Since when
are the words "low weight"
synonyms for  the word “beautiful"
whats so beautiful about
hunching over
the scale or the toilet
begging to be lower
with tears stinging your eyes

What is so beautiful
about being admitted
into hospitals and recovery centers
because you are so unhealthy
that when you look in the mirror
you can’t even recognize
the being staring back at you

Since when is beauty
a subscription to Cosmopolitan
and a prescription for
anti-depressants and
a room reservation at
the long term hospital.

What is so beautiful
about being labeled
as your disorder
and not you anymore
there is nothing luxurious about
emptying yourself
just to feel a sliver of the word
beautiful

So don’t you dare
try telling me that
“low weight”
is and will ever be
synonymous
with “beauty"