my choice if I function anymore.

Yes, Ma'am. you can do whatever you wan't.
You own me, your toy, you own all of this.
You bought me with a mere kiss.

Slump down motionless.
You can do whatever you want with me.
But you don't want anything.

I have no real meaning.
Like an unwanted doll,
opened Christmas morning.
You cut me open and ripped out my stuffing.
455 · Jan 2016
Descending
Kevin Eli Jan 2016
I kept tumbling, falling...
Trying to walk down a black stone stairwell.
It widened and rippled like water with each sinking step, feet sinking into a dark blue glue.
Each stair I stumbled as the floor was lower than I presumed; giving me a feeling of vertigo and being swallowed down and down deeper into a hole I thought was only so deep, yet ended up being deeper than I ever imagined.

The lip of the top surface seemed hundreds of yards above offering little light to me, like a mouth engulfing less than what it wanted, tasting only my fear.
My dream last night 01/08/16
454 · Jul 2016
Dreams & Rage
Kevin Eli Jul 2016
Lets change this world
Let's make it better than we were left it
Let's make sure we have clean oceans and healthy land
Water in our lakes and rivers
Food in people's mouths
Olive branches in our hands.

No more wars
No more corporate overreach
No more fears of what we cannot see
No more sitting in our houses
Take back our democracy
Take to the streets
451 · Jan 2016
She Stabs Me In My Sleep
Kevin Eli Jan 2016
I can't go a night without dreaming of her.
Night terrors in which I see her stumble down dark paths.
She doesn't care about the gift of living, only dying and death.
She was my best love and the hardest to hold beside me.
I'm out of breath, I can't keep crying.

Every night in my dreams she stabs me in my sleep.
Not with a knife, but a needle that drives deep.
I beg her to let go, but she pierces me in the chest.
I don't feel the pain. Just a swelling in my breast.

My heart, my lungs, when I wake up every morning are frozen.
I wake up and feel my scar, comforted only by a cat she left at my feet.
A living reminder of who we are, and who we have chosen to be.

I never see her. She's gone now, but every night she still stabs me in my sleep...
449 · Nov 2013
Hillcrest and Hoden'
Kevin Eli Nov 2013
Watch the cars cross Hillcrest and Hoden'. Seeing the world and living life has always had its fortunes. Believing the light to crawl and make your way to foreign shores, we never catch ourselves sleeping during every waking moment.
447 · Mar 2010
Motion
Kevin Eli Mar 2010
Lines ridges waves
Indentations in a cave
They rock and ripple in every way
Motions constant
Nothing stays
As the current flows The boat tips
A simple pattern expresses this
Simply formatted, every way
Life contains all of this.
- From ME
Kevin Eli Jan 2015
Lifting my chest, I float from safety
An anxious excitement at the proposition of infinity
It's not a drug, it's formless, ironically.
Cheating won't let me.

I just want to let my lids relax
Let my hands fall free
Lean back into vertigo
And let the glow consume me.

Holy Grails and books of ancients
Cannot deny me because of sins
Nobody suffers except for the angels
Who will have one less friend

Of warm, still winds,
Which willows bow and bend,
The place where we go, we assume never ends.
Elysium, Nirvana, Valhalla or Heaven

To disappear isn't my wish
I want to be lifted away from mortal fear.
I just desire to feel more than this
With these few precious moments I have here
435 · Jun 2016
American Sickness
Kevin Eli Jun 2016
We can't think straight
Our stomach is in knots
We can barely eat anymore
And our love is dead

Ruthless world it is
Struggle is never ending
The rich proceed to get richer
While the poor feed on each other

I see my neighbors stop trusting
While friends and townsfolk cower
The market claims it's our own fault
When the chips were never in our favor

I want to fight a thousand people
Yet I'd only get my *** beaten
But I'm so angry at the treatment
This can't be the human condition
433 · Jan 2016
My Apologies For Bleeding
Kevin Eli Jan 2016
Three daggers in my back and a sword through the heart...
I apologize if I don't get up as quick as others, or run as fast.
I'm trying to figure out where the hilts are.
428 · Mar 2010
Sleep
Kevin Eli Mar 2010
Do I sleep to dream? I know I dream to sleep.
You know I want to sleep. I want to sleep to know, Did you dream too?

Because my yesterday was today, and today will soon be yesterday again, soon to lose and forget whats already a memory to be happening again.

Wake me up.
Rip me off the floor.
- From ME
Kevin Eli Apr 2014
I was raised being told to respect my elders,
But they only ever called me a punk growing up.
They said they raised us to one day give us the world.
Gave us what? Cities of ****, dry lakes and burning rust?
A generation of parents, so worried about taking care of their kids,
They destroyed the world so they wouldn't go outside. Mother's Envy.
They told me to pay attention in school,
And taught me that I didn't fit,
Never how to find a job, but certainly how to quit.

When your generation was growing up?
I don’t want to hear about your generation.
The generation that cared more about what created the world,
Than how to keep it alive?

A drunken stepfather blamed by his son,
In turn blaming his own father for the reasons his son hates him.

You want your kids to behave a certain way? Don’t force them.
Explain to them the effect and the cause.
Guide them, not govern them.
Accept and love them, they have your flaws.

Don’t forget that you would rather be rich and your enemy richer
Than to be blind in one eye so he will be in both.

I won’t use your generation as a scapegoat.
Today I am here to stop this cycle.
No, you will not be my excuse.

I will stand up and give a voice to the voiceless.
Run, walk and crawl for the crippled.
Find a cure for our parent's cancer.
Pay for our broken homes, flooding with bills.
Will break my back to farm for those without food
Who starve in our valleys, our plains, our hills.

But I beg.
Just please, oh Mother.
Don't force me to ****.
Because if I have to dear Father,

You know that I will...
411 · Jan 2013
Let Me Be Your Eulogy
Kevin Eli Jan 2013
Let it be difficult to wake up.
Let it be easy to go to bed.
Let a hard day's work brush by when your eyes are sore and red.
Let the sun come out, even when it's night.
Let the light come out, even when its dark.
Let a soft face touch down in your hands.
Let the pillow next to you be open even if you're feeling hurt.
Let me be there even if it's me you have to brand.

I never said I was perfect, I can only try to be the man I am.
But I'll never let your heart die and fall away while I stand.
Because there is love in this eulogy I wrote for you.
Till death, I promised to hold your hand.
Because I said I loved you...

From the beginning to the end.
405 · Jun 2014
Finding Reveries
Kevin Eli Jun 2014
Dreams.

The most tantalizing dreams are the ones that I cannot recall except for the lingering emotion and flash of an image that causes one to be haunted by a long forgotten reverie. Do I not remember because it was nothing? Or do I not remember because I am afraid to?

We might dig for the rest of the morning trying to find it again.
Sometimes it comes to us in the late stretching sunset, touched by Déjà vu.  
Other times, it is lost forever.
Was it lost love taunting the lover?
A monster chasing you?
Was it falling from a hotel roof?
Maybe it was flying before tumbling to Earth.
Sometimes it’s a mind just spinning, floating through time.
Lucid as all hell.

Love, fear, excitement, anger.
Wonderment with a million emotions shared,
but not connected to seven billion others in our daily oceans.
No matter what, when you are a dreamer,
you can be the only one.

Don't be afraid to remember, and it's okay to forget.
Have fun.
Just don't stare too long into your soul's sun.
400 · Jul 2015
ER Waiting Room
Kevin Eli Jul 2015
A cursed quench to a thirst I will never reverse
Game perverse
Coming in last, placing in first
Having nothing gives you something
Starving could be worse
364 · Jun 2012
Departure
Kevin Eli Jun 2012
Well I'm sitting here with my friends
      and I can't tell them why
     this is the end
    of the times I'll try
   to explain again,
what I feel,
now,
and never
Again.
Kevin Eli Jun 2016
Living and dying, breaking down crying
Making and chasing dreams we keep trying
Thinking...

Promises we make, the ones we break
It's all just a materialistic haze
Because life is just a phase.
334 · May 2014
You Threw That Word Around
Kevin Eli May 2014
I wish you stabbed me.
It would've hurt less.
At least then I would know how you honestly felt about me.
313 · Sep 2014
Sometimes
Kevin Eli Sep 2014
Many people say, "I'll try anything once".

Idiots.

There are some things in this world you should not try.
Curiosity seduces, naiveté weakens.

Oh, you thought you could handle it?
The pleasure, the paranoia, the pain, the euphoria?
Your shuttered lids show a missing regret.

Yes, it was an insane though, turned a lengthy process.
When you go that far, you can never go home.
They won't let you.

And no, you can't use the ******* telephone.

As I sip on my own quote,
"Sometimes"
306 · Jun 2016
Footnote
Kevin Eli Jun 2016
All this we feel
Everything we know
All that glitters isn't always made of gold.

But if you want to know
And you do share a care
The secret is in your childhood teddy bear.
289 · Feb 2014
Will Somebody?
Kevin Eli Feb 2014
Will somebody destroy something?!
Will somebody change something?
Will somebody create something new...?

I hope.
272 · Nov 2014
Worth The Risk 1,000 Times
Kevin Eli Nov 2014
I died, went to hell, escaped and survived.
She didn't make it out
I'm going back in to find her
I know she's alive

She's the world to me
And I can stop this
It's my choice, our lives

And I would do it a 1,000 times

— The End —