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606 · Jan 2015
please call
Kate Irons Jan 2015
i beg for you to call one last time because my worst fear is forgetting your sweet voice when i need to hear it the most
576 · Mar 2015
march
Kate Irons Mar 2015
letting go is the hardest part
569 · Feb 2015
vacant
Kate Irons Feb 2015
maybe it's because i get lost in your eyes,
maybe it's because i can't tell day from night
561 · Feb 2015
forgetting happiness
Kate Irons Feb 2015
i'm pretty sure that my headache has become the pain i have distracted myself with for the past few days so i didn't realize how many times you didn't answer the phone when i could barley see the words that i wrote when i was happy
559 · Dec 2014
bleeding sin
Kate Irons Dec 2014
I'm the
knife that broke
your skin
558 · Dec 2014
second chance
Kate Irons Dec 2014
i fell in love
but i'm not sure
if it was with you
or who you made me
544 · Jan 2015
Untold Future
Kate Irons Jan 2015
Tonight my grandfather looked at me and said,

"Where do you plan on being in four years?"

Usually, this question is simple to answer. The usual 'college' or what kind of job I would want to have, and I sat and thought about how I would respond. After a few moments of him staring at me, I said,

"I plan on taking care of myself for the first time."

He didn't really think that was funny, but what he didn't understand was that I wasn't joking. Ever since I was young, I have always had to take care of something or someone.

He waited for me to explain; he obviously didn't understand how that answered his question. I showed him examples from when I was young. Before my father got custody of me, I always helped my mom with whatever I could. Which wasn't a lot, because I was so young.

Between the ages of 8 - 11 are where I remember the most. This is when I was living with my father. He would fall asleep in the living room and I would wake up every night around 2:00 AM and I would check on him. He would be too drunk to wake up without getting sick, so I always tried to be quite. I would take the beer from his hand so I didn't have to clean up that mess the next morning. Then I would take his shoes and hat off, and I would turn off the TV. I'd always go back to his room to get his bed ready and then I would go back to turn all the lights off in the living room. There's no telling how many nights when I didn't get up and the doors were still wide open through the night. I would literally walk him back to his bed and lay him down, because he couldn't do by himself.

I was 8 years old.

A lot more has happen since then, and I still have to help him to bed sometimes. But now, I live with my grandparents and I have for years. They are getting to the point where I am helping them with everything.

Although my grandfather was surprised to hear my answer to his question, he listened to me for the first time and he understood.

I'm ready to take care of myself.
1/30/15
544 · Jan 2015
hollow
Kate Irons Jan 2015
the only thing keeping me alive
in my empty body
are the memories of your hands
holding me
544 · Jan 2015
signs of desperation
Kate Irons Jan 2015
i'm running from the pain but i always get stopped at a dead end
539 · Jan 2015
closed door
Kate Irons Jan 2015
i told you i needed you and you said you needed one more drink
539 · Feb 2015
was it real
Kate Irons Feb 2015
She told the most beautiful lie.
538 · Jan 2015
run to me
Kate Irons Jan 2015
i knew i fell in love when you first said my name
and i didn't hate the sound of it
535 · Dec 2014
in need
Kate Irons Dec 2014
sharpen your blade to my heart
**** me with your love
534 · Feb 2015
tired memories
Kate Irons Feb 2015
i love the way my heart breaks when you say you're too busy to talk
530 · Feb 2015
red lines
Kate Irons Feb 2015
i'll let you drag me to hell if it means you'll hold my hand
529 · Jan 2015
soft words
Kate Irons Jan 2015
we can pretend we're together if we look at the same stars
and whisper the same sins
528 · Dec 2014
regret
Kate Irons Dec 2014
i'm the feeling of regret that hit you when you left
518 · Jan 2015
around the corner
Kate Irons Jan 2015
you tell me to calm down without realizing that you're the reason why my heart breaks whenever i see someone happy
517 · Feb 2015
Untitled
Kate Irons Feb 2015
help i'm sad and falling apart
516 · Feb 2015
sitting shame
Kate Irons Feb 2015
crying in the rain so you can't see my tears
515 · Jan 2015
lost soul
Kate Irons Jan 2015
i would say that i miss you
but i'm not sure who you
are anymore
512 · Jan 2015
selfish thinking
Kate Irons Jan 2015
i would rather you to not sleep when i should
hold the attention your dreams keep
509 · Dec 2014
everlasting hope
Kate Irons Dec 2014
i want you to hear the words

i love you

without someone ripping your heart out
508 · Jan 2015
night out
Kate Irons Jan 2015
i fell in love when every screaming voice
in my head stopped at the sound of your laugh
506 · Dec 2014
physical emotions
Kate Irons Dec 2014
Loving you is like watching my own blood run down my arms and screaming 'it doesn't hurt'
502 · Jan 2015
trapped
Kate Irons Jan 2015
i'd say the worst part of me are all the
broken pieces of you that i tried to fix
499 · Jan 2015
unlocked
Kate Irons Jan 2015
I couldn't count how many nights
I woke up tangled in my sheets,
forgetting you weren't there
499 · Dec 2014
come home
Kate Irons Dec 2014
you're the midnight train my feet have been chasing after for days
496 · Jan 2015
circles
Kate Irons Jan 2015
trying to run away from you is like trying to forget where i live when i have to go back each night
493 · Jan 2015
black eyes
Kate Irons Jan 2015
The air is as cold as the knife you stuck in my back
489 · Jan 2015
endless worry
Kate Irons Jan 2015
she waits for the day that she wakes up and doesn't hate herself
488 · Dec 2014
walking backwards
Kate Irons Dec 2014
i stare into your eyes
waiting for you to leave
like all the others
487 · Dec 2014
/
Kate Irons Dec 2014
/
sometimes we just need a person to listen to how we really feel
i will always listen.
485 · Dec 2014
heavy
Kate Irons Dec 2014
i would say that it hurt when you tried to hold me again
but the pain from my wounds are numb
484 · Jan 2015
hopeless
Kate Irons Jan 2015
he can remind me everyday of how he loves me more than himself and
how he would give me his last breath to breathe if he had to

and i would still doubt that there is someone who will never leave,
i am so sorry that i have never trusted love
483 · Feb 2015
stained sheets
Kate Irons Feb 2015
Love is waking up each day and not wanting to be anywhere else
482 · Jan 2015
blissfully
Kate Irons Jan 2015
Love is every summer night when you roll your window down and only hear his heartbeat in every song
480 · Feb 2015
which way
Kate Irons Feb 2015
running from myself and getting nowhere
479 · Dec 2014
;
Kate Irons Dec 2014
;
i'll tell you my sins
so you can sharpen your knife
Take Me To Church // Hozier
478 · Feb 2015
spitting pleasure
Kate Irons Feb 2015
All i can hear is you saying "It's okay" while
you push my head farther under the water
475 · Dec 2014
beautiful nightmare
Kate Irons Dec 2014
my heart
seems to stop
when i notice your
smile
for a second
i've lost my chance
to breathe
i'm drowning
in your
eyes
and i can't
think of a better
way to
die
475 · Jan 2015
help
Kate Irons Jan 2015
"you don't have to be broken anymore"

then fix me
473 · Jan 2015
last lap
Kate Irons Jan 2015
the day that you finally left was
the day that my heart slowly stopped beating
and my hands started shaking
471 · Jan 2015
last breath
Kate Irons Jan 2015
the scars on my body make me hate everything about myself

but they remind me that i once felt something
470 · Dec 2014
cold heart
Kate Irons Dec 2014
her smile was beautiful

but it was as fake as the promises my mother made to stay
469 · Jan 2015
wrecked
Kate Irons Jan 2015
i apologize every time you hurt my feelings

and you still don't realize why i feel alone
469 · Jan 2015
endless trail
Kate Irons Jan 2015
you moved five months ago and i'm still trying to understand how i get lost going down the same road every night
467 · Jan 2015
useless
Kate Irons Jan 2015
what if you're the person i'm looking for
but you're hiding and don't want to be found
463 · Jan 2015
slighty falling
Kate Irons Jan 2015
my eyes are still stained red
from every moment you weren't
there for me when I was lost
in my own head
462 · Jan 2015
shining lies
Kate Irons Jan 2015
He walks underneath the pressure of his own shoulders and begs for the day to come where his smile isn't as fake as the Christmas lights around his dead tree
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