My heart is on my sleeve,
Easy to access
Easier to leave.

I know it shouldn’t be this way,
So simple for me to be hurt
And for love to go astray.

I am not prepared to place a lock,
Cause my heart to shut
Or block.

It isn’t anyone’s fault but my own,
I am the one that let them
Be shown.

Maybe it was wrong to be so open,
Yet I know that my emotions
Are what I place hope in.

I sit and I wait for things to reveal,
And pray that I don’t
Regret what I feel.

It’s easy to move on when you forget what you had.
It’s easy to be happy if you can’t remember you are sad.
But when you are me and you remember everything
Nothing seems as simple as it should be.
Memories hit and so does the pain
And you eventually remember that you are to blame.
I’ve known all along what you did wrong
And had to live every day thinking you were gone.
Now you are back and I don’t understand
It is like you aren’t you, now just a man.
That’s why I lied; I saw the joy in your life.
I knew if I revealed who you are
It would tear that apart.
And I just couldn’t bear to be
The one to destroy the life you have built.
I wish we could go back and erase our past
And start over with each other,
That we didn’t have to suffer.
I can’t though, the damage is dealt,
Everything you have done
And everything I have felt.
I owe you for what I am
And everything I can be
Because without you
There wouldn’t be me,
Not really.

Keep telling myself I am fine,
But honestly I know
That I am losing my mind.
Struck with obsession,
One thing in my head,
Must not have learned my lesson.
Reaching for normalcy,
Striving for sane,
But I know that
I am not okay.
It is a pain in my heart
That just won’t go away,
A wish in the air that
Will never fade.
He is all that I am not,
Everything I want,
But he will never be mine,
He will never be caught.

Every day I think of you
And everything you've put me through
But I can't help to feel
That what we had was pure and real.
It was long ago when you left town,
Less time since you broke my heart and let me down
But all this pain still feels so new
And no matter what I can’t get rid of you.

There was a time when you made me smile
But it hasn’t been like that for a while.
Now it seems that there are only tears,
And the sadness from these last few years.
I keep on waiting to feel okay
But then comes in another rainy and dark day.
I don't know if I'll be alright
Even with all my strength and might.

If it were up to me I would forget you
And all the memories too,
But I know I would regret it,
That without you there would be an empty pit.
I don't know if I would be better off
Because of you I am not so soft,
And I am who I am today
Because of everything you didn’t say.

You’ve changed,
It’s obvious to see.
I know it’s deranged,
How much you mean to me.

It doesn’t matter though,
Not like you ever cared.
It was all an act, a show,
Everything we shared.

You lied so much,
And yet you still act all righteous.
You’ve lost touch,
And have become vicious.

Do you know how much you’ve hurt my heart?
How ******* up I’ve been made?
Now we have grown apart,
The last brick has been laid.