we are having fun
picnics for hell
not worried
climbing bean stocks with our tails

as far as we go
we hold on
tightest grip around hope
avoiding change at all cost

we will never fall
floating on clouds
enjoying the conveniences
taking for granted the limbs that help us

dreams evaporating
the higher we climb
bees in the sky
leeching life for fun

they screech with there wings
brushing up against our legs cutting deep
big radiated eyes that burn souls for free
twice our size they scream

"how can it be
that your happy
when you have nothing
to show happiness for

dreams don't exist here
just perspiration of your soul
as you grow old
prepare to die slow"

I say no
we are so much more
you will not scare me
i am here to fight

die i might
die i will
its okay as long
as i am dieing with thrill

He got expelled this time.

He wasn't sent to
In-school suspension
Or lunch detention
Or the counselor's office.

He was expelled from
Fairfax County Public Schools.

And his friends all freaked.

They sat outside the school
Every morning
And wouldn't go in
To protest.

They signed a petition
That called him a
"Well rounded student"
And
"Well loved by the student body."

I didn't love Brian.
I hated Brian.

Brian was the kid
Who always
Made the class
Stay late.

He was the kid who
Went through the halls
Grabbing peoples butts.

He was the kid that
All the guys wanted to be
And all the girls wanted to have.

And instead of sending him off
To West Point
Where he would have to
Shave his Bieber hair and
Follow the rules for once,
The county revoked the expulsion.

And to me
It seems like
A celebrity murdered someone
And because a thousand fan letters were sent in
They got to go free.

please God help me..
I don't know who I am anymore...
I've made so many horrible mistakes. I don't even want to hear of you anymore...
God I don't deserve your grace your mercy or your love... Not today.. Don't waste it on me... Not for me...
I'm so **** lost!!
Stuck in a deep hole... Taking my last breath.. Singing my last song.. The one that won't last.. The one that dies off..
PLEASE nobody help me.. I'm fine here in this place. Don't try to save me...
I just wish I was dead..
These stupid happy songs... Don't mean anything to me anymore!!
This place I'm in... these mistakes that someday, ready or not all have to face..
He hates me
She hates me
You hate me...
You got your wis...
..cause now,
I hate me to....
I wish I was someone else.
I wish I wasn't me.
I wish I could be little misses perfect...
The one you've always wanted me to be...
That one I can't ever BE for you!!
The one I always try to be but fail at every try..
I hate this this
And I hate me...
The places I used to go to, to be free... I can't go to now cause they all hate me..
I've burnt every part of me
Realizing that every person I've ever wanted to be, isn't me!
That's it's just me.
And I can't take that.
Please I'm okay here...
Don't try t help me
Don't try to save me.
I'll find my way some day..

and as you walk down
the long, blank school hallway
I feel my heart race,
stomach flip,
eyes widen,
and lips form a smile.

the sight of you
makes my day.

but alas,
you don't even know
that I exist;
I am a speck of dust to you,
an irrelevant girl
who only wants your attention.

you are all I see,
but to you,
I am invisible.