What if just for the moment,
I'm gone?

Without warning,
Just starting to disintegrate
Into nothing.

Mirror, Mirror on the wall
was I always meant to fall?
roses white and dying light
silver's sweet forgiving bite
she'll ask "why"
no answers found
and i'll rot deep
beneath the ground.

The main thing I want,
                        

                                      Is for someone to ask, "Are you ok?"

Me too say "i'm fine, just tired."

                                     And for them to look me dead in the eye, hug me tight, and say, " I know your not."

I don't think people realize that I just want to be held
Because I'm scared and anxious and nervous and stressed
Please please please please hold me.
It seems as though everyone has someone to hold or be held by
It seems as though when people look for someone to give affection to its never me
*They look the other ******* way and I don't think they know how each time I feel even more unlovable then I already felt

You see at the end of
The road Dorothy
Got to go home.

"Just tap your shoes,
And say 'There's no
Place like home.'"

Tap one.
There's no place like home.

Tap two.
There's no place like home.

Tap three.
There's no place like home.


And i'm still
*here.