Some kind of joy
I saw in that elevator girl
like no other creature before
she had an ice cream cone
rocky road
marshmallow chocolate nut
chunky toothy grin
she found her happy place
on an elevator
with an ice cream cup
from baskin robins
it was large
at least three scoops
she laughed
elevated
spirit and body rising up
the levels
forget the rocky road
she was going
up
up
up

When you're so sick of pills
You think you might need pills
To fix the pounding, the pulsing of your brain
You're so sick
The treatment hasn't worked in years
And you say you're dead inside and out
Get therapy, kid
Get help
Gosh just get with it

She said it happened this week
Doesn't remember the day
The night
The events leading up
She said it was in his car
He didn't force her
They didn't stop
She said they won't talk anymore
It won't happen again
She said they don't talk anymore
She said she's been passive before
Not like this
She doesn't care what they say
What they do
What they want
She remembers the drive home
The days that followed
She said it was only one time
He liked her
He cared about her
She said she believed it
She said she's okay








She said not to tell

It starts over every night
You have to warm up to me
Er, I have to warm up to you
Same room
Different days
You're happy
You shut down

It starts over every night
You have to warm up to me
Come back
I don't know you
You're in the same room
You're never really here

It starts over every night
You have to warm up to me
I learn something new
The ice starts to soften

It starts over every night.

Okay, sure I left
We did agree to talk
maybe empty words?
I'm not hurting
or falling apart
But we can still speak
pleasantries?
I'm not gone forever you know

drawn in
breathed out
whispers
hush, shhhh
creep around the corner
inhale
hit the wall
held tight
soft steps
heavy heart
weighed down
back pressed
hard building
barriers
walk away
brisk pace
gloomy alley
drip drip drip
worn walls
sewer water
creep around the corner
hush, shhhh
murky puddle
sneak a peak
creep around the corner
inhale
exhale
don't look away

I danced with a boy
he was cute
I didn't care
he had forgotten my name
I had met him only once
he thought he was cute
he thought I would care
I danced with a boy
we danced around topics
I didn't care
he fell in love with every dance