What is love?
I thought I knew, but I guess I was wrong
We were once each other’s everything
But life got in the way
And we grew in different directions
I wish it could have worked out differently
If it had we might still be together planning our future together
Now I’m living a life without you in it
A life that is cold, dark, and lonely
I wish I could go back to when everything was perfect
And we were still together
To say I miss you is the understatement of the century
I would do anything to be able to hold you one more time
And tell you how much I Love You
But that’s not happen, I know

Many people I know find it funny that I know so much about music. They call me a musical savant at times; it doesn’t bother me at all. It is actually kind of true. The only reason I know so much is because when I was going through one of the darkest times in my life music is the only thing that brought me back. Music was my therapy and there was one band in particular that I credit to saving me.

That band is… The Wanted.

Yes I know they are not a band right now. This dark period was from 2010 through 2012. At the time The Wanted were still together making music.

One day I was watching random music videos on Youtube and I came across the song I’ll Be Your Strength by The Wanted. When I heard that song I started crying because it was exactly what I needed to hear at that time. I felt like for the first time in a long time that I wasn’t alone and I finally had someone tell it was going to be okay.

Yes I realize that they have no clue who I am and that it is just a song.
But no matter how old I get I will always credit that song and that band with bringing me out of the dark.

That song made me realize that I needed help, BAD! There was so much going on that I had become depressed. I also felt like I was all alone and had no one who I could count on as my rock.

My friends did try and help me as best as they could but it wasn’t enough.

I started listening to music a lot more. I would spend hours just surfing ITunes listening to 30 second previews of songs.

Slowly I started to feel better emotionally and that made me feel better physically as well.

Music has a hidden power and if you really listen to the lyrics it can be everything that you need to hear. Before that time I never really paid too much attention to what songs were saying. I would just put it on for background noise.

It has been two years since the darkness disappeared and music is still my therapy on a daily basis. I don’t go anywhere without my IPod. If I can’t figure something out I just put on one of my favorite musicians and I will always get the answer I need.

Now a days when I talk about The Wanted everyone around me just thinks I’m a severe fan girl. I just go with it because I don’t want to go into the real reason why I’m so devoted to them.

So I leave you with this quote that sums up exactly how I feel:
“He took his pain and turned it into something beautiful. Into something that people connect to. And that's what good music does. It speaks to you. It changes you.”
― Hannah Harrington

This is it,

No more mourning
No more grieving
Just two strangers with words left unsaid
A broken friendship never to be repaired
I’m so done with the give and take
Me giving my all and you taking everything
Never again will you have the power over me
I will not shed anymore tears when it comes to you
I’m taking back my happiness
Before I walk away for the last time,
I will leave you with one last gift…

I leave you with a kiss goodbye

Today I mourn the death of a friendship
As I start a life without you in it,
I realize i mourn for what we once had
A friendship so beautiful but so terrifying at the same time
Nothing but a distant memory now,
that always come back to me at the worst possible time
I'm trying to move on with the future yet I seem to be stuck in our past
I mourn for the friend I thought I would never loose
For me to say i don't miss you would be a lie
I still wonder if you even think of me
When you left my whole world turned upside down
Never again will I hide in your shadow
There's nothing left between us
We've gone our separate ways
Sometimes i wonder if you miss me like i miss you
I can still hear your voice but it's fading fast
Today I mourn for what could have been

Why can’t I let you go
You still haunt my past
I’m looking for closure that I will never get
I still have days where I miss you
I want to let you go,
But part of me is afraid to
I still hope you’ll come back to me
We were best friends now we don’t even talk
There’s still apart of me that wants things to go back
to the way they were
How can I move on when I keep looking back
It still seems like yesterday
The pain is still so real

What would your last words be to the ones you love?
Life can be taken for granted at times
You don't know how good you have it till that one person is gone
All you want to do is go back to when that person was still here
Always tell people how you feel before it's too late
You may not get a second chance
After they are gone cherish the time you had together
All that is wanted is just one more day
But even that isn't enough
Time may feel like it's slowing down but in reality it's going faster than you think?
What would you regret not saying to the ones that you love after they're gone

I am still here but i can't be seen
I am the wind blowing through your hair
I am the stars watching over you at night
I am a daughter, a sister, and a friend
My name was Kim
I am always standing right next to you every time you think of me
I am illuminating the night
I am a daughter, a sister, and a friend
My name was Kim
I am the friend who will never leave you alone
I am the single cloud in the sky giving you shade on a warm summers day
I am now watching over you from above
I am the eagle flying across the sky
I am still here but can't be seen
I am the voice you can't get out of your head
I can now sing out forever
I am a daughter, a sister, and a friend
My name was Kim

What a difference a year can make
It still seems like it only happened yesterday

Now when I see you, I think back to May
Back to when you were in my life
Back to when we were friends
Back to when everything seemed so perfect

My world doesn’t revolve around you trying to make me happy
Who even gave you the right to steal my happiness in the first place?

Now when I see you, I think back to May
Back to when you were in my life
Back to when we were friends
Back to when everything seemed so perfect

In the long run I guess its better that we’re not friends anymore
I guess that’s what you really want anyway

Now when I see you, I think back to May
Back to when you were in my life
Back to when we were friends
Back to when everything seemed so perfect

Now I am putting the pieces together of my once shattered heart
Only time will keep us apart

Now when I see you, I think back to May
Back to when you were in my life
Back to when we were friends
Back to when everything seemed so perfect

I once wanted nothing more to fix are broken relationship
Sometimes I think I should have tried harder to have stopped you from walking out of my life

Now when I see you, I think back to May
Back to when you were in my life
Back to when we were friends
Back to when everything seemed so perfect

One day you walked out of my life and didn't look back
For a reason i'm still unsure of
I wish it hadn't happened
I wish i still had you
One day if I look back will you still haunt my memories?
Will i still see the reflection of the person you made me become?
One day will I ever realize that it's never going to change?
As I stare at the blank pages of this journal,
I can only think about everything that was left unsaid
As I stare at the picture i have of us,
I can only think of how much I still miss you
One day you will realize that i'm the best thing you ever had
You will come back
I will be gone

You seem so distant to me
Like a stranger in the wind
I don't even know you
Yet you are already a part of me
You are my older brother
The brother I never knew
But also very close too
I can't wait to meet you someday
Then all my unanswered questions will be answered
But until then you will just be a stranger in the wind

You were once my best friend
We thought we would be friends,
till the very end.

Things began to change not for the better,
but for the worse.
Then eventually you started hanging with her more
and you started to forget me

Then it finally came,
the first drink of alcohol.
Then you finally forgot all about me

I still had to compete with your new best friend
The more alcohol you drank
The more damanaged our friendship became

I moved on,
I made new friends
But one thing was still missing,
that was you being my friend

But as long as your still friends with her
You and I can never be friends
That's your fault not mine.

I still wait for the call
But I know it will never come
The call is for another chance
The second time you won't be so lucky.

Moments are what capture life's greatest achievements
They are photographs worth 1000 words
Thoughts in your head too good to be put on paper
Moments are what last a lifetime
Emotions captured forever
Life changers or happy endings
Moments are captured anywhere or anyplace
Everyday creates a lifetime of moments
A look, a glance
Moments are created by everyone
They can help you set your destiny or pick your future
Moments help you remember the finer things of life
As life passes by you will always have your favorite moments worth remembering
Good and bad times remembered
Moments are what capture life's greatest achievements.

As the days turn into months you slowly fade from my life...
Along with everything I've come to know about you.

Your smile...

Your laugh...

Your face...

The memories of you...

Then finally the love I had for you...

You were there now you're gone.
We are now two different people living in two different worlds.

I can't believe it's already here
It seems like you were just there
Like an angel on borrowed time
With each new day you slowly fade away
Pain and numbness disappear as time ticks by
The memories of you are still vivid within my head
Summer turns into fall as a year slowly comes and goes
As each day gets longer I still miss you
One year turns into two which will eventually turn into ten and your still watching over me from up above
Even though I still see you everywhere i go
As your favorite song plays on the radio,
I think about the good times and try to avoid the bad times
Old memories are all i can think about
Old pictures are all i can look at
As I sit here wishing you were here with me a single tear rolls down my cheek.
You are now my guardian angel but you will always be my best friend
I have so many questions with no answers
The main question is why?
Eventually there will come a day when i can think about you and not shed a tear.

sad,
lonely,
miserable,
depressed,
I'm shattered into pieces
All I want to do is cry
I can't believe you,
of all poeple would do this to me
Didn't you know how much I loved you
It took all my strength to make it through one day
Being alone is only a temporary relief from the pain
I put on a "Happy Face" so people won't ask what's wrong
No matter where I go I still see you,
leading such a happy life
while i'm slowly dying inside
You turned my whole world up-side down
Nobody understands what i'm going through
Is the pain ever going to end?

You say I can trust you
You say your telling the truth
or is that another lie
Your lies always catch up with you

Do you really want to be known for your lies?
I guess so because you have a liars mentality

You say you have it handled
You say it's better to lie
Are you really only as good as your lies?