Sometimes
I want to close my eyes
And
never
wake up

We felt fear
We got frightened
We felt judgement
We were judged
We felt unworthy
We were met with no worth
We struggled to love
Heart was broken
We played the victim
We were ****** with abuse
Learning and living
Purging pain
Loving more each day
Lessons full of gain

Words
drip
          onto skin
Soothing
with
sensitive touch
Smoothing
over
                    curves
and
lines
Feeling
        light
pressure
sink
gently
with
each
stroke
Body flows
to
release
and
comfort
Easing
into
rest..

Lying in the dry grass
I can feel the prickles on my skin
Even when I wake

Taken to bed
Melancholy fed
Numbness compatible friend
No thoughts all left
Then a glimmer
A spriteful spark as stars would dance in palace of dark
Faintly see fluttering be
Can make out wings now
Dainty intricate pair or pairs
Circular movement draws the air
Petite figures
Ethereal hair
Not an insect that can see
Fairies come visit me
Wasn't sure I did believe before
Now I know there's more
Hidden in plain sight
For sure

Tears flow from hearts arrow
Needing to be pushed out
to fill the wound

Memories rush up and flood as soft skin bathes in bath tub
Realise from past love
Never really was enough
At time of course felt so in love
Though some intimacy untimely spared
How many moments did we both respectfully share
Too little with what should of been there
Too many occasions let myself be taken when didn't feel pleasing
Not enough special touches that gave for mind blowing reason
Changing with the flowing season
Water reflects
Washes away the tears

These layers they leach onto my skin
Who put them there to begin
Now one by one I have to shed them
Prise them off
Sometimes with care
Sometimes ripping rough
They have fattened fed from my blood
Do I starve them or send them love
They were a part of me after all
Creatures great and small

If you have a gun
You have no control

A furnace in the pit
Stirring washing over it
Churning
Whirling
Burning
Firming
Oh my insides are full of it

Touch me in first light
Our
shadows
can
dance
together

Crying from One eye
Left or Right
Feminine tide or Masculine Fire
The Fire Burned Bright Tonight

There's a fire that burns deep from roots of the earth
It will not be extinguished it was grown from birth
From a small seed planted it grew inside
To battle against raging winds and perils to thrive
Burning brighter in adversity
Glowing in the breeze
Flame reaching brighter
To fire with all that it can be
Passion and spark ignite in flame trees
You will not be blown out
Bough before effulgent leaves

Ships passing in the night don't want to come too close or break upon each vessel
Colliding until wrecks ashore
Daybreak bring passing fleets
back
to
port
<|

I find myself dying again


I just have to drift off somewhere between the waves

Body a shell
Layer to inside
Cover over light
Sun rays from the eyes
Taking in daylight
Directing back to shine
Shell washed up on the breeze
Floating with the air
Lighter than a feather
Risen up to high
Human reason come creeping in
Weighted to the ground
Fear
settles
down

Messiah with throne up high
Coronation crown of thorns
Arms stretched open
Heart is wide
Healing hands pinned from outside
Inside there's a home
A love you can't deny
See yourself in every man
God's greatest noble plan
They not yet to see
Shown by righteous mercy
Sacrifice for all that shall pass to be
Blood shed colour of corolla
A shade bled from the heart
Crown always to heavens stars
Healing forever in the soul
Your touch of purity Of gracious whole
No death to only those that die
The hill ascended shrine
The dark tomb no cold
No mind
Veins of green leaf vine
Climbing to spirits life
Divine

Rose
+
bloom
from mortal
coil
of
man

Life in these scenes
The room is alive
with
energy

Wasp at the window
Flew inside
Held a feast nibble and bite
I opened the window wide
The wasp dropped its treat and flew outside
May of wanted to hold on
But more so had need to be long gone....

I'll lay down with a peppermint tea get all warm and cosy
time for me
Rest tonight to wake up and put a smile on my face

Love me in my darkness
Love me in my light
When shadows tight surround me
In fear
In love
In fight
Take me with my visions
My crazy crass insight
Love me in the morning
Don't let go for the night

For all those moments you die a little more inside

It teaches you to live

I don't want my tears
to ever fall
for
nothing.

Sometimes along the way
There are people who have beautiful hearts and words to say
They keep a little hope for you
Lighten dark days too
They are the few that will never leave
Etch memories
into your
heart

My lovely friend was back in work today from her holiday
It has been her birthday yesterday
I brought some cake in
Rose icing
Sponge slicing
We had a jolly day
Sweet smiles on face
Missed her presence in the workplace
Once jobs were finished, we had our cake and ate it :)

Nature
in
our bones
Connection
to the ground
Rooted in stems
Forests in my mind
Sometimes wither
Fall behind
Cannot reach out between the leaves

Cord
will
always stretch
from me to you
No matter
the
direction
we take
Forever linked
For
infinity

Come
into
my
waves
I'll show you infinity
through
my eyes

Forget me not when we kiss and love in divine bliss
Forget me not when we have a friend in each other
Forget me not when we talk so deep and intense
Forget me not when we laugh like children
Forget me not when you go away
Forget me not when I cry
Forget me not when I struggle to live
Forget me not when I think it easier to die
Forget me not when hurt so hard the only way to move on is to let go
Forget me not when you are still in my thoughts  prayers  heart and soul
Forget me....
...Oh you have!
I forgot

Writing verse in gap in sleep
Last one about love light and holy trinity
I forget the way it goes now it was to form a triangle and say something along the lines of staying with the truth and seeing love in the face of the light of the holy trinity
the triangle was to shape words and bring together in unity
Unfortunately not in time to capture those exact thoughtful lines
Some I find the time some disappear into subconscious mine of mind
Shame I felt they were quite a poignant rhyme
I guess there's a jumbled gist to vaguely remind

My memory is like

Let's explore each other
from inside
out
Heart
to heart
Kiss to
mouth
Tender touch
Covering
skin
Love me as a woman
I'll treat you
as
a King

Dive
into
the ocean
Flowing with the waves
Passions on the high- rise
Love in every
way

Sun to heat the cool air
Breathing
deep
to
time
Take in sensitized feeling
Tune with cosmic rhythm and rhyme

Plummet
to
the
unearthed
Shooting over
stars
Coming home to heaven
For love is who
we
are

The beauty in the people is when they feel free to talk they come alive

Free spirited woman don't you stop
Your dance inside makes body bop
Fire to fire you just can't stop
Live the life of wakeful stock

Pink flowers swaying in the breeze
My mind gives
me
a
vision

You can
see
The land and sea
The
earth
from his eyes

My struggles and suffering help those who struggle and suffer
My healing helps too

When my heart had been broken enough times

You brought the healing

into my heart

It at first felt such pain

I didn't know if my heart could feel

love again

You brought the healing to regain

To feel the love inside of me

To feel the love within

Thankyou

Now

I feel love anytime I choose

That is because you taught me

how to

Thank  You!

💖

I put myself out there and I was met with a number of different views
Some opposing some supportive some disrespectful or crude
I found a wise man
I watched him online
I saw his expression of the one and how the blessing can come from the accused and to
How once we face our perishing
We feel we have nothing to lose
We let life swallow us
Now we open wide and take life in
Live a little and
We begin

From where we came
From order
From the ground
Taking each stair
Into the doorways of opportunity
The grand entrance
The arch ways
The community of faith
The dark far reaching caves into the now future and past
The warriors of war
Those who assist
The knights of templar
The humans of good will
The opening
At the mercy of the sea
Waves flowing lashing back over to me

Upon the earth the leaves settle
Dried from all the chill
The ground covered the crunch beneath foots standstill
The air circulates
Shrubs thrill
In this moment
The apparent shrill
Of left behind days
Up until
Chattering branches talk
Spoken on the bark
Life carries in the veins of creatures embark
Blank sheet a canvas for the sky
Outlines are marking purities vie
And the wind will whistle another tune
After winter's sonnet
Spring fresh bonnet
Ground again will bloom and life adore upon it

Already
died
internally
May as well live
Externally

****!
Cause sometimes you just need
a Good ****!

I've been humbled in this life many times
But my ego can still be a ******* *******

How strange
I forget where I was
I feel I'm this person but somethings changed
Perhaps this life was rearranged
Did I know myself before
Did I meet the people I now know
Is this the person I was born to be
Now then future me
Tell me or let it go
Bring a home
into my
soul

Drip!
Drip!  
Drip it all out!..
Let it drain you!  
Let the debris drop!
Clear water free flow from air to earth pipe

I'm drawing out my anxiety purposely
I'm feeling and being with it
I may transcend it or make peace with it
It is what it is

The path took me to psychology
Learning about behavior and conditioning of others
Taught me a lot about mine
Why we do what we do
Why we say what we say
Why we feel what we feel
How we direct that from ourselves to others
Why understanding is gain