Dear ---,

I know I am being annoying and I promised you that I wouldn't bother you anymore, but you have no idea how much I worry for you. I don't even care if I'm being clingy, but if you're hurting I need you to tell me because I love you so much and if you hurt, I hurt.

I just want to know what you worry about endlessly.
I want to know what you think about when you escape your mind and daydream.
I want to know what you think when you see me.
I want to know what scares you.
I want to know about the questions you think of that makes you sit and ponder for days.
And I just want you.

So please, I know that right now we are rough but please tell me what's wrong because you know I would come to you in a heartbeat.

You have to trust me, and Lord knows I won't take no for an answer.

Love,
---

I don't feel bad for you,
Not being able to sleep,
You created your own demons,
I'm one of them

It's the color of the sky was when we made love in the meadow with only the constellations watching and your eyes were shining with desire.

Before you caged my heart, took the key and tossed it into blazing fire.

It's the shade of the ink I used to write you the one thousand and one love letters which remain stacked on my nightstand

It's the coffee I sip each morning before the sun rises as I stare out the window, reminiscing about the days when my smile was genuine and constant memories of us didn't burn my fingertips

It's the cloud of darkness that trails me as I stumble helplessly, trying an escape from the gloomy prison also known as my mind

It's the ashes that bind together to form my aching soul, ever since the single reason that once kept my feet planted on this planet and my lungs from disintegrating has disappeared

It's the material that sticks to my skin  as I mourn the girl I once was, for that carefree and free spirit is six feet under with the ground and hopefully heaven bound

And last but not least, it's the last thing I will see when I reach the point where I can longer cope without you and I've have enough of the demons thrashing in my head, because with the simple click of a trigger, everything will be red.

Z.D.L

Even though our physical bodies have yet to be introduced,
I feel as if our souls have known each other for eternity.

What a strange, rare indescribable feeling
Almost like deja vu, this familiar stranger
As if we met long ago in some far off dream
A alternative reality, where only the spirit lives

Your voice, so comforting, music to my ears
A gentle soul that resides on the same wave length as my own
Someone who can relate and sympathize with the demons of past experiences

So much time spent searching, waiting
for a companion, a true friend
Missing a person I've never met
Someone to take the time and effort to truly get know my heart.

Someone to see past this exterior body,
To look deep into my eyes and see the beauty of my soul.
To hear my thoughts, cherish my dreams and wash away the torment of my past.

Could that person be you?
The hope it brings renews my spirit
Lifts me so high, my feet are no longer touching the ground.