Don't ask me not to worry
Cause you know I always will
Although you're getting bigger
You are my babies still

I wish I could do magic
So you won't make mistakes
I'd give up everything I had
I'd do all that it would take

If I could keep you safely
Tucked inside my arms
I'd build a wall around us
To keep you safe from harm

I'd never let a raindrop
Fall upon your head
I'd cup your ears so they'd not hear
Any bad things that are said

If I had the power
To make things go my way
There'd be no pain or hurt or sadness
And you'd be happy everyday

But as you know I don't possess
The magic that it takes
To take away the problems
And make this world a perfect place

And since I don't
You have to know
I'll worry about you
What are they doing now?
Where are they and with who?

I'll worry if you'll remember
The things I tried to teach
Like not to talk to strangers or
Turn you back when at the beach

Don't forget to use your manners
Brush your teeth and comb your hair
Always do your best
Always do what's fair

Remember right from wrong
And don't give in to please a friend
Cause you're the one who has to deal
With the trouble in the end

I worry that other people
Do not see the things I know
The things way deep inside you
The things that do not show

Do they know your hearts are bigger
Than the universe itself
Or that you are both more giving
Than any one of Santa's elves

Do they know how much I love you
Or the way you make me fee
When I think that you are mine
It's still just so unreal

From the day I looked into your eyes
And hugged you that first time
I said I'll never let you go
You always will be mine!

So I'm always gonna' worry
No matter how I try
Cause I love you with all my heart
That's the reason why!!

Love you, Mommy

No                                                        Yes
Why?                                                  
                                                              Why not?
Unlikely                                              
                                                              but reasonably possible
you can't
                                                              can
This is stupid
                                                              this is good
Why go through this
                                                              everything will change

Me                                                        Me

Waste
                                                             Worth it
I wont get there
                                                             you will
Help
                                                             Stay strong
                                                             Keep going
Hide                            
                                                             Live

Reaching for                                      you.
                   ­               Tired.
I hold onto                                         another.
                       **Moving forward.

She has a big heart
And when she smiles I know
All the reasons that I'm alive
Without her I'd never grow
Without her I feel lost,
and sometimes I'm afraid
I need to see her darling face
Just to make my day
She sparkles when she dances
Her eyes light up a room
Her kisses make my heart melt
And I live for her "I love yous"
She has the key to my heart
When there's nothing more to give
I just want to see her happy
She's the reason that I live

It is August already
Another year slips through my fingers
Where has the time gone?
I'm still trying to reassemble it back together

I almost forgot your birthday
But at night you float into my bedroom
It's impossible not miss you
When your magic soars across the stars

The sirens remind me of a nightmare
You were always an emergency
White cats and baseball bats
Grunge shirts on a broken boy to cheap to pay full price

Your moms apartment was scented with cigarettes
We drank coffee just to stay awake
You spoke riddles just for conversation
And walked with your hands in your pocket

I danced to keep a smile on your face
Payed the bills and cooked you dinner
But simplicity wasn't your style
So you threw out the window

I fall apart every now and then
Crumble down into shells of mix matched pieces
It's like the rain clouds follow me
Every right I take, I should of gone left
It's hard to face so many mixed emotions
The waves of guilt are always crashing in
Living up to people's expectations
I lose my way
Side track on little interruptions
Too many thoughts to process all at once
Temptation dangles right in front of my face
One mistake sends me back to rehab
But the reasoning is overlooked
I'm a shell, when I could of been a pearl
A dim light drowning in a sea of dust
Negativity echoing in my eardrums
But I find a way to believe
So much pressure dancing on my shoulders
And as I pray I scraped my knees
Put a smile on and breathe in deep
And to think it's just the beginning of a mountian with never ending hills
So I'll use my compass to guide me back